I've done a lot of things in my life but never that; ANONYMOUS TEXT

[rippingu]

[He has some questions or some thoughts or some concerns. Either way, he is reaching out anonymously cause it's complicated is an understatement. But he does not need this getting back to his bandmates, so anon all the way through the whole thing. If you can hack it; feel free, just keep his secret?]

How do you date someone? What is there you can do to make it special in a place like this?

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[saezuru]

You do not need to be celibate
Sex here is different from the normal world
Not all relationships are physically exclusive
You need to show him that you are only emotionally invested in him
This is different for each person so I do not think there is one answer

[rippingu]

Okay but can I get your answer?

Let's just say the last time I had a relationship it wasn't healthy.
I don't want to repeat past mistakes so doing things my way might be a bad idea.

[saezuru]

My case is unique
I have accepted everything about him and remained by his side
By refusing to leave him, I can show him that he is special to me

In his case, he has shown me that he cares by keeping me close to him
He does not need to say anything more
By relying on me, I know that he cares and I am special to him

[ On second thought, maybe don't get advice from Doumeki and Yashiro if you want a healthy relationship... ]

[rippingu]

Don't sound so unique to me.
Considering this guy's stuck with me through more than anyone should.
I've been a selfish bastard for the last two years, and the first month we spent here. After sleeping with him.

[Healthy, thankfully, his partner is someone who can teach him how to have a healthy relationship. He is not even sure how to date someone or show them properly that he wants to date them, and it speaks to how his dating history is far from healthy. Abusive, controlling, a painful passion that got warped and turned them into someone they were not. He wants to be different this time.]

So what you are saying is show him, more than say it? The whole actions speak louder than words.

[saezuru]

[ Mm, that does sound familiar. Doumeki can sympathize. Maybe his situation is a little complicated because of the yakuza thing, but that hasn't been a problem here, thankfully. ]

He needs to be receptive to understanding your actions
I do not know if your partner will be
I am someone who is not very good with words
So in my case, I appreciate that some things go unspoken

If you show him that you have changed, or are trying to, then you do not need to say it
The difference in your actions should speak for itself

[rippingu]

[Kaji's is complicated because he played a thin line, keeping his twisted connection with Ugetsu, while wanting to reach out and claim Haruki at the same time.]

I think he is.
He keeps giving me chance after chance.
Even when I don't deserve it.
I get that, some things are hard to say.
But the hardest things are sometimes the most important.

I think he's noticed.
Hard to miss me being home every night all of a sudden.
And not coming home smelling like a woman.
Or another man.

[saezuru]

[ Sounds like Haruki's a saint, bro... ]

Yes, I have known that to be the case
If he continues waiting for you, then it is likely you are already dear to him

If you are worried that your actions are not enough, then tell him
If you would normally simply have sex, consider inviting him on a date
One where you simply talk or have lunch
It may feel somewhat strange, but it is an important step
The sex can still happen later

[rippingu]

[The saintliest of saints, not unlike Doumeki.]

I hope you're right. I made some big mistakes even before we ended up in this place.
Things he shouldn't forgive me for.

A date, could it be that simple to show him?
What do you do on a date or talk about?


[He has never dated really; he and Ugetsu got together that first year of high school by having sex in a sunlit practice room; they broke up two years later but Akihiko also moved in with him at that time and has spent the years between then and now in a messed up back and forth of random sex with other people to hurt each other and having sex with each other.

Now, he's trying to be a different man, a better man, the man he was before love became something painful for him, he wants to be better for Haruki.

It's not easy.]

[saezuru]

Anything can be forgiven

If you put your pure effort into it, he should see that
For me, we talked about our likes, our clothes... food
Simple things
It was meaningful because our circumstances do not normally allow for things civilians worry about
Perhaps for you, a different topic would feel more special

[ It's because... they're yakuza. They talk plenty about work, but normal stuff? That just never happened before Prismatica. Yashiro had never dated either, it was a big deal to just... talk. And not immediately have sex. ]

[rippingu]

I hope you're right.

I'd do anything for him.
Civilians, you some kind of cop?
I think he'd like that if I just listened about the things he liked even. We don't do that kind of stuff enough.

[Well that would explain the civilian comment, of course, Kaji assumes something less criminal in origin. Kaji has not either; to start off with a conversation, time spent, not just a roll in the sack is new territory for him.

But he wants that, more than anything he wants that something more.]

[saezuru]

I would forgive anything my partner did
I hope it is the same for yours

I was, once
And that is good
You should try that
Spending time together is important
Even idle time is valuable when it is with someone you love

[ He is just a hopeless romantic, yakuza or not... But he's not gonna out himself entirely, so Kaji will get that vague answer. ]

[rippingu]

Thanks, I'll take all the hope I can get.

Makes sense, with the civilian thing.
You know, you're right.
Time is probably the most important thing we can give.
I appreciate it.

[Vague is working; he's not exactly outing himself either.]

[saezuru]

Good luck

That is the right attitude to approach things
I am glad I could help you realize that
Given time, you should both find yourself growing closer to each other

[ Go forth and live your lovesick dreams, Kaji... this yakuza will be cheering you on ]

[rippingu]

Thanks, I'm going to need it.

Keep your fingers crossed, maybe I won't blow it up.
Thanks for taking the time.

[He shall, he shall! All cheering is accepted and appreciated!]

[saezuru]

I will

Your partner will thank you for it
You are welcome

[ He's finally having success in the love department so he wants to spread the love... ]

[rippingu]

[Spread it he has, Kaji shoots a thumbs-up emoji and is off to plot a real date, with all focus on Haruki!]