burningfree: (Lio34)

[personal profile] burningfree 2020-06-16 08:08 pm (UTC)(link)
If I had my choice altogether, I'd rather nothing bad ever happen to my body ever again either.

I used to be able to heal from any injury nearly instantly, so long as it wasn't prolonged and didn't overwhelm me. That's why my piercing wasn't an issue to do to myself back then. If I could have that ability back, I wouldn't even need to worry about pain as a warning system for injury.
burningfree: (Lio68)

[personal profile] burningfree 2020-06-16 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
There are other ways you can feel alive. Warmth and pleasure, for one thing. Being able to feel someone else's arms around you. Moonlacing here makes that even more true.

Not to mention I feel the pain in my nightmares sometimes, which isn't even real. If anything, it makes me feel more disconnected from my body.

I'm not going to say you aren't valid for taking some kind of pleasure in pain, but my perception of it has been warped beyond the point of repair.
saezuru: (11)

text; un: username

[personal profile] saezuru 2020-06-16 11:19 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't yet
I'll probably get a tattoo on my back someday
hymnals: that whole defense (done pleading ignorance)

[personal profile] hymnals 2020-06-17 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
Not many others here from Azeroth, so I'd be surprised.

You can infuse magic into just about anything if you know how, though.
saezuru: (25)

[personal profile] saezuru 2020-06-17 03:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's exactly what he's thinking. ]

Maybe sleeves someday too
I don't think the pain would bother me
mingyues: (Default)

[personal profile] mingyues 2020-06-18 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
Do they hold different meanings too?
burningfree: (Lio52)

[personal profile] burningfree 2020-06-19 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
Just as I'm not going to make any assumptions about you, I'd like if you didn't make assumptions about me.

What I went through left me teetering on the edge of death. I couldn't breath, my heart had stopped, and all four of my limbs had disintegrated. It's *literally* painful for me to even recall the actual moments I was being tortured. Those mental scars aren't ever going to go away, even though in the end I was left with no physical ones.

It's something I just have to learn to live with.
satanslash: (Rin313)

[personal profile] satanslash 2020-06-21 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
iunno if id ever get any more but that one is special

how many do you have
burningfree: (Lio2)

[personal profile] burningfree 2020-06-21 07:25 am (UTC)(link)
Funny that you're assuming I've made any assumptions at all. I assure you, I haven't. I don't know anything about you.

It helps that the physical damage was reversed. Or maybe it doesn't. Sometimes it feels like my mind is playing some kind of cruel joke on itself remembering what happened to me when I literally have no physical evidence of the incident.
burningfree: (Lio33)

[personal profile] burningfree 2020-06-21 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
All you've told me is that you appreciate pain. I don't know why, nor do I really care all that much. That's your business, not mine.

Yes.

Not frequently, but when I'm particularly stressed or tired they tend to happen. I try to keep it to myself, though.


[He hadn't really told anyone about them, not even Galo. Usually he'd just go someplace quiet to be alone for a while until it stopped.]
saezuru: (14)

[personal profile] saezuru 2020-06-22 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
I see
Which areas hurt most?
hynobius: (pic#13932752)

[personal profile] hynobius 2020-06-22 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I mean
it looks like one?
Most people assume it's a tattoo until it starts moving.
mingyues: (under bright moon and clear sky)

[personal profile] mingyues 2020-06-23 01:20 am (UTC)(link)
That last reason seems very... narrow minded.

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