prismatica | ☽ IV: text; un: anonymous

It might feel that way but it is not. Things would be so much easier that way. There wouldn't be confusions, confessions, fear from rejection, self-discovery if you happen to like someone of your own gender. But if it were that easy, we wouldn't be able to grow either, as people.

Don't you have any hobbies you can do with your friends?

[Prepare to be befriended then because this guy can make lamppost his friend.]

I didn't ask for your projecting or for you to wax philosophical at me, I just need to get rid of this.

Why do you keep trying to bring "friends" into the matter to complicate this further? I don't need that sort of thing and it has nothing to do with the problem at hand!

[You can't catch him with your friendship and trying to make him confront emotions!!]

So you're in love with someone? Why do you want not to love them anymore? Did they hurt you?

[Listen, biting words have no effect on him.]

Because it doesn't complicate things if you wish to forget something. People, chat, and hobbies are a good distraction. It will become habit until the memory of the person you were in love with is just that, a fond memory.

Because I hate this feeling. And the idea of someone loving a person like me is revolting. I want nothing to do with it.

Getting close to others makes you weak. I suppose finding some way to distract myself couldn't hurt to try but the last thing I need are "friends".

Is it really that bad? Did you reject them?

I can't disagree with you on that point. Having people we love and cherish are easy points for others to strike at. But I can't agree with you completely either, because those same people help you go through difficult times.

And being stuck here, it's rough in more than one way.

... I haven't seen her since it became an issue.

I've never needed anyone before and that hasn't changed.

Do you think that talking with her next time you see her will help you resolve your feelings?

That's not true. I mean, it feels that way. I've been by myself a lot and always thought it was fine that way. But it is way better when you have someone to meet up with in the morning or during the day and just talk.

Absolutely not! I've tried to irritate her already but it somehow only had the opposite effect so that option isn't on the table.

I didn't ask for you to try and sell me on companionship. Don't assume that you know what's best for me.

Huh. It reminds me of one of my friends in a way.

If you really don't like her (but I have a suspicion you do), you should openly tell her that. Anything else can keep her hopes up.

Selling would involve money.

[...]

Would it hurt you to try? Come to pottery class with me :)

So do you think acting aloof and telling her I hated her would do the job?

But stop trying to distract from the subject! And I'm not doing anything with you!

[How is this person already getting on his nerves as much as Roland?!]

Hmmm I don't think she took you seriously because you avoided the subject. Maybe she took your aloofness as 'he's embarrassed to talk about how he feels'

Why not? It's really cathartic, I found out. You make something out of clay that you hate and then you smash it. It feels nice.

[Souji's not known for giving up on people, regardless of their personality. He managed to befriend a gangster that loves to knit and the person that openly told him that they hate him.]

I only even approached her in the first place because I was certain that there was no way that she would ever like me. It seemed to be going perfectly at first!

That seems like such a waste of effort. Why not just fight someone or break something else?

[Well then he'd better be prepared for a higher difficulty contender, because the last two guys who have tried to bond with Vanitas have both almost gotten stabbed for their troubles. And that's only counting the ones back home.]

Some things just happen you know. You have no control over them as much as you want. Especially when it comes to the feelings of other people.

Well, fighting anyone would waste my hard-earned chroma

[not that hard-earned but summoning a persona is tasking]

Breaking regular plate is not the same.
Of course, you don't HAVE to break it. It's just an option

People are easy to manipulate.

[Usually. In fact he generally prides himself on being able to exploit peoples' weak points and emotions.]

Whatever! The point is I'm not doing pottery with you. I don't even know you.

That makes you feel good?

[You just admitted that and therefore you can't manipulate him. Take that!]

What about guitar class? You can shred some rock and emotions on strings!

Oh! I'm Souji. Nice to meet you, Not-In-Love-san.

[Aaaand he's just ignoring that question.]

Now you're just spouting off nonsense!

Plus I didn't ask your name! And don't call me that!

[ Aaaand that tells Souji more than enough ]

Am I? I think it's true! I can play trombone and tuba. We can make a band.

Oh? How should I call you then?

Absolutely not.

You shouldn't talk to me at all! Don't call me anything!

Knitting? Embroidery? Singing maybe? Dancing? OH! Drama classes! I love those.

But you asked a question. Clearly you want to talk

[What is this social link? Tower? Feels like Tower.]

[Listen Souji the LAST thing Vanitas needs is lessons in being dramatic.]

I wanted advice, not to socialize.

[Well maybe he can channel it and get ton of money?]

Why do those have to exclude each other?

Why are you so irritatingly persistent?!

[This person-!! Ugh people who don't take his disdain seriously throw him off his game so badly...]

?
Because I know I'm not doing anything bad and you seem like you need someone to hear you out
I'm good at listening

There's nothing else worth saying on the matter.

Are you sure?

Because even if it's text, I can still feel you are troubled by this

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