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[darkcharge]

I don't know how you losers manage to get anything done. Before I didn't really understand why people didn't just do what they needed to and then move onto the next thing.

It's because of all these stupid emotions. Not only are they distracting, they just enable weakness. You sit there and think and process before doing something productive. Then you have to process some more because you had feelings over what just happened.

How do you even live with yourselves.

Excuse me, brother, but I want a refund.

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[letxequalnull]

I'm sure there are ways to... remove those emotions, should you truly wish to do so.

[darkcharge]

[ Kind of what like Riku was doing on the network. For everyone to see - not that this really bothers Vanitas overly much. It is just kind of uncalled for. After all, Riku had pointed some things out and so had Kairi. Some of these things Vanitas already sort of knows about himself, but hearing it from someone else makes it even more real. Even if he wants to deny it. ]

What if I don't like what they're saying.

[ Or maybe that's a conversation for another day. Instead his head snaps back up to look at the bird across the table. Breaking down what he's experiencing into simpler terms? ]

Like focusing on one at a time? Or...

[purport]

You don't have to like it. What I'd do with it would depend on the person, and how I evaluated what they had to say.

[Everyone has opinions. Hearing and considering them is one thing, but agreeing is another entirely.

But back to his point]

It may seem elementary, but perhaps begin with something easy. Identify what you like, or don't like, for instance. Or what you do and don't want. You've always had opinions, I'm sure.

[And from there, Vanitas can make associations with emotional responses, and it may help him parse his reactions. Sandalphon doesn't have firsthand experience with being new to this. He was always emotional, always grappled with it, and adored one person above all else.

None of that has really changed. But he thinks those connections might let Vanitas start to connect with his feelings, without drowning in a sea of new information]

[oncebrokenway]

Maybe Sora mentioned it first? Or maybe it was Ven...

Can't remember exactly, but "Vanitas is Ven's other half and he's made of negative emotions" came up on one of our debriefs with Yen Sid.

Nobody was specifically tattling on you, if that's what you're getting at.

[darkcharge]

It is what I was getting at.
Some of that I can understand being in a debrief.
However not all of it could have come from a source other than myself.
Hence it had to come from someone I told.

[oncebrokenway]

I don't know what you want me to tell you, man.
All I know is the debrief stuff.
Then I made the amazing leap of logic that being a broken-off half of a heart made out of darkness and negative emotions probably hurts?

[darkcharge]

:|
You really think I am going to believe that.

[darkcharge]

Does it involve removing the heart entirely?

[darkcharge]

Why wouldn't you?

[oncebrokenway]

You don't have to.
But it's not like I get anything out of lying to you.

[serpentillusion]

I will only regret my actions if it turns out that you regret yours honestly.

I knew it was risky, but I've yet to see if it was worth it just yet. Give it a little longer.

[darkcharge]

Maybe to get my guard down.

[oncebrokenway]

So I could... do what, exactly?

[letxequalnull]

It would. However, there may be... alternate methods.

[darkcharge]

Methods other than ripping out a heart I just got?
I'm listening.

[darkcharge]

Bring me down.

[darkcharge]

Give it a little longer.
How much longer do you want me to give it exactly?

[darkcharge]

[ In other words, not everyone's insights are going to or should matter to Vanitas. He's a little surprised to hear this. Van kind of had figured that he'd be told that all opinions and whatnot have value. At least this is what he expects from those bathed in light. ]

I don't know what I want. Not in the broad sense and not even in the long run.

[ Perhaps this is only one of the things Vanitas struggles the most with. The lack of a goal. The lack of vision. He doesn't know how to do short term goals and dreams. Now he doesn't even have a goal or dream. Nothing he wants to accomplish. Nothing beyond being complete, which he now is or is well on the way to becoming.

So he focuses on the other part. What he likes. What he doesn't like. Vanitas scowls into his cup, thinking really hard. Then a simple answer forms. ]

I like coffee.

[purport]

[Sandalphon can imagine what it's like not to be sure of one's desires. He always had known what he wanted, but Primals were created to have a role and a purpose. It anchored them and directed their actions. Without one, he had felt both absence and loss. And he wonders if that is something Vanitas is feeling, in his own way.

He'd reached his objective, but now has nothing to pursue beyond it. In this moment, he thinks it better not to ask]

As you learn more of yourself, that may change. It did for me.

[But there's no denying that he looks pleased by this first stated like. Clearly, Vanitas is off to a good start. Perhaps at some later time, he can try different varieties and decide what he prefers. Like versus dislike will do for now]

Well, you have good taste then.

[serpentillusion]

Until you can at least sort out your feelings properly.

Unless you're someone who would give up just because things got a little harder?

[darkcharge]

I haven't given up yet, have I?

[darkcharge]

How is that rough.

[serpentillusion]

I look forward to seeing your honest opinion in the future.

I know you don't really have much love of those of the Light, but it is the truth when I say that I am honestly curious.

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[bookwin]

But, how is something like that possible?

[oncebrokenway]

I've got no reason to do that.
I've got nothing personal against you and the War's over, so unless you decide to make yourself an active threat I've got no reason to mess with you.