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[letoldthingsdie]

[As Kylo Ren (if that name could even be considered separate from him at all) he had never used the network. He hadn't bothered really talking to people other than the occasional response. He kept to himself. Perhaps if he had made an effort someone besides Rey might have cared when he disappeared a few days ago.

When he had left it hadn't been during Sanguis. Now that he was back, he was sitting in Rey's apartment - her plants hanging up and sitting in pots in the background. He had questions that needed answers.]

I haven't introduced myself before, though some of you I've spoken to may know me as Kylo Ren. Those who I've met can continue to address me by that name, though I'd prefer to go by Ben Solo. For those who I've yet to meet I can't say I'm terribly sorry for being so antisocial.

[There's a hint of a smile, just the subtle curl of his lips at the edges.]

I'm sure I'm not the first, but has anyone here been able to experience being sent away because of a lack of Chroma being generated? I feel as if I've come back differently, in some ways.

[He won't go into detail, but he's remembered things he didn't know before. For him a year has passed and now his scar is gone. He has experienced death. Part of him is still trying to process it all, how he spent nearly a year here and just like that he had returned home - or what he thinks is home. He's not entirely sure he can trust it. The memories changed him, though.

While his clothes were still the same black as usual, he looked and felt more at ease. His posture had become less tense. For all intents and purposes he was different but still the same.]

Private Message: Finn

Rey isn't here. I can't feel her anymore. Did she speak with you at all before she disappeared?

[He's hoping it's the same as his situation. He needed her to be back so that they could sort out a few things. It was also good that Finn was here too. He could ]

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[letoldthingsdie]

The war ended. The First Order lost, in case you're wondering.

[Yeah, he's not even surprised.]

It must really grate on you, doesn't it.

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[therewillbeorder]

As long as you lost then it was worth it. I would rather everything I worked for, everything that was mine, burn than let you have it.

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[letoldthingsdie]

I'm going to assume Pryde executed you for treason, then? I'm almost flattered you cared enough to betray your life's work. Was sticking it to me really worth it?

[Yeah, he'd gotten word about Hux betraying them somewhere in the middle of everything going on.]

Not that it matters. I was always planning to betray Palpatine and kill him from the start. Neither of us would have survived with Pryde still alive.

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[therewillbeorder]

He did.

I would rather the First Order fall than to have you or Palpatine sit on the throne that was rightfully mine. Pryde served the Emperor even above you, he would have helped Palpatine destroy you.

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[letoldthingsdie]

Well you'll be happy to know we're both defectors then and your life's work still went up in smoke.

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[therewillbeorder]

Is that the reason for the ridiculous name change?

At least neither you or Palpatine can claim my life's worth now. That's the important part.

[letoldthingsdie]

I have my own reasons for returning to the name. As I said, you can call me whatever you like.

For once we both agree. Palpatine was better left a relic.

[therewillbeorder]

You'll always be Kylo Ren to me.

It seems we're both starting over now.

[letoldthingsdie]

You and the rest of the galaxy, I'm sure.

That does seem to be the case. It wasn't all without benefit for either of us, I think. Though, maybe 'benefit' is the wrong word. It all feels anticlimactic.

[He's probably being foolish allowing even a moment of sentimentality to show while reflecting on their deaths, but it doesn't hurt him either way. What's done is done. He wasted six years of his life on Snoke, on hating his family. He couldn't get those years back but saving Rey's life made it all worth it.]

You got what you wanted and I got what I wanted.

[therewillbeorder]

If you're looking for sympathy or forgiveness you're not going to get either from me.

[He's surprised by the moment of sentimentally but he supposes neither of them are themselves right now. Their worlds had just been destroyed. They were starting over. They had to make new identities for themselves now.]

Now we just have to live with it here.

[letoldthingsdie]

I wasn't expecting it. Just agreeing with you.

[therewillbeorder]

So what do you intend to do now?

[letoldthingsdie]

Not entirely sure. I thought about getting drunk or doing something more productive to blow off steam. It's not every day you die and then wake up not dead.

[therewillbeorder]

[He wasn't sure if he wanted to see Kylo Ren. He had already finished half of a bottle of whiskey and his leg still hurt so he didn't want to go anywhere at the moment.

But he had questions he wanted answered.]

Bring whatever you want to drink. I have whiskey

[And he just attaches his address without any further explanation.]