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[ maybe it’s insanity. more likely, it’s the combination of the sanguis cycle and his upcoming birthday making him restless and impulsive. he can usually tamp down those urges when things are normal, but he also can’t recall a moment when things have ever been normal in lunatia.

maybe that’s a contributing factor, too. either way, here’s a video of serge—like the cycles before, he’s got little bear features. paws included, even if his hands are off-screen. ]

Er, bonjour. My name is Serge… I’ve cleaned many of your tables at Salon de Marie. [ it gets harder when he’s a bear, but that’s neither here nor there. ] My birthday will be coming up soon, and I—it—

[ he frowns, searching for the words. he should have planned this better, but again. the haste. ]

In my world, I’m set to inherit my family’s estate on my 18th birthday. I’ll be expected to get married and carry on the family name, as I’m the only child of my late father. [ he realizes something, and holds up a hand in brief fluster. ] I’m not saying this to brag! It’s relevant, I promise. I bring it up because there’s—a person. Someone I love. Someone I can neither marry nor produce a child with.

…this is quite heavy, isn’t it? I’ll try to get to the point. When your heart is in conflict with both duty and the expectations of society, what are you supposed to do? What can you do?

Merci, everyone. For your attention.

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[ This certainly sounds familiar. And he has some time, so he decides to reply. ]

Greetings. I hope your situation hasn't had you too troubled. Being in a similar situation of my own prompted me to reply—

[ Too official. He needs to relax. ]

Forgive me. Is the person in question here with you?

I'll preface this by saying I have personal experience to draw from [and then some] you have a few options open to you:

You can do what is expected of you - pretend. Wear fancy clothes, convince everyone around you that your something you're not. Then you can take up your father's position, live in a gilded cage, and desperately hope no one realizes what a fraud you are. You can spend the rest of your life screaming on the inside.

Or you can leave it behind you, decide that honest self is worth more to you than the lie you'll be forced to live.

[He doesn’t hesitate with an answer, as if it was obvious from the start.]

Elope.

[It was said in a very mater of fact way.]

[ He relates a little too hard to this. He comes on camera and he is a deer with an awful lot of wolf features. Happy Sanguis! ]

Well, I think you should do what seems right to you. For some, duty and responsibility is the right thing, but for others it may be the right thing to follow your heart.

[ So -- ]

What do you want to do.

...I suppose I'm not surprised to hear that this sort of thing happens in other worlds, but... it saddens me to hear it, even so.

[He sighs a bit.]

Personally, I think it is most crucial for you to determine what you feel is truly important to you, in terms of your beliefs and what you truly want from your future. I know you likely feel a responsibility to your family, but I feel as though acting against what you truly desire will not end terribly well for anyone.

All the kowtowing to "expectations" means nothing in the end if you're so miserable you can't enjoy any of the benefits you could possibly get from it.

I had to decide once to choose between the limited scope of my reach as a soldier and the needs of people I could help if I was my own authority. It was difficult because some part of me always expected to have a higher authority to answer to and going it alone often meant being looked down on by those who had a negative impression of guilds but I honestly don't regret my decision.

I think you should do what's best for you in the long run, not what's going to make others happy.

[ —somehow, serge's question makes her heart ache. he's a stranger to her. equally...she's something of an iron lady, adept at keeping her emotions at bay. but she finds herself drawn to answer.

even when she knows her answer won't hardly be helpful. ]

I think you have to do what's right. [ she sighs, acknowledging with a touch of exasperation that she understands that her advice is hardly actionable. ] Whether that's doing right by your family or doing right by your heart.

[ however... ]

Some of us hardly have the constitution for marriage. There's no shame in that.

society fucking sucks
do what you want

[Ah... This hits a little too close to home, and as Sougo turns his video feed on to respond, his brows are already unconsciously furrowed.]

That's a heavy weight to have on your shoulders... I'm sorry that you have to deal with making a decision like that when you're so young.

[Not that he's much older, but still. His voice quiets a little as he continues, slightly more hesitant than before.]

This isn't something I'm used to talking about with strangers, so I'm not really sure where to start. But to be honest, I've dealt with a similar situation... between my family and something I love dearly.

However... I'm not sure if the answer I chose is the one you want to hear, even if I'm grateful for the decision I made. Should I be honest with you?

When it comes to such things...what society needs and what you as a person need are both important. After all if you as a person are affected in such a way then society too will feel it.

I believe...doing what your heart and what you feel is right for you is something that you must find balance with alongside your duties. [ Hm. He might sit back in his chair and take a sip of his cocoa before continuing. ]

But neither one is more important than the other and shouldn't made to be. In a way...prioritizing other people's happiness over your own could be detrimental in the long run.

[ ...it seems like it'd be super mean to just avoid him over what happened, so titus doesn't! he can't help feeling a bit embarrassed, though. ]

Ah.
Umm...
Hello, Serge.

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