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(It's the second day of Enji's disappearance 1/2/20. Kanda has not been successful in reaching out to Enji personally. No matter how many times he sent texts to Enji, the man did not respond. He's desperate. So he reaches out to the network, anonymously.)

Enji? Has anyone seen Enji Todoroki..?

(Hold on,
Not long now.
Feet almost back on the ground.

Kanda sat in his room, his room .. Enji's room, while he sent the text out. Kanda considered the both of them quite private. If Enji didn't tell anyone about Kanda then he wouldn't out himself to those Enji's touched while he was here. If Enji's gone then they ought to know.

If Enji's avoiding Kanda for some reason then he's taken to the network like a spoiled child searching for attention - someone will respond with what he needs to know, right? If Enji's with someone else, if he picked up and moved then someone would know - or maybe Enji would answer this post himself. Kanda can barely strategize clearly outside the ache within him: maybe this was a terrible fucking idea.

Hold on,
Wait for the sign.
Not long now,
Running the red light.

He knew he wasn't the only one in Enji's life, but the times he was with Enji made him feel like he truly was the only one. That this whole world was crafted just for the two of them to clash into one another, to discover what they were made of here and in some way acknowledge what they never allowed themselves to do so before coming here. Some piece of Enji was reserved for Kanda, of that he as sure, just as he felt some piece of himself was also locked away in wait for Enji to uncover. It was more than physical - it was something deeper than just what was enjoyed through carnal euphoria, it was almost spiritual..

It was the only way Kanda could explain it. It was both like and unlike his Innocence, his ethereal power, which was a weapon for demons not a key to unlock the piece of Eden he'd found with Enji. They didn't find themselves in this euphoric state long before now and Kanda can guarantee it's Karma.

I never thought I could need someone like I need you,
But I'll know when I see it.

The absence of Enji Todoroki tore at him in ways that his rejuvenation power could not touch. It was up to him to deal with the gash in his soul where only few people got close enough to touch. Two days was enough for Kanda to recognize his insanity; Enji's absence brought him a clarity he would not see while the Fire Hero was here. Instead of Kanda living in this blissful ignorance he had no choice but to recognize he lived in a world where there were no certainties. Layers made to repel others from getting in too deep had began to peel back, for Enji, but he was only the beginning. Enji's work on Kanda left him almost defenseless to others he'd come across in this world as well. Enji left him vulnerable and open for people to creep beneath his skin.

I still leave the doors unlocked,
I let the candles burn out,
Guess I'm still waiting for something.
Leave my messages unread,
Chase the feeling round my head,
But I'll know when I see it.

Kanda sets his phone to his side and he sighs. He brings his hands up to his face and he runs his palms up to his hair which is out of its usual ponytail. He's sure the text may even bring people to the apartment. He's not sure he's willing or ready to answer the door, but he's certain about one thing: Enji's not going to be walking back through that threshold. I don't want this fucking place.. He thinks more out of spite for the predicament he's in. Why would he stay in this place with all these memories, with all these stains. Why would he linger here to absorb whatever is left of Enji's presence? This was too much for Kanda and he contemplates on leaving. Yet, depression keeps him grounded and he lacks motivation to put this all behind him. Perhaps after he receives his answer from his post he'll feel differently. Though, he knows all he's waiting for is a confirmation to the only real question: Did Enji leave me? Either to another place here or back home the answer was yes. That wasn't going to change.

Hold on,
Not long now,
Conversation keeps the calm down.
My words feel just like regret,
Still don't know what we should have said.

A numbness settles in for now, he has no control over Enji - perhaps that's not really what he wanted but he can't help but think back to when Enji was here and Kanda could dominate the hero's time. He liked the way Enji was attentive to him, sensitive to Kanda's needs, and congenial to the environment of their shared apartment. Kanda did his best to put a little of himself here for Enji even when Kanda worked long nights and was gone for most of the day. He never wanted to put himself in a situation where he needed chroma which was another regulation of his controlling nature. It was a big deal to delve into the physical part of his relationship with Enji, he never wanted to do it when he needed chroma - he only ever wanted to do it when they both wanted it. When they both could own their actions and not give any credit to this world for pushing them into something prematurely.

But I'll know when I see it.
I still leave the doors unlocked,
I let the candles burn out,
Guess I'm still waiting for something.
Leave my messages unread,
Chase the feeling round my head,
But…

But maybe it was premature of them in the end - because Kanda's here feeling ripped apart. Which could mean Enji inevitably did take some part of him to wherever it was Enji left him for.

