[ He's already being stretched to the farthest reaches of his limits, promising to step miles beyond comfort zones to engage in things, even if some think it laughable to stress so over a kiss, that innately feel like little betrayals against someone who, without ever asking for such a thing, has fallen into ownership of all Binghe's kisses from here until whatever end there is. If he wants them, or if he doesn't. They're his and always have been, whenever he may desire them.
All the same these are promised in oaths to perform if his life is in peril. A feat that has taken promoting thricely, though charmed as such a third tally is said to be, it seems to be the last of these urgings. ]
Shizun- [ Abruptly, because even he can only endure so much. ] You can ask for the impossible, but there are promises not even I can make.
[ Living without Shen Qingqiu, unthinkable a thing as it might be, is something he can endure. Binghe knows this only because it's been achieved at times when he's lost Shen Qingqiu like water through a sieve. Even against his own heart's wishes and the pull towards joining this man in oblivion. But to thrive without him, to live in all the ways a person enjoys life, seems to dispell any loss of a man that would be gone. ]
If you leave, I'll live. But only because I'll wait for you. ...Forever, in case you come back.
[ His own dam breaks, buckling when Shen Qingqiu's hands slide away for long enough to break whatever spell they'd held over him, rendering him to an impossible stillness that is so unlike the animation he suffers whenever his shizun is within sight. He surges forward to wrap arms around Shen Qingqiu's waist, as though doing his utmost to prove to fate that bonds exist here, tangible in the clutch of arms that gather a man who has never felt or seemed small in order to tuck him close. ]
But don't ask me to act like a part of me wouldn't die if I was without you.
[ They've barely begun to find one another in ways that bore no reminders of fear and footsteps falling in rapid succession as Shen Qingqiu runs from a man who gives chase simply out of desperate fear of losing him. Small confessions a tiny first step towards feelings that are realized, only to follow up with forewarnings of an end. ]
I'll allow anything you wish to teach but this. All I ask is that you stay with me, as long as you can.
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All the same these are promised in oaths to perform if his life is in peril. A feat that has taken promoting thricely, though charmed as such a third tally is said to be, it seems to be the last of these urgings. ]
Shizun- [ Abruptly, because even he can only endure so much. ] You can ask for the impossible, but there are promises not even I can make.
[ Living without Shen Qingqiu, unthinkable a thing as it might be, is something he can endure. Binghe knows this only because it's been achieved at times when he's lost Shen Qingqiu like water through a sieve. Even against his own heart's wishes and the pull towards joining this man in oblivion. But to thrive without him, to live in all the ways a person enjoys life, seems to dispell any loss of a man that would be gone. ]
If you leave, I'll live. But only because I'll wait for you. ...Forever, in case you come back.
[ His own dam breaks, buckling when Shen Qingqiu's hands slide away for long enough to break whatever spell they'd held over him, rendering him to an impossible stillness that is so unlike the animation he suffers whenever his shizun is within sight. He surges forward to wrap arms around Shen Qingqiu's waist, as though doing his utmost to prove to fate that bonds exist here, tangible in the clutch of arms that gather a man who has never felt or seemed small in order to tuck him close. ]
But don't ask me to act like a part of me wouldn't die if I was without you.
[ They've barely begun to find one another in ways that bore no reminders of fear and footsteps falling in rapid succession as Shen Qingqiu runs from a man who gives chase simply out of desperate fear of losing him. Small confessions a tiny first step towards feelings that are realized, only to follow up with forewarnings of an end. ]
I'll allow anything you wish to teach but this. All I ask is that you stay with me, as long as you can.