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[teaserving]

hey you all had your turn with question asking and advice shit welll guess what its my turn ive paid my dues or whatever

the moon goons in white coats dont know how to answer this so here's a question for you if you're daead at home but you got revived on the fuckin moon what do you think happens when abruptly you get sent back huh what then
are we fucked
am i going back to wine heaven
or doiwake up with dirt in my mouth fuck you giorno

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[doreimi]

How long have you been pretending for? I mean, how long this time...

[teaserving]

narancia

[doreimi]

...Is that what it's really about?

You're worried about what he went back to?

[teaserving]

him and bucciarati and
one day im gonna have to deal with the fact that i'll never see mohammed again that thats shtty
but par for the course my romantic life has alwys been a tragdy

[doreimi]

...Sometimes I forget that —

...Yeah.
That's the other side of living here, isn't it?

It's great having a new fresh life, but it's easy to forget that it could all go away at any moment.

[teaserving]

i hate not knowing'i tell myself
this is my second chance
and i take it and some days are so good i could cry
and then i remmebr it could just end any second

[doreimi]

And it scares you, right? Because you don't want to be sad again. You can't imagine going back to being that sad and surviving.

It feels like...it would be better to be sad all the time, because then you'd just get numb to it. It's worse to be happy, because then you realize all the more just how sad the sad parts are.

[teaserving]

well i wouldnt be surviving anyway right
just back to whatever afterlife it was
i shouldnt even be bitching i have a chance when other people deserve it more than me
i dont want to just loe everything
ha ive nver been good at just accepting

[doreimi]

It was heaven. You went to heaven, that's how it is.

Is drinking really making you feel less afraid, though? I know it's not making you happier.

[teaserving]

i was miserable about heaven too

no
i was hoping itd make me pass out at this point ot behonest

[doreimi]

I don't think that's how heaven works.

[What she almost types, but doesn't, is you weren't there long enough to have an opinion, but that's a flash of sudden and unnecessary meanness that actually startles her when she discovers it. It's right around there that she starts to realize that maybe this topic has more of a effect on her than she otherwise might have anticipated, and that's...

Sometimes I forget that everyone hasn't had as long as I have to get used to being dead.

She's really not being fair to Abbacchio with thoughts like that, is she.]

You should go to bed instead. I can come over and help you get cleaned up for it, if you need me to.

[teaserving]

maybe it's just different for everyone
or i didn't even go there

no.
i dont want you to look at me right now

im sorry im a shit brother

[doreimi]

You're MY brother, and I don't want any other one but you.

Promise me I can come see you tomorrow. Okay? If I agree to leave you alone tonight.

[teaserving]

ok
i promise