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got a picture to go with that name?

[ He doesn't actually care; he's just bored. ]

(Which tells Kanda this "cain" doesn't know Enji if they're asking for a pic.)

Read 9:30 PM

[ Oh, he knows him. Just not by name. Whatever, time to be an asshole just because. ]

i guess it doesn't mean that much to you since you're not answering

If you do not know him by name then I do not think you can answer my question.

that's stupid thinking
if you're looking for someone everyone should know about it

I posted this, everyone does.

Wait, Todoroki's gone?

How long?

Two days.

I'm assuming no blood, burn marks, evidence of a fight? Just up and gone?

Exactly. He hasn't been in his apartment for two days. Others have said they could not contact him either.

I would have thought he was taken but he would have put up a fight.

(Kanda refrains from stating that he would have noticed as well..)

[Kanda can probably feel the sigh across the text message.]

Great.

Have you heard anything from his son, Shoto Todoroki about if he knows?

He would have fought, and it would have been nasty.

Shouto has not responded to me. He may respond to you.

That's... odd for him.

I'll see if I can get a hold of him.

I'll wait to hear from you, if anything comes up.

if youve got to ask then im sorry dude but theyre gone
dont worry too much
people come back sometimes just keep your eye on the network

What will the network tell me, how will I know they returned? .. Or left for that matter?

im guessing you did what i would do and tried to get a hold of them right?
if i got no response and it wasnt like them then ok maybe go knock on their door
network is where most of us talk at
if theyre here theyll show up when theyre back

[[Or so he hopes. Realizing on his return that others have gone is sad.]]

That's exactly what I did. I appreciate the advice.

yeah i thought so
i really hope that your friends still here and just being an asshole
dont know what else i can do to help but let me know if i can i know what its like to want to search for someone here and not find them

Do you know Enji Todoroki? Someone wanted a picture, I don't know if that would help?

only one i knew with a name like that was a middle age texan and im betting thats not them with the last name
honestly long as a picture aint gonna hurt nothing give the person the picture
hell if you got a picture throw it here and ill go take a fly around i got nothing that cant wait
i dont want your hopes up but never hurts to try

I'd appreciate it. Here's a few pictures - it's all I could find.

link [ ooc/ic -- ?? In any case, here's some photos~ ]

huh
is that actual..
waiiiit a fucking second
i remember someone saying something about a guy whos literally on fire
fuck who was it
not everythings coming back at once same real nice chick who told me about a second nice chick that made a blanket for them out of fuck all
i never met the guy but ill keep both my eyes open
have a bit of a fly around these do nicely

Made of fire. I like to think of him that way.

Thank you for your help.

made of fire
you know that sounds cooler so ill go with that too

yeah no problem man i hope i find him for you or someone does
will get back to you in a couple hours

[[Of course, Dave isn't going to be able to, but it won't stop him.]]

(There's incredible comfort in knowing others have interest in finding Enji - even those who do not know this man. Kanda's also not surprised to find the man had a bit of a reputation himself. Though Kanda did not reside from where Todoroki came from he can appreciate the massive man's legacy; Endeavor. Evidently his hero name. Kanda was no hero, he wasn't even well liked--

people did not rejoice when they saw him, not like they would with Enji - a true hero and he attributes a little bit of Enji's trade to why he is known even by those who have never met him here. Unlike Kanda who worked in the shadows, Enji was the man who brought light to the darkest of places.)

Thank you.

man nah
its good

[[Dave, if he knew, would be glad to know that himself (and others) were a comfort. Knowing that not everyone he really loved was here when he got back either was a little more than a downer and the idea he was helping was something at least he could control. He knew what he was going to find, or not going to find, but the sympathy and empathy of the situation didn't change what was going on for whoever this person was looking for their friend, Dave assumed.

No matter what time he jumped to, or where he took steps to or his look around in a more birds eye aerial view, from what Dave could see, he was right. Not much to be done. At least he tried. Someone who was looking this hard for someone else couldn't be all that bad, it meant they had the capacity to care and it didn't come across creepy stalker, it came across concerned someone. He wouldn't have tried otherwise. A couple hours went by but he made good on his promise to respond with the results]]

not what youre going to want to hear
my bro always said the bandaid gets ripped off
i tried but i didnt see anyone
aside looking in windows im not sure where else other than all you can do is wait
which sucks
they dont even let people say goodbye
i hope im blind and that hes just taking some time to himself
im not juiced up enough to check too far into the future without probably fucking something up but what i could check i couldnt see anything in the immediate next couple hours

(Under normal circumstances Kanda may have inquired more to what the other was talking about. However, all he knows is that Enji's not to be found. There's far too much emotion caught in his throat to inquire what the other meant about future sight, messing things up, or whatever - he figures its some sort of gift, talent, or ability brought here by the other.

