Emerald Sustrai (
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prismatica2020-05-18 02:15 am
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I'm sick of trying to feel better about everything and being kind and showing everyone oh look moonblessed are harmless teehee let's just
be angry
anon is fine
come tell me who or what makes you angry, get it out there
[ Emerald is not anon, but she doesn't mind if any characters are. Unless otherwise stated, please assume she is not responding anonymously. She doesn't know how to cope with feelings of loss, so this is the best and most productive thing she could think of to try to get it out without wanting to punch everyone she speaks to in the face like she has for the past couple of weeks. So please, vent with her and be angry. ]
be angry
anon is fine
come tell me who or what makes you angry, get it out there
[ Emerald is not anon, but she doesn't mind if any characters are. Unless otherwise stated, please assume she is not responding anonymously. She doesn't know how to cope with feelings of loss, so this is the best and most productive thing she could think of to try to get it out without wanting to punch everyone she speaks to in the face like she has for the past couple of weeks. So please, vent with her and be angry. ]

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You can see the results of my creative solution to not slicing anyone's guts open
Other people being pissed off is at least distracting
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All of my suggestions probably aren't healthy outlets, but I guess if you wanted to burn something to the ground with me and see if that made you feel better, *I'm* certainly considering it a lot more than I was half an hour ago.
Something no one would miss, I mean.
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[ but, funny enough, this is not.. the first time someone has suggested she burn things today. she said no the first time (it isn't really her thing, she's more hallucinations, chains, and sickles) but she's considering it this time. ]
I don't really get the appeal of burning stuff but I'll give it a shot as long as we're not doing anything that's going to end in me getting arrested.
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Probably won't be a big fire anyway. I can't imagine setting a fire the traditional way is going to be easy.
Meet me there in an hour?
[He gave her an address, far on the edge of town, pretty much as far away from the Moon Knight's Outpost as you could get. Whenever she did arrive, Lio was already coaxing a fire in an old oil drum, dumping garbage in it to get the flames to blaze hotter. He wore a sleeveless tank top to better withstand the heat, though a firefighter's jacket was tied around his waist with a big number 3 across the sleeve and the back, just to really add to the irony of what he was doing.]
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You better be "fotia" and I didn't just stumble on some rando trying to start a fire in a remote location.
[ At least she's armed in case he isn't who she's looking for. Emerald may have a lot of issues and anger, but she's at least confident in her ability to kick some ass. ]
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Lio Fotia. [He responded. Yes his username was really just his last name. He actually wasn't aware it was also the Greek word for fire.] You're 'ems'? E M S? [Lio gestured to some junk he'd collected, piled up beside him.] We can start a bonfire. I mostly made this one as a starter, to see if I could. Never started a fire the old fashioned way before.
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[ Emerald isn't aware her last name is Basque for "thief" either, or else she probably wouldn't use her last name. ]
How big do you think we can get it?
[ She peers over at the pile and goes to see if there's anything in there. She already has an idea. ]
Did you bring any lighter fluid or anything?
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[Lio repeated with a short nod. He shrugged, in response to her first question.]
Not sure. Before, I could have set the whole city ablaze. [Said with all the confidence of someone who'd definitely done it before - though his shoulders did seem to sag a bit, like he wasn't all that proud of it.] It took me ages just to get this going.
But all I had was this. [Lio pulled a cigarette lighter out of his pocket, pink transparent plastic showing the fluid inside to have been half used up. It already looked pretty well worn.] Like I said, I'm not used to setting fires the old fashioned way. I could see about hitting up a convenience store for some, though, if you think we need it.
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Let's do that. I want to douse something in it and throw it in to see if it'll explode.
[ Otherwise she's just getting flashbacks to trying to start a fire in an alley trash can so she didn't freeze to death when she was younger. She doesn't sound super excited or anything, but she's putting effort in to try this. ]
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You wanna keep an eye on this and I'll go grab some? I won't be more than five minutes, and I've got Chroma to burn. [All he had to do was look for a bottle of liquid that had a big fire symbol with a bunch of warning labels, right? Piece of cake.] Probably not a good idea if we leave a fire unattended, even if it's contained.
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[ To help contain it.. she'll give it a wide breadth though so they can go to town but.. it's probably better to not make it really really easy to start a wildfire or something that gets out of their control. ]
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[True to his word, Lio only spent five to ten minutes down the road, shopping at the nearest convenience corner shop, coming back with an armful of charcoal, and a shopping bag with like four bottles of lighter fluid. They were lucky it was barbeque season.]
Here. This should be more than enough. Not sure if anything will explode, unless you want me to grab some propane, but it's probably not a good idea if we're trying not to get caught.
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Well, if nothing explodes, it'll be a bigger fire?
