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I hope everyone has been enjoying their Firialia festivities. I admit, I have been enjoying learning of new traditions and getting to experience new things myself. There is a danger in getting too set in one’s ways, I think, and I have found myself wondering if I have been guilty of that myself in the past. Though... it is hard, of course, to completely discard tradition, particularly when particular traditions have good memories associated with them.

Today is the 27th of the Ethereal Moon, by Fódlan’s calendar. It is the feast day of Saint Cichol, and... well, I have no intention of discussing the religious history of the day, since although I am a believer, that is not what the day is about for me. I’ve always considered it to be a somewhat quiet day spent with friends and family, which is probably why I find myself feeling a bit melancholy today. I am not missing any of the festivities as much as I am missing those I would celebrate the day with.

Perhaps that makes me somewhat greedy, as I do have many friends from home here. Yet, there is still one particular person I find myself missing terribly, and... well. I do not know every holiday that everyone celebrates, but it does seem like spending time with those close to you is a common theme among the ones I have heard of. Even among all the joy and celebration, I would imagine others are struggling with this, as well. Perhaps that is a bit presumptuous, and perhaps I am making it worse by saying it, but I think it is easier to deal with that sort of burden if you can talk about it with others.

So, if you feel comfortable doing so or think it will help, feel free to talk about someone you miss from home. Friends, family... perhaps even beloved animal companions, though those seem a bit more likely to make it here with you. I do not think any of those are any less important, really.

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I'm sure she misses you dearly, too, if time kept flowing without us back home.

Also; happy birthday~ 😘

Ah, thank you, Sylvain. I am somewhat surprised you remembered.

And yes, I am certain she would. I find myself worrying over whether that is the case or not quite often...

How could anyone forget? It's Saint Cichol's day. Obviously.

[SYLVAIN WHY IS THAT OBVIOUS.]

I find myself believing that if time did continue on without us, the course of history would be changed further than what might be... acceptable.
Though perhaps that's vain, considering how many of us appear to be from different timelines in the first place.

It's normally the new year that marks that particular occasion in my world, but I understand all too well.

I miss my daughters, my brother, and my companion dearly.

That does make a certain amount of sense. We are less than one week away from the end of the year, after all.

Ah... family has always been the hardest for me. My younger sister and I are very close, so this has been something of an ordeal.

My dearest sympathies.

I'd had my daughters sent away for a while at home - it wasn't exactly safe for them to remain in the presence of my court - but that's not quite as comforting as I thought it might be now that I'm here.

I'm the only one from my home. While I am blessed to have made many friends here, I dearly miss the ones from home.

[His other half doesn't count. He's closer than friends or family, and they couldn't be separated to begin with.]

Kyouka I miss the most, even though I know that of all my friends and acquaintances he would hate Prismatica the most. (Germophobia is not a good complement to moonlacing.) He's the person I confided in at home, such that I was able to confide my worries to anyone. And... it's been longer, and I won't be reunited with them when I return home, but I still miss my wife and my son.

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Ah, yes, I understand the feeling of wishing you could see someone again but not, well, here. I think I would worry myself to death if my sister ended up in a place like this, even though I miss her terribly.

...And I understand that feeling, as well. Missing people you can never reunite with, I mean.

In a place like this, that worry might be well-founded. How old is your sister, may I ask?

[oh no not that fucking question, let’s just dodge giving an exact number]

She is an adult, but certain circumstances resulted in the two of us being isolated for a long period of time when she was younger. As a result, she is still fairly naive in many respects, and I worry those with impure motives would attempt to take advantage of her...

[It's a reasonable question to ask in this context??]

So she's sheltered, but I'm guessing that she doesn't much appreciate you treating her like she isn't an adult who can make her own decisions.

We’ve... discussed it, yes. It really is a difficult situation, since I do want her to be happy and I do trust her, but it really is almost impossible to stop worrying about her safety.

Maybe instead of trying to prevent her from ever being hurt, it would suit you to take a more punitive role? She can date or moonlace with whoever he wants and make her own decisions, and if anyone ever breaks her heart, you will bring down retribution on them. It goes without saying that telling potential suitors of this beforehand is going against the spirit of letting her make her own decisions.

...I don't want her heart to get broken in the first place. Admittedly, it was easier to deal with back home, since I knew most of the young men she interacted with and was able to draw up a list of who would be likely to break her heart and who wouldn't, but I cannot get to know all of the young men here...

Having your heart broken is just the risk of falling for someone. You can't protect her from that forever.

[ She knows this feeling, honestly. ]

I'm missing her, too, Seteth.

I'm not entirely certain that I'd want her here though. I simply pray she is safe and happy.

In the meantime, perhaps something calming to take your mind off things? I know where to grab a good cake.

I am uncertain of that as well. I keep finding things that I think she would enjoy, and in some ways this place is safer for us than our home... but is it really worth the ways in which is unsafe? There is no guarantee she will ever arrive here in the first place, either...

That sounds nice, though.

[ Knowing how Flayn can be sometimes, Rhea is more concerned about Seteth's health than Flayn. She offers yet another quiet prayer for both that and Flayn's sanity. ]

Is there a time in which you wish to meet?

I think I would be fine meeting around noon. That should give us time to get everything in order.

Oh Seteth. This must be rough on a day meant to celebrate you.

Would you like to go for a walk with me? We can discuss whatever you wish.

Well, it really isn't meant for that... but a walk would be nice, yes. Perhaps we could get some tea on the way.

I would like that. My treat. I insist.

Well, I suppose I should not waste time arguing with you about that, seeing as it is my birthday.

