text | un: greatestmagician

[relearning]

I guess this is more for those of us who come from worlds where there's some catastrophe or some world-ending thing happening and you're generally working to try and save your world from aforementioned catastrophe ...

I've been here for a few months now, and I kind of feel like I don't know what to do with myself. I went from having too much to do, too much to worry about, and now I'm in a position where I don't have that anymore (with the exception of the occasional weirdness that happens here, of course). I think I've read enough books that I've probably caused myself some major eye strain in the months I've been here, but otherwise I'm not exactly sure what to do with myself.

Does anyone else feel kind of like this? I think it might help me feel better to know I'm not alone in this.

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text; un: high.priest

[hymnals]

My home world is always in some crisis or another. When I first came here, the problems I left behind seemed to shadow me. I left a war and came to a place of pure idyll.

A year on, I still feel guilty that I'm not back there helping. But you can only solve the problems in front of you, and you can only live in the possible and the now. So you should think about what you'd want for yourself if you didn't have to worry about catastrophe, because right now--you don't.

[relearning]

Yeah, I've realized that.

I always imagined I'd focus on regaining the magic I'd lost back home when I had the time, but I'm not sure if that's something I can really do here. Different world and all. I seem to be able to use my abilities just fine, but as for gaining anything new back ... Not sure how that would work.

I guess I just have to figure something else out for now.

[hymnals]

I don't know about getting back what you lost, but there's no shortage of magic here. It's possible that you could learn something entirely new.

But, supposing that isn't the case, either ... what else in life makes you happy?

[relearning]

[ Well there's a person who makes her happy but he's also infuriatingly dumb.

Aside from that, though ... ]

Reading. I've done a lot of that since coming here.

Other than that ... I guess I haven't really had a lot of time before now to sort of figure that out for myself. Things have been kind of exploding back home for the last three years and we've had very limited bits of room to really breathe. And even before then, I was busy helping my Grandfather.

Back home, I've always had something to focus on and I didn't really have to look too far for it. Now, though, I don't really have that happening. It's something to really think about.

[hymnals]

A fine hobby.

I think that's a reality most of us have had to grapple with. It took me a while to understand that this was my life now, and I had to figure out how to live it. Some days I still find myself at a loss.

So, basically. No need to rush or put any pressure on yourself.