two text posts for the price of one

[inordertobelieve]

▶ A. UN: anonymous123
[ Mikami is not okay. Granted, he hasn't been okay for 10 days now and most of that is not the fault of the strange alien planet he has suddenly been brought to, but being here isn't exactly helping either. He's gone through all the arrival procedures like sleepwalking and now he's spent a day or two just sitting in his apartment staring at nothing. A part of him still expects that this will all go away and he will finally fade into nothingness as he righteously should--- but that's not happening. He's still here, he's still breathing, and all of it is so so utterly wrong.

Mikami has never posted on the internet for advice before. That has always been the kind of lost and pathetic that happens to other people. He thinks about how low he's sunken and hits 'create account' on Prismagram. ]

I am dead. I have been made to understand that this is not the status quo. Why am I here then?

[ ... yeah, a very helpful post. He may be convinced to come off anon over the course of conversations, but that's a case-by-case thing. ]

▶ B. UN: mkmtr
[ Some time after that existential crisis is aired to the public, Mikami sits down and makes an actual personal account that he intends to use if needed be. He's not much of a social media person, never has been, but it seems useful to have in a place that is entirely unfamiliar. ]

Good afternoon.
I have recently settled in Lunatia after my initial arrival procedures. While I have been able to gain a wealth of information from officials and don't require immediate assistance, there are questions that I feel are better answered by other 'Moonblessed'. If you have a moment to spare, I would be grateful.

How well have you found your education from your old life to be valued in this city? For obvious reasons, we are without our certificates and cannot prove whatever degrees we may have obtained in the past. How would one go about having their academic status recognized?

Naturally, most knowledge would not carry over one on one, but there is still merit in being able to cite experience.

- T. Mikami

▶ C. [in person option]
[ There is a guy in a suit slowly exploring Lunatia Level 2 and visibly cringing at every bit of colorful decor or bubbly pop music. He looks like he hasn't slept well in many days. He also looks kind of lost. You may approach him in any manner you see fit, just wildcard me. ]

Comments

[inordertobelieve]

Exactly as it sounds. My last memory is my own death. Then I found myself here, physically sound and seemingly alive.

[terribletwos]

what happened to you/

[inordertobelieve]

I sustained a terminal injury and died of blood loss.

[ Context... what is context, he's just going to ignore that. ]

There is no confirmed afterlife where I am from, so I did not expect to awaken ever again.

[terribletwos]

[ Dying of blood loss isn't something Roxas is that familiar with, but it makes sense that losing too much blood is a bad thing. He has no idea what this "afterlife" thing is though. ]

you expected to not exist.

[inordertobelieve]

Yes. I assumed that my entire existence would cease. Even if, somehow, my spiritual essence could have remained in the world, I didn't expect it to retain any of my consciousness.

[terribletwos]

maybe this world was able to bring your heart here and restore your body with magic

[inordertobelieve]

Magic isn't real where I am from... I have a lot of new concepts to understand, it seems.

Does something like this have precedent here or in your world?

[terribletwos]

[ Well, Xemnas is here when he shouldn't exist either, right? Maybe this is something similar. ]

maybe. people don't talk about it much.

[inordertobelieve]

I see.

It sounds as if the mystery of my continued existence is not going to find a definitive answer anytime soon. I can't say I am pleased with that.

[terribletwos]

there's people who have been here a lot longer than me. they might be able to explain better.

does it bother you being alive/

[inordertobelieve]

[ Mikami hesitates answering this, but then he remembers he is currently handily logged in as 'anonymous123' so he might as well be a bit more open than he would usually be. Maybe it'll be cathartic. ]

It does. Now that I am here, I am forced to make the best out of it, but my end should have been my end. This artificial lengthening of my existence leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.

[terribletwos]

[ Roxas can't understand that at all, given his own circumstances with existence and non-existence. ]

why wouldn't you want another chance/ if yours was stolen from you.

[inordertobelieve]

I accept death in its finality, no matter its cause, and I don't believe in second chances.

[ His whole ideology is based around death as something that happens for a reason, so to have his own negated this way... It's nagging at him. ]

We are all given one life to live to the best of our abilities. Failure to make the most out of it initially is a personal responsibility and shortcoming.

[terribletwos]

that's not true. sometimes you only have half a time to begin with. even if you make the most of it, there's nothing wrong in believing you deserve more.

[inordertobelieve]

Half a time? Are you referring to other health complications?

[terribletwos]

it's hard to explain.

[ How does one explain a half-existence, being alive but still not being much more than the shell of another? How does one explain still desperately clinging to that half-existence because what it offered was still so important? And that having all that ripped away in an instant and replaced with an illusion. Before that too was replaced with... nothing. Nothing but a faint impression of a life that wasn't yours. ]

[inordertobelieve]

I am not going to pry if it is personal, but I don't think I can understand the concept from just this.

[terribletwos]

i don't want to talk about it on the network.

[ He's lost some of his aversion toward the technology but not enough to share anything this personal on it. ]

[inordertobelieve]

I am not opposed to speaking in person, as obviously I do have some stakes in existence and non-existence and its possibilities across various universes.

However, you are by no means forced into sharing.

[terribletwos]

you think it will help you to hear/

[inordertobelieve]

I don't know. That's the only honest answer I can give here.

[terribletwos]

if you think it will help, we can talk in one of the coffee shops.

private; i am SO sorry, i completely lost this notif orz

[inordertobelieve]

How do you feel about [insert location here] ? I am flexible with times right now as I have yet to gain obligations.

My real name is Teru Mikami, by the way. If we are to meet up, I do not want you dealing with the uncertainty of an anonymous stranger.

Re: private; no worries

[terribletwos]

yeah, that sounds fine.

roxas.

private;

[inordertobelieve]

This afternoon at 3, maybe?

I'll be waiting at the left side of the entrance. I'm a Japanese man with dark shoulder-length hair and glasses, for your reference.