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prismatica2019-12-31 05:55 pm
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Enji? Has anyone seen Enji Todoroki..?
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Hold on,
Not long now.
Feet almost back on the ground.
Kanda sat in his room, his room .. Enji's room, while he sent the text out. Kanda considered the both of them quite private. If Enji didn't tell anyone about Kanda then he wouldn't out himself to those Enji's touched while he was here. If Enji's gone then they ought to know.
If Enji's avoiding Kanda for some reason then he's taken to the network like a spoiled child searching for attention - someone will respond with what he needs to know, right? If Enji's with someone else, if he picked up and moved then someone would know - or maybe Enji would answer this post himself. Kanda can barely strategize clearly outside the ache within him: maybe this was a terrible fucking idea.
Hold on,
Wait for the sign.
Not long now,
Running the red light.
He knew he wasn't the only one in Enji's life, but the times he was with Enji made him feel like he truly was the only one. That this whole world was crafted just for the two of them to clash into one another, to discover what they were made of here and in some way acknowledge what they never allowed themselves to do so before coming here. Some piece of Enji was reserved for Kanda, of that he as sure, just as he felt some piece of himself was also locked away in wait for Enji to uncover. It was more than physical - it was something deeper than just what was enjoyed through carnal euphoria, it was almost spiritual..
It was the only way Kanda could explain it. It was both like and unlike his Innocence, his ethereal power, which was a weapon for demons not a key to unlock the piece of Eden he'd found with Enji. They didn't find themselves in this euphoric state long before now and Kanda can guarantee it's Karma.
I never thought I could need someone like I need you,
But I'll know when I see it.
The absence of Enji Todoroki tore at him in ways that his rejuvenation power could not touch. It was up to him to deal with the gash in his soul where only few people got close enough to touch. Two days was enough for Kanda to recognize his insanity; Enji's absence brought him a clarity he would not see while the Fire Hero was here. Instead of Kanda living in this blissful ignorance he had no choice but to recognize he lived in a world where there were no certainties. Layers made to repel others from getting in too deep had began to peel back, for Enji, but he was only the beginning. Enji's work on Kanda left him almost defenseless to others he'd come across in this world as well. Enji left him vulnerable and open for people to creep beneath his skin.
I still leave the doors unlocked,
I let the candles burn out,
Guess I'm still waiting for something.
Leave my messages unread,
Chase the feeling round my head,
But I'll know when I see it.
Kanda sets his phone to his side and he sighs. He brings his hands up to his face and he runs his palms up to his hair which is out of its usual ponytail. He's sure the text may even bring people to the apartment. He's not sure he's willing or ready to answer the door, but he's certain about one thing: Enji's not going to be walking back through that threshold. I don't want this fucking place.. He thinks more out of spite for the predicament he's in. Why would he stay in this place with all these memories, with all these stains. Why would he linger here to absorb whatever is left of Enji's presence? This was too much for Kanda and he contemplates on leaving. Yet, depression keeps him grounded and he lacks motivation to put this all behind him. Perhaps after he receives his answer from his post he'll feel differently. Though, he knows all he's waiting for is a confirmation to the only real question: Did Enji leave me? Either to another place here or back home the answer was yes. That wasn't going to change.
Hold on,
Not long now,
Conversation keeps the calm down.
My words feel just like regret,
Still don't know what we should have said.
A numbness settles in for now, he has no control over Enji - perhaps that's not really what he wanted but he can't help but think back to when Enji was here and Kanda could dominate the hero's time. He liked the way Enji was attentive to him, sensitive to Kanda's needs, and congenial to the environment of their shared apartment. Kanda did his best to put a little of himself here for Enji even when Kanda worked long nights and was gone for most of the day. He never wanted to put himself in a situation where he needed chroma which was another regulation of his controlling nature. It was a big deal to delve into the physical part of his relationship with Enji, he never wanted to do it when he needed chroma - he only ever wanted to do it when they both wanted it. When they both could own their actions and not give any credit to this world for pushing them into something prematurely.
But I'll know when I see it.
I still leave the doors unlocked,
I let the candles burn out,
Guess I'm still waiting for something.
Leave my messages unread,
Chase the feeling round my head,
Butβ¦
But maybe it was premature of them in the end - because Kanda's here feeling ripped apart. Which could mean Enji inevitably did take some part of him to wherever it was Enji left him for.)
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if i got no response and it wasnt like them then ok maybe go knock on their door
network is where most of us talk at
if theyre here theyll show up when theyre back
[[Or so he hopes. Realizing on his return that others have gone is sad.]]
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Happy new year!
i really hope that your friends still here and just being an asshole
dont know what else i can do to help but let me know if i can i know what its like to want to search for someone here and not find them
Happy new year to you, thank you for the tag!!!
You're welcome, thank you, too!!
honestly long as a picture aint gonna hurt nothing give the person the picture
hell if you got a picture throw it here and ill go take a fly around i got nothing that cant wait
i dont want your hopes up but never hurts to try
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link [ ooc/ic -- ?? In any case, here's some photos~ ]
IC's okay with me! <3
is that actual..
waiiiit a fucking second
i remember someone saying something about a guy whos literally on fire
fuck who was it
not everythings coming back at once same real nice chick who told me about a second nice chick that made a blanket for them out of fuck all
i never met the guy but ill keep both my eyes open
have a bit of a fly around these do nicely
c: !!
Thank you for your help.
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you know that sounds cooler so ill go with that too
yeah no problem man i hope i find him for you or someone does
will get back to you in a couple hours
[[Of course, Dave isn't going to be able to, but it won't stop him.]]
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people did not rejoice when they saw him, not like they would with Enji - a true hero and he attributes a little bit of Enji's trade to why he is known even by those who have never met him here. Unlike Kanda who worked in the shadows, Enji was the man who brought light to the darkest of places.)
Thank you.
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its good
[[Dave, if he knew, would be glad to know that himself (and others) were a comfort. Knowing that not everyone he really loved was here when he got back either was a little more than a downer and the idea he was helping was something at least he could control. He knew what he was going to find, or not going to find, but the sympathy and empathy of the situation didn't change what was going on for whoever this person was looking for their friend, Dave assumed.
No matter what time he jumped to, or where he took steps to or his look around in a more birds eye aerial view, from what Dave could see, he was right. Not much to be done. At least he tried. Someone who was looking this hard for someone else couldn't be all that bad, it meant they had the capacity to care and it didn't come across creepy stalker, it came across concerned someone. He wouldn't have tried otherwise. A couple hours went by but he made good on his promise to respond with the results]]
not what youre going to want to hear
my bro always said the bandaid gets ripped off
i tried but i didnt see anyone
aside looking in windows im not sure where else other than all you can do is wait
which sucks
they dont even let people say goodbye
i hope im blind and that hes just taking some time to himself
im not juiced up enough to check too far into the future without probably fucking something up but what i could check i couldnt see anything in the immediate next couple hours
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It doesn't matter.
Nothing matters.)
You were kind enough to help. I appreciate that. I would repay the favor if needed in the future, let me know.