Precisely. Any argument you might have will fail for that very reason.

There's no helping it, I suppose. I'm free most of the day, at the very least, so I can meet with you at any time.

Excellent. I'll come right away.

I'm lucky enough to have one of my important people from home here, but there is one person I miss. Back home, we were coworkers, and we used to work together pretty closely.

We had...something of a falling out, though, because she lost sight of what was really important to her and started behaving in ways I couldn't let stand. We hadn't had a proper conversation in months, but I've been told she's come to her senses recently. I wish I could see for myself, if only for my own peace of mind.

I can definitely understand wanting to see that person again. I had a similar experience, though I would not say we had a falling out so much as circumstances prevented us from having a proper discussion about things so we could actually try to work things out. Fortunately, once we managed to encounter each other again, we were actually able to do so.

I hope you manage to work things out with your coworker at some point. It is always good to see someone getting back on the right path, I think.

[Nope, sorry, he's not messing around with this weird electric typewriter thing. Enjoy your view of half a screen full of thumb. The other half of the screen shows some guy sitting shirtless in what looks like a tent, leaning back against a mound of orange fur.]

Far as I can tell, I'm the only one'a my group that got brought here. 'Course, I ain't been here long, but I figure they would'a come to laugh at me or somethin' for messin' up that first...what you call these here movin' picture things? Videos? I think that's right.

But my point is, only one I got from home is Giet here, so there's plenty of people I'm missin'. But that's just how life goes, ain't it? Sometimes you gotta go off on your own, but you ain't really alone. A true bond don't care none about distance.

[The lump of fur behind him barks, and the speakers pick up a soft thumping sound.]

[well, he’ll match the format, then...! And he does kind of smile at the sentiment.]

Honestly, it has taken me some time to adjust to the new technology, as well. But in any case... well, you are right about that. That is simply what it means to bond with someone—it can be painful to be separated, but you know all will be well once you see each other again.

'Xactly. I know they'll still be waitin' for me when I get back home, an' I know they can take care of themselves too. I'm just gonna have to make sure an' keep notes so I can catch 'em up on what they've been missin'.

The people I am concerned about... well, I’m sure they’ll be fine. Though I must admit, if time actually passes while we are here, I am a bit worried... it isn’t as though I don’t think they can handle things as they are, but I wish I could be there to help support them.

Guess I'm lucky I didn't come here 'til after we got everything all sorted out.

[He scratches the back of his head.]

I mean, I still got my boys to worry about, but I know Csaba'll take good care of 'em while I'm gone. Ain't the first time I've had to leave him in charge.

Ah, certainly. Things were... mostly settled back home, at least, but that just means there is so much work to be done. My closest colleagues are experienced on the battlefield, but politics are a very different beast.

You mean they're a pain in the ass. I'm just as glad to leave all that bullshit to someone else, seems to me like it's just a fancy way of sayin' 'tryin' to find who can be the sneakiest about screwin' everyone else over'.

[.......Seteth kind of sighs and rubs his brow because yeah. yeah that's... that's so true...]

...You're not incorrect by any means. I dislike it myself, but someone has to mitigate it...

I guess. Considerin' what happened after that first war I was in, I guess I can't argue with that. If it wasn't one asshole causin' trouble, it was another.

it would be the rinne festival back home
praying for the dead and exchanging gifts... it's more cheerful than it sounds! now anyway
I guess I've been doing the same things here though

and I don't really have any family back home but I miss my team
we've never been separated this long before
I hope they're okay without me

No, I can certainly see how that would be a cheerful affair. I think it is important to celebrate the memory of those who have left us rather than dwelling on the parting. It seems much more pleasant than whatever happened during Lunatia’s equivalent of that sort of thing, even though I do not think any of that was intended.

...It really is difficult to know what is going on without us. I worry most about my family, but I also worry that those I was working with are doing well.

that was a pretty awful welcome to the city
at least making offerings now doesn't seem to open us up to being haunted. again
I think it's an important thing to do too, though
even if the people we've lost can't hear it... I don't want to forget

my team can be really annoying sometimes
but I know they're capable, I trust them
maybe I worry more about myself here alone than what they're doing

It really was, particularly when you have never seen one of these phones before... but at least things have quieted down to an extent. And... yes. It's a difficult thing, I think. It is important to remember, but it is also important that you do not become trapped in those memories.

Ah, that is understandable. I have actually found myself with much more free time than I used to have without my responsibilities and my sister to look after, so it has been somewhat difficult to figure out how to fill my days. I have a job, at least, but outside of that...

[She's a little guilty of getting stuck in her memories lately- the holidays playing the biggest part. Just gonna casually sidestep that comment.]

a lot of us seem unused to sitting around so much
if all the filled security positions I've missed are any indication anyway
I don't think a civilian kind of job is a good fit for me though, same thing every day
not that there's anything wrong with it!
I just don't think I'd be any good at it. I know how to fight, not make coffee

I can make coffee though. but all day? no thanks

It's very true, isn't it? I'm lucky that I've had many roles that I have taken on in the past, so I am fairly adaptable. I have known several mercenaries and professional fighters, though, and I do wonder how they'd fare in a place like this. Perhaps the Moon Knights would be an option for you?

not very well, I can tell you that much
I guess mercenary would describe what I'm used to, but moon knight sounds like a fun title to take on, doesn't it?
I've seen them around when things get... hectic, trying to protect the people here
but I'd have a lot of studying to do, my home didn't have anything like the technology here
something to occupy my time with, I guess!
what job did you take?

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