[ serge doesn’t know how gilbert would feel. he wants serge to be happy, of course, but only because he doesn’t understand the conflict between duty and love. not that serge blames him, but—it’s not easy. none of it is easy. ]

I am… conflicted. I don’t think that doing what needs to be done for my family would be worth all the pain it would cause in the long run, and yet I can’t make myself let go of the idea.