You are speaking a lot of things that have not happened here yet. Who cares what you know of in future? Has it happened yet? No. Why worry about it now? Is like being worried the apple will only be core when you eat it. Do you let that stop you from enjoying apples? No!

[She sighs a little. To her, this is a simple matter being vastly blown up. Mountains out of molehills.]

You will hurt me. And I will hurt you. It is risk when you have friends and people close to you. You hurt each other in small ways, sometimes big ways. But if you are really friends, can work through it.

If you were really really bad, you would not be asking these things.

If you are sorry, say sorry. Explain. Let them deal with it. If they are still mad, let them. If they forgive, accept forgiveness.

Chenchen, what more do you want? Do you want someone to say you are bad and terrible? Do you want permission to feel bad? I do not understand.