(If Enji returned home and forgot about this world, about Kanda, then there was some comfort in the man not needing to mourn any loss he may have felt for what was left behind here.
It was better that way and perhaps one day he'll hope for that. However, he's hurt and the selfish part of him hopes Enji knows exactly what and who he left behind here. Kanda wishes Enji's stupid promises haunt him and he thinks of Kanda whenever he gets off and a cold depression settles across his skin afterwards. Kanda's unsettled and his mind and mood tussle for sincerity which ultimately will come after the calm of his raging storm. In the end he knows exactly what he will want for Enji - but he's far from that perspective, rather, he's stagnant in his wallowing despair.)
He's a hero, he's supposed to say stupid things like that..
Even if he knows he can't help it. I was the idiot to believe it. That we had that much control.
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It was better that way and perhaps one day he'll hope for that. However, he's hurt and the selfish part of him hopes Enji knows exactly what and who he left behind here. Kanda wishes Enji's stupid promises haunt him and he thinks of Kanda whenever he gets off and a cold depression settles across his skin afterwards. Kanda's unsettled and his mind and mood tussle for sincerity which ultimately will come after the calm of his raging storm. In the end he knows exactly what he will want for Enji - but he's far from that perspective, rather, he's stagnant in his wallowing despair.)
He's a hero, he's supposed to say stupid things like that..
Even if he knows he can't help it. I was the idiot to believe it. That we had that much control.