It doesn't matter.

Nothing matters.)

You were kind enough to help. I appreciate that. I would repay the favor if needed in the future, let me know.

We had plans for NYE and he didn't show. He hasn't been answering my texts either.

I see.

I'm going to go searching. He can be stubborn so maybe he's just ignoring me.

Want an update if I find him?

If you do find him, I would appreciate an update. Yes. I do not think he would ignore the both of us, seems unlikely.

Ok. I'm on it.

[Hawks searches throughout the day on and off, ignoring the cold as best he can. But he's already pretty certain that something bad has happened. Enji does ignore people when he's angry, and the man can be standoffish and aggressive in turn. But he's not someone who would let multiple people who cared about him go for extended periods of time worrying. Not without some sort of quick text to demand some space.

Mid-morning on the third, Hawks texts back.]

No luck on my side of things. What about you?

No.

I think he's left. I'm convinced he wouldn't leave his contacts in the dark for so long.

Figured as much. It can't be helped, but he's probably happier back home anyway. This place is boring for him.

(This information doesn't sit well with Kanda. This place is boring for him.. Could that be true? What should be true is that Enji is better off at home if he's going to be happier there.

The mood the thoughts have put him in keeps him from responding.)

Don't know the guy, but if you don't hear from them, they've probably been sent back home.
If not, then to another place like this. Probably worse than here. I came from a place like that.

If you're really close with them, I hope it ain't the latter, my dude.
Keep on keepin' on, Anon.

Edited 2020-01-01 11:50 (UTC)

Another place like this? You don't mean the moons? Are you saying he could have gone to.. another world?

You've been to more places than just here and your own world?

(Kanda can't even ... this is .. too much.)

No, not the moons.
Another strange city, in a another world altogether with a different set of rules. I'm not sure how to explain, but yes. It's possible.
If that happened he wouldn't have had a choice in the matter, though. It just happens.
Maybe it's supposed to happen, or maybe its a mix up, but I ended up here after being in the other place.

[He's trying to help, but maybe he's making it worse?]

(This is unsettling news, in that if Enji was thwarted into another world he would need to learn how to acclimate and build himself back up to surviving or living comfortably in a new world.

The idea was overwhelming and Kanda has little desire to imagine this is the case.

Where.. would you take me?
To where I'm from. Japan, just a different time, with different circumstances. But you might like it.

I might, I'd like to see it, in any case.

There was some comfort, at least, in the anonymity of this post to which he feels comfortable enough stating one thing that troubles him.. above all else:)

He said he would take me with him.. if he ever left.

Look, I dunno the guy, but people don't generally make those statements all willy nilly. He probably meant it, which means he probably didn't have a choice, right?

Try to be hopeful, I guess. If he remembers this place, and your conversation, maybe he's trying his best to come back to you right now. If he doesn't, then..he might just be happy being home again with no memory of ever having left? I dunno for sure but from the way they talk about it here and the place I came from, it's impossible to know for sure what really happens unless it happens to you, and it hasn't happened to me personally. Not like that.

(If Enji returned home and forgot about this world, about Kanda, then there was some comfort in the man not needing to mourn any loss he may have felt for what was left behind here.

It was better that way and perhaps one day he'll hope for that. However, he's hurt and the selfish part of him hopes Enji knows exactly what and who he left behind here. Kanda wishes Enji's stupid promises haunt him and he thinks of Kanda whenever he gets off and a cold depression settles across his skin afterwards. Kanda's unsettled and his mind and mood tussle for sincerity which ultimately will come after the calm of his raging storm. In the end he knows exactly what he will want for Enji - but he's far from that perspective, rather, he's stagnant in his wallowing despair.)

He's a hero, he's supposed to say stupid things like that..

Even if he knows he can't help it. I was the idiot to believe it. That we had that much control.

I’m sure I said something like that to the person I love without thinking about whether or not it was possible. Just because I hoped it might be true.

Then we got separated, and I woke up here. So did he, but for him he had spent three months in that shitty place without me. I hope your friend comes back, and I hope you don’t have to wait three months..

(He has his suspicions, but it doesn't matter who this person is. I got lucky.. Wasn't that the way he said it? Lucky.)

Maybe I'll get lucky.

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