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[denudate]

[ This is broadcast from the couch in Tian's starter apartment. Nothing exciting about it. He hasn't been here long, but he's never been one to spend time decorating his home or anything, even when he had the money. Which he doesn't have yet.

Which is exactly the point of this post.

He's got a pleasant enough smile on his face, here to make nice rather than make enemies. At least for now.

Maybe the username is a bit crude but, you know what? So is this post. ]

Hello, fellow Moonblessed~ I have a preposition to make for anyone who, like me, would like to earn some money pretty quick. But let me introduce myself. I'm not rude.

I'm He Tian. I'm from China, which is a country on Earth. This isn't my first time inexplicably finding myself somewhere that isn't Earth. I spent some time on a space station called Lagunbiru that was ... well ... Let's say it was a luxury resort for rich snobs who liked sex, and then those of us who didn't actually remember agreeing to travel there.

Anyway, enough of that. If you want to know more about me, just ask. What I really want to know is if there is anyone who would like to sleep with me, regularly or not, for money. I'm up for trying almost anything~

[ His smile widens, and he winks, before he cuts the feed. ]

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Is that how it works? Never heard it before.

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It's all right. I went home for a little bit, but it wasn't exactly groundbreaking. I guess I'm more attached to people than places.

[wearingguess]

I see...
After Mo Guanshan recommended it, I did try not getting to know people for a bit. But I don't think I am very good at it... or rather, perhaps there's some part of the concept that I am not grasping. And even now—although this seems like an excellent opportunity to try again, the fact that we have a friend in common makes me think I would have a difficult time.

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Are you curious~? I'll answer any questions.

[pushpin]

That's 'cuz you've had people tellin' you what you wanna hear yer whole life.

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Maybe that kind of detached sex just isn't for you. I think that's fine.

[denudate]

Oh, yeah, that's true! I guess everyone laughs at my jokes even if they think they're not funny.

[ Oh well c'est la vie. ]

[pushpin]

That shit don't matter to you...?

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No. They're not important.

[ Has Guanshan still not realised just how little he cares about all those people? ]

[pushpin]

I didn't ask if they was important; I asked if how you see the people around you was important ta you.

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[ A pause. ]

Why would it be?

[ Genuine question. He would never have considered those things two separate issues. They're not important, so they don't matter, so then ... ]

[pushpin]

[ hold on, maybe he can try to finally articulate this well... after 3 years of knowing He Tian. ]

'Cuz... the way you let people treat you is what you'll tolerate. So if you really want to be treated like a normal human being instead'a fuckin' worshipped or whatever — [ and he knows He Tian does ] — then you gotta tell people that's what you want. Right?

So if yer takin' that kinda thing, that's all your ever gonna get. Which says more about you than anyone else.

[denudate]

[ He's not sure it's all that clear cut, really. Occasionally it does little but annoy him, other times he finds it entertaining. People falling over their feet to please him definitely is.

It does make him wonder, though. If he made an effort to change that, maybe he'd see people differently.

Then again, he never told people to do that. They just ... did. Is it strange that he doesn't expect any different from them when that's their first instinct? ]

That makes me curious. What do you think that says about me?

[pushpin]

Well I know you pretty well, so... I guess it says you know what you want but not how ta get it. And maybe that yer too afraid'a the risks to really go for it too.

[sendinthedelta]

Understandable. I can't say I've ever really been attached to a place, either. Didn't often get the chance for that anyway.

[denudate]

[ Afraid, Guanshan says, and Tian instinctively feels annoyed at the very idea that he's afraid of anything, but he takes a deep breath and shoves that down. ]

Maybe I just prefer to keep them at a distance.

[pushpin]

Sure, that's probably true too.

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Moved around a lot?

[denudate]

[ He sighs quietly. Never mind how he'd even go about making people treat him differently, what difference would that really make for him? He can't say he's ever thought about the possibility. ]

What is there to be afraid of, anyway?

[sendinthedelta]

Mostly out of necessity, yeah. Kinda hard to stay in one place when you're traveling with guerrilla soldiers.

[denudate]

Just travelling with them? You weren't fighting yourself?

[pushpin]

Knowin' somebody like that. Bein' known in return... it's a lotta responsibility, ain't it? 'Specially with how damaged you are.

Only a selfish person wouldn't think about that — the way they could hurt people if they handle 'em wrong.

[denudate]

[ How damaged he is. He knows, of course, and has even mentioned as much to Guanshan on more than one occasion, just not in those exact words. Maybe that's why it still stings a little.

Instead, he's going to focus on something else. ]

Hm? Do you think I'm selfless now?

[ N...no, probably not. ]

[pushpin]

[ just. this face. ]

[ whatever he was expecting, it wasn't that. ]

Uh-huh. You'd give someone in need the shirt off yer back and everything.

[denudate]

[ Have you not learned yet that he will happily twist all your words. ]

Maybe I would! Just because you haven't seen it.