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(Sanguis has blessed her and no one can tell her differently. Daenerys is standing before a mirror, running her fingertips over the horns protruding from her head. However those additions do not thrill her as much as the leathery wings on her back.

If her smile makes you feel a bit uncomfortable, that is understandable. The scales on her cheeks and the fact that her blue eyes are anything but human don't help matters, however there is an undefinable quality about her. Perhaps this isn't a blessing after all.)

Am I a monster? (Her hands shake as she presses her talons against her cheeks.) Is this...me? Have I always been this?

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(She has run from this. She has blinded herself with sex, Lunatia, new acquaintances, but this is...

This is what is left.)

I did it. I became him.

[He has no idea who "him" is, but regardless it seems she's very lost in her anguish. There's so little he can do from here...

Will she even listen?]

You are still you. Only your outward appearance has changed.

(She stares at him before closing her eyes, her lips twisting.)

What I did...was monstrous.

Sanguis is revealing who I am.

Then I must truly be a rabbit if that's what the moons do.

[It's slightly teasing, but that may not come through entirely in his voice. He's hoping she'll see how ridiculous that statement is given that the moons seem to have their own whims entirely.]

A true monster would justify their actions, not call themselves a monster for it.

The qualities of a rabbit might fit you.

(Whims, yes. But what guides the moons? Are they aware of their past sins? Daenerys has avoided calling her actions sins, relying on her pride and her thirst for justice to keep her strong.)

I did. I did justify what -

I closed my eyes and told myself it was necessary.

[Wow, okay, just come out and say it...

... some things might fit, though.]

At the time it was happening, yes. Sometimes necessary and good don't line up the way we hoped they would. I stand by what I said, though - a monster wouldn't recognize their own actions as monstrous.

You came around to that eventually, and eventually is better than never.

(She could make it infinitely worse, but she won't do that to him.)

I am questioning...all of it. The necessity and any good that might have come from it.

(Seeing Drogon is a reminder, though he has done nothing but love her.)

I'm sorry. I thought I would be happy...being like this.

[Rabbits are cute at least?]

You don't have to apologize. I was worried about you, though...

[He frowns a little, unsure how helpful he's even being here or can continue to be, as emotions really aren't his forte. He doesn't want to just leave her in that state.]

Do you want to meet up? Maybe it will take your mind off of things...

(Rabbits are innocent too. They usually don't breathe fire or eat anything other than vegetables.)

I don't deserve your concern.

(She looks tired, defeated, sitting down at the table in her apartment.)

You should know what I did. It isn't fair for me to...

I burned a city to ashes. I killed thousands. I did it to kill a tyrant, but many, many innocents perished. I never wanted to be like my father. I wanted to protect people and see justice done. The throne was mine, but at a cost that frightens me.

[He grants her his silence and attention, listening to her closely.

That was some admittedly heavy information but as always he doesn't show any sort of judgement towards her.]

The fact that the cost frightens you is reason enough to not view you as a monster, Daenerys. I have encountered people who have purposely set monsters on students and other innocents, one who killed my teammate without remorse, and her only words to us were dismissive and uncaring of the pain she caused.

(Tears roll down her cheeks and she doesn't bother wiping them away. Maybe there is something redeeming about her, but why does that matter? It won't revive the dead.)

I was dismissive after it was done. I tried to not feel anything but triumph; I tried to feel right. But it hasn't lasted. I dream about them every night and I wish I could undo it.

Even if it meant losing the Iron Throne.

[It won't, but Ren still firmly believes all anyone can do is keep moving forward.]

You tried to justify it, and you failed to. You tried not to feel anything and felt everything.

Cinder only ever cared about gaining power and I'm fairly certain if she felt even a twinge a sympathy for anyone she would die from being overwhelmed.

I don't see that in you. At all. I see someone who is remorseful and knows they can't change the past.

I don't think I could be like that. Gaining power was part of the problem - I felt like everything I did was right because I had so many people supporting me. I stopped listening to the only compass that counts.

(Her heart.)

Coming here has given me perspective. I can be myself; I don't have to fulfill some role or make decisions that impact the lives of thousands.

I find that happens to a lot of people here. Distance can be good for people. It seems to be doing the same for you. I'm glad you're finding peace with that.

Has it had a similar effect on you? Each time we have met or spoken, you have struck me as a peaceful man.

I've always been that way, but this place has expanded my understanding of relationships and made me more comfortable with people I don't have a close relationship with.

A wise man too. If I were a queen, I would want you on my council.

[He might be blushing a bit.]

I don't know about being a wise man just yet. I've got another month before I'm twenty.

Is that the age of majority in your country? (She was married and pregnant before then.)

It's eighteen, but I would be a year from graduation and a certified huntsman at twenty one.

I suppose it's more I don't feel like an adult yet.

I don't know if anyone ever really feels like an adult. (It's something that happens and you have to find your feet somehow while the world turns beneath you.)

There are times I come close.

[Their task in Remnant was daunting, something that would have anyone else breaking down from stress, and yet for some reason Ren still doesn't feel like an adult.

Maybe it was because they were doing it all without having graduated. Like the title needed to be there for him even though really it probably matters even less now.]

Maybe someday I'll come close to feeling that way as well.

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