[He wants to refute, tell him that there isn't anything to appreciate, but. Well. If Avdol is trying to avoid the depressing topic he'll try to do the same even though he's Depression Embodiment. So he doesn't press the topic and ANYWAY he's a little DISTRACTED with how much closer Avdol somehow is.]

Mm. Sorry. It's not much of an excuse, but I wasn't doing great then either. [worse than usual, even.]

But I think it'd be kind of. [god don't say nice] I'd like to see you do it.