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[doreimi]

Hey, maybe this is going to sound like kind of a silly question, but — does anybody have any advice for staying focused while studying for exams? I really don't remember it being this hard! I mean...sure, it's been a really long time since I've had to study like this, but it shouldn't be that tough to pick up again, right?

Though I guess I ought to know better than to try to study during Cordis, but...

Well, my plans to study during Sanguis kind of got...interrupted! So now here I am, going over everything, and I keep getting sidetracked by one thing or another. Half the time I want to get up and eat, and then other times I want to lie down and take a nap...ugh!

But I really need to stop letting so much time go to waste. I made a promise to myself that I was going to do this! And I've worked this hard already for months and months, I can't trip at the finish line now!

Jeez, maybe I ought to borrow some catnip from the cafe and sprinkle it on my books, I bet I'd pay attention to them then.

(This is actually my first time being a cat for Cordis — I guess you could say it's pretty im-purr-essive that it hasn't happened before now! Especially what with owning a cat cafe and all. I just wish it weren't so distracting!)

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[teaserving]

Damn right.

[But it's harder to joke with the topic as it is.]

Yeah, and maybe Florentino would've realized he could've done better. Maybe I'd be as awful as any other fucking cop on the force. The best of our what-ifs, and the worst. We could've been everything or nothing. It's hard not to wonder either way.

So I get it. I do. [It's shit he thinks about more than he cares to admit.]

[doreimi]

Hey.

[...]

Just for the heck of it. Don't think, just answer. What does your gut say, do you think I would've mattered?

[teaserving]

[Without hesitation:] Yes.

I could tell you all the reasons why, but just know how I feel about it. You would've mattered.

[doreimi]

That's what matters most, I think. I trust your instinct.

[She smiles a little.]

Kind of a shame that Moody Blues can't fast-forward, though, huh?

[teaserving]

Yeah, but on the other hand I get to replay how cute you are playing with chickens.

[doreimi]

I was really good with them, wasn't I? I guess I'm just a natural!

Which one did you let me hold, I don't remember her name...

[teaserving]

Prince. She's my favorite, but don't tell the other girls that. Honestly, I can't help but be biased; one of the times I was upset, Mohammed put her into my hands and taught me how to pet her.

[doreimi]

Aww, that's so cute! She's special to you, then, huh...

Or did you give her to me because you were upset then, too...?

[teaserving]

She's pretty special to me. But I was also kinda, um. Upset in my way. Mostly I was worried about you. [and massively angry with Rohan, but she doesn't need to deal with that]

[doreimi]

...I remember you telling me to cover my ears.

[You can just hear the wry smile.]

I didn't put two and two together about that one until after I'd changed back, but.

[teaserving]

...I was having it out with your boyfriend.

I was pretty mad that he left you alone and he was being a fucking bastard about it.

[doreimi]

He's not my boyfriend.

[Which is such a kneejerk thing to say that it doesn't hit her until afterward that they have not once ever actually discussed what They Are To Each Other, and isn't that kind of...stupid.]

...Was it just his usual being difficult, or was he moreso than usual?

[teaserving]

Defensive much? He said he loved you and was being a fucking prick about it. I told him he fucked up, he got defensive and said that he already knew, so I assume someone else chewed him out. He didn't make any real effort to convince me that he was safe with you, so I told him I was taking you.

That's when he got pissy and said he could make me stay out of his house. I know he cares about you, but I wasn't convinced he could actually take care of a kid. Probably didn't help that I was Sanguis at the time, but I don't regret the call I made.

[doreimi]

Oh, Rohan...

[She would put her head in her hands physically if she weren't busy holding the phone with at least one of them.]

You know what he meant, right? About making you stay out? What he was going to do, I mean.

[teaserving]

His Stand. He doesn't know that I know.

[doreimi]

He shouldn't have threatened you.

It's my fault, anyway. I'm the one who caused all the trouble, you guys didn't ask to get roped into all that.

[teaserving]

No, he shouldn't have. Shouldn't have done a lot of things. I'm willing to have an adult fucking conversation if he is, but I doubt that's gonna happen.

Look, none of us blame you. And we're both protective of you. Of course we'd get involved, one way or another.

[doreimi]

Yeah...it just turns out having people fight over you looks a lot more glamorous in the movies than it does in real life, huh.

[She laughs a little, faintly.]

It's funny, though, right? You weren't even a ram this Sanguis and you were still butting heads with people.

[...She tried.]

[teaserving]

Movies are talented that way.

[He snorts.]

Well, that's just how I am, I guess.