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[elight]

Greetings. My name is Edelgard von Hresvelg, Emperor of the Adrestian Empire.

Much like all I have the other “Moonblessed”, I have found myself falling victim repeatedly to the effects of the lunar cycle. Were the side effects merely physical, I would think nothing of the process, however...the mental imbalance that the moon stirs within me often invokes...irresponsible proclivities. While many seem to have accepted this status quo of life in this place, I will continue to reject it for the sake of having full control over myself and my decision-making.

Currently, I’m seeking any scholars on the subject that can offer insight into possible/potential counter measures to the ostensible curse of the moonblessed. Much the way that demichroma is a synthetic that can ease the need for chroma proper, I have to wonder if there is something artificial or otherwise that can assuage the monthly effects of the lunar cycle.

Anyone with pertinent information or willing to discuss this topic are welcome to join me for tea.

Thank you for your time.
~
Edelgard von Hresvelg,
Emperor of Adrestia

Comments

[im_gonna_heal_u]

I take it you're Sanguis then, right? They like to fight.

Could you find another sparring partner? Probably a great way to vent the violence without hurting anyone. And even if you do, I can patch you up, given that I'm a healer.

[elight]

That’s correct. While I could likely find someone to...”vent” with, the idea of going too far and hurting someone...


No, that’s not it. I think it’s the matter of not being able to control my own actions that bothers me. My agency is important to me, and I refuse to hand it over.

...Or at least, I try to. I’m not interested in becoming another person, even if it’s only for a few days.

[im_gonna_heal_u]

I see. That's tough for me to say.

I've had some very wild influence from the moons, but I never feel like I haven't been *myself*.

Though if there's one thing I can say, is that choice matters, even if you aren't in control.

[elight]

That’s the problem, I don’t feel like I have a choice. I don’t have a choice of how I look, or how I act...

If you don’t have a solution, I’m not asking that you attempt to find one for me. Being able to talk about it at all is helpful in and of itself. I don’t often have the opportunity.

[im_gonna_heal_u]

Ah, guess you're right. It's good to hear from others every now and then.

I mean, if you want to talk, I'm always here. Though it sounds like maybe you need someone to bug you to talk every now and then, which I'm probably better at to be honest.