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[unhappy]

I'm sick of trying to feel better about everything and being kind and showing everyone oh look moonblessed are harmless teehee let's just

be angry

anon is fine

come tell me who or what makes you angry, get it out there

[ Emerald is not anon, but she doesn't mind if any characters are. Unless otherwise stated, please assume she is not responding anonymously. She doesn't know how to cope with feelings of loss, so this is the best and most productive thing she could think of to try to get it out without wanting to punch everyone she speaks to in the face like she has for the past couple of weeks. So please, vent with her and be angry. ]

Comments

[unhappy]

That's kind of an obnoxious attitude. What gives you the right to treat people like they deserve your pity because they haven't had the same life experiences as you?
Love doesn't just solve everything and there are plenty of people who love and don't make things easier. You can love someone and still be a terrible person. You can love someone and still hate and cause pain. Love doesn't solve all your problems and it sure as hell doesn't overcome anything.
People who don't have it sure as hell don't deserve to be pitied by some naive brat. Love doesn't make you a kind person and every person who's cruel isn't automatically devoid of it.

[ Emerald doesn't respond to the rest. She's kind of done at this point. She hates idealistic views like that, that completely ignore that the world is more complex than 'love feel good make decisions easy, bad people don't have it.' It conflicts with the reality Emerald has set up for herself, that she is loved at that is what has made it worth doing everything she has because without everything she's done, she'd still be alone and dying in a gutter somewhere. And with having just lost Akashi- who was both her and Chihiro's boyfriend, and the person who was basically guiding her life to something other than constant pain and destruction, she's extra raw right now. There's a good chance she won't respond again after this. ]

[queenofminiskirts]

[It probably says a lot about the person that she is that she reads this and doesn't actually feel angry or defensive.

A lot of what's said is true, after all.

Her mom had loved her, but she had let a woman put a shock collar on Kaoru and her friends because she'd let herself be convinced it was for the best. Yuuri had loved her father and because of it she'd destroyed the lives of many people. Hyoubu had loved and the Pandra kids and yet left them feeling insecure and abandoned. And Yuuri's father had loved his wife and it was that love turned lost that turned into hatred in the end. And certainly, the man who had written those books about how espers were the newest threat to human kind and called them monsters had done it out of love for his family and fear for their future.

And yet...love had saved Yuuri. Love had saved them when Minamoto had taken their hands and then never let go even when they did everything they could to make him hate them. For her, she could see the person she could have been if Minamoto hadn't found them..she could see it in the people that had been the most cruel to her growing up. And yeah, maybe that did colour her views, she'll freely admit to that.

But to explain any of this would require revealing things that really shouldn't be revealed in public and to someone she doesn't even know, really.]

well, you're not wrong about any of that.

except for the part about me being a brat, i guess. i'm too old to be called something like that.

[Kaoru you're sixteen you are not too old to be called a brat.

...also she very sincerely hopes she hasn't made your day worse. And if she doesn't get a response she'll just shrug and move on.]