[Chu Wanning was not someone given to envy often. And yet...envy was the only word for the feeling making his chest tight.
While Chu Wanning could fight anyone who tried to start something with him the idea of declaring to everyone what his feelings were was...terrifying. Cutting out his own spirit core seemed less terrifying.
And to be so certain that he loved and was loved more than anyone in this world...how could he believe either of those things? Until Mo Ran, no one had ever loved him, no one had ever seen him as someone precious or been glad to have him. And he...he couldn't even say half of these things in the privacy of his own home let alone in public like this.]
How can you be so certain?
[Immediately after he sent it, he regretted it. The question seemed too fragile or maybe just like he's questioning Wei Wuxian. The latter would cause unfortunate misunderstandings but the former was unacceptable to Chu Wanning's thin face so he quickly sends a second one:]
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While Chu Wanning could fight anyone who tried to start something with him the idea of declaring to everyone what his feelings were was...terrifying. Cutting out his own spirit core seemed less terrifying.
And to be so certain that he loved and was loved more than anyone in this world...how could he believe either of those things? Until Mo Ran, no one had ever loved him, no one had ever seen him as someone precious or been glad to have him. And he...he couldn't even say half of these things in the privacy of his own home let alone in public like this.]
How can you be so certain?
[Immediately after he sent it, he regretted it. The question seemed too fragile or maybe just like he's questioning Wei Wuxian. The latter would cause unfortunate misunderstandings but the former was unacceptable to Chu Wanning's thin face so he quickly sends a second one:]
Nevermind. Pretend I didn't ask.