[ Or some wooshes maybe.. she's definitely not a pyromaniac. What she is is someone who is going to take one of those bottles and start dousing some junk with the intention of throwing it at the fire-- which is still going at about the same level as it was before. ]
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Lio wasn't going to question it.
Instead he was going to start grabbing more scrap to throw in, gathering it together for Emerald to start dousing as well.]
Should we try to keep it in the drum? Safer, maybe. Not as satisfying, but safer.
[God he hoped Galo didn't find out about this somehow.]
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[ What Emerald wants to do is decidedly not fire safety oriented. Once she has doused her item in the lighter fluid, she picks it up and does a jump shot to throw it into the current fire, which bursts into embers and bigger flames for the duration of the lighter fluid bring burned up. ]
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Lio followed Emerald's lead, wadding up some newspaper that he'd coated in the stuff, and tossing it high into the air, watching it arc into the drum. The flames jumped once more, licking upwards happily at the fuel.
Lio should have found himself smiling. Instead he was frowning, gritting his teeth.]
... Let's make it a competition. Whoever can get the flame to jump highest is the winner.
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Like that was definitely not fire safety 101. But that's her best idea to jump the flame as high as she can.
(Or maybe wide? She doesn't know.) ]
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Wait, I don't think you should -
[And into the fire it went, Lio's mouth a bit agape as he grabbed Emerald by the arm to drag her even further back. And, roughly twenty seconds later, it did indeed explode - loud and high and spraying flaming debris all across the alley.]
Fuck!
[Lio went to grab a nearby bucket of water he'd set aside just in case, dousing the worst of the flames, while working to stomp on some of the other embers with his thick soled boots.]
Fine, you win! This was a stupid idea!
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The trash fire was depressing anyway.
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And the guilt at causing a fire hazard while dating a firefighter was starting to really eat at him. The explosion had just been a really hard kick to his conscience.
He let out an exasperated sigh.]
I hope you got something out of this. I didn't. Sorry I dragged you out here, Emerald.
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[ She's fine with that. It's not him that she's complaining about. After a couple of seconds she adds: ]
I used to set fires in barrels like that when I was younger. It's a good way to keep warm on the streets, but now it's just.. [ Not something she wants to go back to. ]
It doesn't matter. My heart's pounding, so at least that's not anger for a few minutes.
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He beat one more of the smoldering fires with his own jacket. The thing was probably better suited to the job anyway, being made of some pretty advanced fireproof material.]
Sorry, to bring back bad memories. I grew up homeless, too, and on the run.
[Lio snatched his jacket back up, brushing the soot off the interior.]
I mostly lived out in the desert, though. Less cops out there trying to hunt us. We only ever stopped by towns to steal supplies, so I didn't make the connection between a trash fire in an alley and homelessness.
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I didn't have a choice but to live in a city. Our world is infested with monsters that can sense negative emotions. Living outside of city barriers is a death sentence for anyone on their own, but especially if you're Grimm bait.
[ Being scared and starving and alone and hurt and angry didn't make Emerald the most attractive company. With most of the outer flames out she looks at her jacket and just tosses it into the barrel. Hers is decidedly not fireproof, so there's no sense in keeping it now. ]
Avoiding cops and stealing were my bread and butter though. [ She lets out a bitter puff of a laugh. ] I liked going for jewelry or things I could fence. That way the people with the food didn't have a reason to call the cops on me.
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We burnish were the ones seen as the monsters. I know a great deal that tried to hide what they were after they awakened, go about their normal lives keeping their powers a secret, but one way or another they were always caught.
Our bodies would run internal temperatures over 500 degrees Farenheit, so any simple heat tracking equipment would out us... Not to mention the urge to burn would sometimes overwhelm people to the point of resulting in literal explosions. It just wasn't option for us to hide in plain sight.
[He fiddled with the earring on his left ear as memories flooded his mind.]
So... I can't say I have any experience in fencing, for that reason. Most of the time we could only steal necessities - food, clothing, equipment, vehicles. Things we could take back to our camps. There were a lot of years where I did it alone. Well, alone except for my 'spooky kid ghosts'.
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[ Emerald doesn't really seem bothered by him. The one person she believes loves her back home is turning into a literal monster and everything she knew about the world was a lie, worrying about if someone was part fireball part horror movie just sounds tiring. ]
I can make a person see and hear anything I want, but only one or two people at a time.
[ There's not much point in hiding it anymore. She's been outed to her enemies, and she's promised not to be a criminal anymore. It seems pointless now, but she isn't the type to back out of her word easily. ]
It's a lot easier to steal a little small thing worth a lot that way as long as a store isn't busy [ because she can't do more than that without seriously hurting herself-- two people is asking for a migraine as is ] but I also didn't have anyone else to steal for.
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