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[relearning]

I guess this is more for those of us who come from worlds where there's some catastrophe or some world-ending thing happening and you're generally working to try and save your world from aforementioned catastrophe ...

I've been here for a few months now, and I kind of feel like I don't know what to do with myself. I went from having too much to do, too much to worry about, and now I'm in a position where I don't have that anymore (with the exception of the occasional weirdness that happens here, of course). I think I've read enough books that I've probably caused myself some major eye strain in the months I've been here, but otherwise I'm not exactly sure what to do with myself.

Does anyone else feel kind of like this? I think it might help me feel better to know I'm not alone in this.

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[relearning]

Well now I'm curious about your suggestions. You can't just say something like that and leave me curious!

[have_hat_will_travel]

Well, I mean, I'm a Succubus, so a significant part of my thing is seduction and the like.

Getting him to notice you if jealousy isn't working will likely involve a level of straightforwardness you're not used to. There's a bunch of ways you can pull that one off, though it depends in no small part on what you want to get.

[relearning]

Tch. Even if I knew how to be seductive it's doubtful he'd even notice.

I feel a lot like the situation is kinda hopeless. I have kind of been messing around with someone, though ... And even that much makes me feel guilty, but then I realize I'm not really in a committed relationship, so why should I feel guilty?

[have_hat_will_travel]

I mean, if you wanted help there I could set something up, but I'm not entirely sure that's the issue.

As for the messings-around... Hm. I'm kinda naturally polyamorous by nature, so I'm not the best to ask, but may it have something to do with you feeling like you didn't talk about it?

[relearning]

No, I'll handle it myself ... Someday. Maybe.

I ... Don't really know. It kinda started as 'if we don't at least kiss I am going to die,' and then it happened as a result of this place's weirdness, and now I think I just like the attention, if I'm being honest.

[have_hat_will_travel]

The attention can be nice, yes~

But if there's guilt about it, that's a feeling that needs to be honestly confronted.

[relearning]

I guess.

Maybe I'm just hopelessly putting all of my eggs in one basket, though.

[have_hat_will_travel]

For most people, romance tends to be like that. It's usually better to roll with it than to fight it, honestly, because your romantic feelings and attitudes are a significant part of your full self.

Mind, being controlled about it is also good. Just, not bottling it up forever, you know?

[relearning]

I am the master of bottling up my feelings.

And then letting them explode.

Often times with fire.

[have_hat_will_travel]

Yeah, see, that's exactly the sort of thing I'm worried about to be honest...

[relearning]

The bottling, or the fire? Both are pretty valid reasons to worry.

[have_hat_will_travel]

... Both, yes.

I'm in the statistical minority with having resistance to fire, but people bottling up leads to all sorts of issues all its own...

[relearning]

I handle it well!

... I think. Look, at least my fire is directed at the ones who deserve it.

[ Like Els. Sometimes. ]

[have_hat_will_travel]

Right, you're from a combat-rich environment.

[Pidonus managed to miss that implication.]

Here, where real combat is rarer, the issue becomes that you don't have a lot of enemies to burn most of the time. So, you need another idea, yeah?

[relearning]

I'm sure some people would be up to sparring, and risking their hides for some dodging practice.

Or 'sparking,' if we go by Els and his misadventures with typing. I'm never letting him live that one down.

[have_hat_will_travel]

.. Okay, I mean, fair. But from a health standpoint, it's probably better to work on the honesty front?

[relearning]

Fire is easier.

[have_hat_will_travel]

And for me, so's charm magic. Doesn't make it the best solution.

[relearning]

No, I guess not.

We just end up arguing every time we talk seriously about ... anything, really. I'm just not sure I'd be able to handle it if I went in trying to talk to him seriously about how I feel and we ended up just duking it out over the stupidest of things.

[have_hat_will_travel]

... It sounds like there's more than one source of tension on that front, to me. You alone might not be able to keep him on track... But if you can better focus yourself, that might go a ways.

[relearning]

I mean ... Most of the time when we bicker, it's just kind of par the course for us. And a lot of the time it's me starting it, because I don't know how to handle myself around stupid.

He's somehow still my best friend, though, and somehow is able to see the me that is beneath all of it. I don't know how he puts up with me. If I were him, I would've given up years ago.

[have_hat_will_travel]

Then... To be able to be honest about your feelings and have it go well, you need to smooth out your handling around what I will completely agree to be stupid.

Would seeing it from a different angle maybe help?

[relearning]

How do you plan on getting me to see it from a different angle?

I'm not asking because I don't think it's possible to do so, I'm just curious about your plan.

[have_hat_will_travel]

... Honestly I hadn't thought about it, though uh I could pull something like that with my magics if you were willing I guess. Put you into an alternate mode of thinking for a time, full memory when you return to your normal self.

I've done something similar, it's kinda enlightening sorta?

[relearning]

[ From the perspective of someone curious about other magics, this sounds like an interesting way of doing things.

From the perspective of someone who isn't sure how she would react to something like that, she's very unsure. ]

I won't lie, I'm definitely curious ...