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Hey, everyone. It’s Otonashi. [ sporting new fuzzy additions in the form of vulpine ears, deep red markings following the curve of his cheeks, and multiple tails he neatly tries to keep tucked offscreen to keep it less obvious, less personally distracting as he adjusts. really, one tail would have been enough. but, fine. it’s fine. ]

I’ve noticed there wasn’t an influx of newcomers last month, or more recently... Maybe the flow of people has slowed or stopped, but for those of us still here — the time spent away from what you knew can feel terrifyingly long. We should still be here for each other. So, I’m still planning to have a community meetup on the 20th like always, after the moon effects have passed and we’re all ourselves. Anyone is welcome. Even if all you want is to come by and hang out, steal snacks, or get a quick boost of chroma... You come to the event decent, I’m not advocating for public sex, we go in the back for that if that’s what you’re after, thanks—

[ he clears his throat, waving a hand dismissively as if to wave off the awkwardness he had unwittingly let through. ]

I mean that as in the back of the— you know what, forget it. I ... really should’ve rehearsed. Uh, drop by the community center if you want.

Something else, something else, um... [ he can save this, it’s definitely, certainly fine as long as he powers through. ] H-has anyone tried reading or listening to a “choose your own adventure” story? Visual novels, choice-based fiction, that kind of thing. If not, would you like to? It’s like reading a book, but with pictures and some options that change the outcome. Maybe if you’re bored or want a crazy bedtime story or... I don’t know. Hah.

[ he might as well try to make something amusing out of his pre-existing overactive imagination. ]

( edited aka “why I shouldn’t post as I’m on my way to work.” all good. ❤️ )

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[Well... at least Aegis isn't the only one who realizes how difficult this sort of thing is for people.

And he really does need to start actually trying to make new friends here. Even if his racoon-like appendages are still driving him nuts.]

I would be interested in attending.

[A pause because he's uncertain if he needs to say anything more about it.]

I've never heard of choice-based fiction but it sounds like something I'd enjoy. Do you have a recommendation?

Hey... it’s you. I remember.

[ Otonashi’s smile is worn, tired, but friendly all the same. ]

I’ll get back to fiction and stories in a minute, how are you holding up? Are you adjusting..? You were pretty... shaken when I talked to you last.

[O-oh.

Okay.

Just... call him out like this...]

I-- ... not... much better, to be entirely honest...

[ someone has to. ]

Are you... willing to meet up to talk a little sooner than the 20th, then? [ taking a quick breath, he cuts back in quickly with: ]

I won’t force you, but I don’t want you to start feeling sick, or... [ or worse, he doesn’t say. ] ... anything like that.

[Not wrong!]

... yes. That would be fine.

[Because he has a feeling that if he tries lying now with the usual bullshit "I'm fine"s he's going to absolutely fail at being convincing with it.]

[ as another person prone to the “I’m fine” song and dance, Otonashi is obligated to speak up when he catches others like himself. ]

It’s up to you where you feel the most comfortable. I have a house out in Amegahara and my roommate is out for a while. Library run, can’t keep him away from it if you tried.

[ he mentions this exclusively to say that his roommate is perfectly happy being out, that the space can be used to vent about the world, iris hell, their current fuzzy additions, or any other number of things. ]

I’m happy to make tea, too. Or... we can meet elsewhere. Whatever you want.

[His traveling companions back home weren't exactly the most... empathetic individuals. Kanata got points for trying but was often prone to falling into the trap of being too blunt for anything to actually be comforting.

To say nothing of starting his training at such a young age, surrounded by individuals who refused to look weak in front of others.]

I've yet to go out there myself, actually. I wouldn't mind coming that way, and tea sounds nice right now.

[He may need to check out this library himself at some point. Later, though.]

I’ll send you directions, then. It’s a nice neighborhood, far enough away from the brighter parts of the city, I think...

[ he can only hope that talk of the mundane, of safe, lighter topics, will project enough calm and security for Aegis to feel comfortable even if the topics might veer into uncomfortable territory.

touch may not always be easy, but it is a necessity. aversion is an unfortunate—and unsafe—barrier. ]

I’ll start on some tea, then. I hope green tea is fine. [ with a few taps to his device, he sends the location over to Aegis’s, hoping that the directions and landmarks are clear enough. ] And let me know if you have any trouble, okay?

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[It is, and logically Aegis is aware of it. He hasn't gone fully crystal yet by way of securing a few odd jobs here and there, but he's definitely not thriving.]

Green is fine. I'll head out shortly then.

Sounds good. See you then.

[ before he had even sent the message over, Otonashi had set out two small cups, fixing the kettle on the stove and prepping a space that he can only hope will soothe and calm. the lighting he keeps in the house is naturally on the warmer side, always dim in the evening unless he’s working on a project or engaging in a tutoring session.

he had already explained the worst of moon cycles without receiving backlash; he can be very cautiously optimistic about how Aegis is faring, and how he might fare with a little more support. ]

[It was mostly the idea of making friends with any intention of getting closer to them that he had a problem with. Companions were nothing new but he certainly wouldn't ask Kanata to give him an extended hug just because they'd been traveling for some time together.

It was just difficult for him to really let those walls down after so long of building them up. In a sad, sick way he knew it was more damaging than protective but it had been the only way he knew how to get through his training and the subsequent years after without completely breaking down.

And now he was here.

Approaching the door to where he'd been given directions to he couldn't help but let a sigh escape as he once again was going over those things in his head.

Would he have to turn into a crystal to stop self sabotaging? Only time could really tell now, but he was just stubborn enough to not turn back and did finally knock with some hesitation.]

Wait, we have a community meetup now? How long has this being happening for?

[She was only gone for two months-well, two months here. Was it always here and had she just been blind? Or was it actually new? ]

I pitched the idea of a survival support group shortly after I got here, so... it’s been here for at least a few months? Not as long as it needed to be, I think.

[ with the amount of people struggling to get chroma and adjust to a world that requires physical contact, he can wish all he wants that a support setup existed before him. it hadn’t, so here he is. ]

It’s called SSR.

... Yeah, that's not ringing any bells for me. Though I was gone for two months and only got back last month, so I'm guessing you started right around when I got sent home.

[ Honestly she's more annoyed that something like this wasn't something that she had thought of, with how obvious of an idea it was.]

I’ve heard that’s happened to a few people... And it’s probably true you don’t remember anything from this place when you go back, right?

[ he tries to phrase it lightly, as if this would somehow soften the blow of losing more memories, or ease lingering uncertainty about disappearing. ]

You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to. You’re welcome to stop by if you need anything, though.

Unfortunately, yeah. Absolutely nothing. The conflicting memories aren't all that fun to deal with either if you're here and back home long enough.

... And thanks. I'll probably stop on by. It'll be nice to go out and meet some people when no one has the moons to worry about.

I really don’t know how to feel about that. I know some would prefer to forget—

[ but this isn’t what she responded to talk about, so he takes a breath and refocuses. ]

Yeah. The point isn’t to avoid the moon effects since we can’t or completely avoid touch, but-

it complicates things less to befriend people first when your mind isn’t scrambled by the moon.

Yeah, it really does. I'm glad that some of my friends from the first time I was here or still here.

I wouldn't be having that great of a time right now otherwise.

[Yay for now being an Iris when you were used to Sanguis and none of your old coping mechanisms actually worked anymore. ]

Ah, you're still doing those? Good.

Might, um. Need some help with some of these new changes...

[Rey may or may not be up for that "stealing snacks" part of the meetups.]

Yeah, I intended to as long as there’s a need for it.

[ or until he vanishes from the world, as so many others before him had. ]

New changes, huh. Did your moonblessing change on you?

Ugh, no. Thank fuck.

[Rey would hate to be Iris or even Cordis.]

Ended up with some different Sanguis parts, is all. Plus Exalted traits.

Ahh, dragon bits?

[ he knows a handful of sanguis friends who have run through that course. ]

I’m trying to figure out a new moonblessing and this Exalted thing at the same time, it’s... uh. Interesting? ... Yeah, interesting. We’ll go with that.

Horns and wings, to be specific.

[Though Rey still hasn't figured out how to make use of the wings, save for... balance? On occasion? It helps. Sometimes.]

Am glad not to have changed a whole new moon, at least. Can handle the pissed off bits of Sanguis. But the other ones...? [Rey isn't sure how well she'd cope with the Iris shenanigans.]

Horns aren’t too troublesome, are they? Wings have enough function that I actually wanted to keep mine—

[ he isn’t on video, but it feels strange to be without them now that he had grown accustomed to flicking them about or tucking them aside. ]

I used to be Iris myself, and, uh... It... was complicated. I’m not saying that any of them are easy, but... uh.

[ does he really even have to explain himself? ]

Wings are too small to support body mass. How should they even function?

[Gee, Rey. Maybe MAGIC? You know, just like everything else in this place? Goodness.]

Er, yeah, don't need to go on. Have an idea. [Oof.]

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