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Last time I took a really long nap, when I woke up my clothes didn't fit anymore and all of my friends told me they had completely forgotten about me. That was weird. But not the weirdest thing that ever happened to me.

This time, I woke up and was crystal the whole time. Whatever. It's still not the weirdest thing. I've seen some way weirder stuff. And Riku did this crystal thing first.

Anyway, I'm Sora. Don't any of you forget about me!

[After a moment he adds, which a mischevious smile,] Especially you guys who want to.

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[Sora chuckles and moves his hand to get the gummiphone out of Roxas's reach. If he really wants to grab it, he'll have to get even closer.]

Well if he did he needs to pay you back! I'm just checking!

[ Roxas' innate stubbornness kicks in, as he goes for the phone again, paying no heed to how much he has to lean against Sora to reach it. ]

I can handle it!

[He reaches back, guiding Roxas to basically be pressed up against his chest. He gives the phone over when they're close enough that Sora could kiss him, though.

And then he does - a quick peck on Roxas's cheek.]

[ Roxas starts, dropping the phone back onto Sora (sorry), as blush rolls over him, along with an even more intense wave of warmth. His confused gaze snaps back to Sora. What just happened? Had he been set up? ]

Sorry. If that wasn't okay... I won't do it again.

[Sora is blushing too. His phone dings with Riku all but confirming that he was indeed the one who stole the munny, but he ignores it for now in favor of making sure Roxas isn't mad at him.]

[ Roxas reaches up to his cheek, which still carries that now almost imperceptible tingling sensation. Is this what kisses are supposed to feel like? It's weird but... not bad. ]

I didn't say—you just surprised me...

[ He slowly lowers his hand. ]

Which I think you were counting on.

Maaaybe. I've wanted to kiss you since I found out you were here.

[He chuckles softly, slightly amused at himself.] I think this place has changed me a bit. I barely knew anything about kissing before I got on this world.

[ There's another heady rush of heat. Why would it be so important to Sora?

He takes his time collecting the phone from where it rolled into Sora's lap so he can try to see what he sent to Riku. But he's too distracted now to actually scroll through it and just holds it in his hand, as he looks at Sora, still mostly braced over him on one hand. ]

Is it because of the stuff with the moons?

Sure. That helps a lot.

But also... It's probably Riku and Kairi. Being with them all of the time made me realize how much fun all of this stuff is.

I guess if you have more time together, it's easier to learn those things with each other.

Yeah, and we started pretty much right away, so we've had some time!

[He manages to look embarrassed even as he says it and rubs the back of his head as he smiles.]

I mean, we still do other stuff too. It's been real nice just living with them. Doing things like cooking, and, ugh, even cleaning. It makes me think that we should be able to be like this forever...

[ Roxas isn't going to comment on that first part. ]

This place does have a strange power. Who knows how long any of us will be here? It's a good idea to do as many of the things you enjoy as possible.

[ Someone is still getting used to the idea of good things not being transient. And he has some idea what Sora might be thinking when he talks about wanting forever. He wishes he could just assure Sora that it could stay this way. ]

Yeah... That probably goes double for me. [He admits as he scratches his cheek.

He doesn't really know what is going to happen to him if the crystal ever stops working for them. Will he still even be around at all? He never really understood how any of that magic worked.]

That's why I needed to be here right away. I don't want to waste a second of time getting to know you.

[ The way Sora says it, even with the disarming gesture, still makes his heart clench in a way that's entirely too painful. Sora will be fine, he knows that. But it doesn't make the memory of not knowing where he is any less unsettling.

He doesn't want to think about it anymore. That's not how things are right now. ]

Yeah. I don't want to waste any time either.

[ Maybe it's the fear that memory brought back, maybe it's the desperation to chase that fear away, maybe it's the just the general intensity he's felt sharing Chroma like this, but either way Roxas finds himself using that bracing position he's holding over Sora to suddenly lean in for a haphazard kiss. It's a horrible attempt and he obviously has no idea what he's doing but it's still got that sharp Roxas energy to it. He also keeps his eyes open so he can see Sora, even if those eyes do still hold all those messy emotions. ]

[The kiss may not be very practiced, but Sora finds himself enjoying everything about it. He reaches up to put a hand on Roxas's cheek to help guide him closer. His own eyes close so that he can focus on the sensation in his chest as Roxas shows him affection.

Everything feels like too much and not enough at the same time. He had wanted so desperately to know who Roxas was, to really get to understand him. This kiss might be as messy as their emotions, but it feels so important.]

[ The kiss, combined with Sora's touch, leaves Roxas almost dizzy from the sudden energy he feels, far more than anything he's experienced since arriving here. Especially since he's so used to constantly being at a deficit, what with his habitual tendency to overexert his powers by default. But this exceeds the effect of any elixir. What is this?

He pulls back after a moment, eyes still wide and looking more than a little surprised at himself. ]

That was weird...

Weird good or weird bad? [Sora asks. His eyes are wide as he takes in Roxas's face for any hint of discomfort. He doesn't want to push Roxas more than he wants.]

[ Roxas doesn't seem uncomfortable, more like he's trying to process everything. ]

Weird confusing.

[ He rubs at the back of his neck. ]

Is it always that, uh, intense?

[ He means the feeling but lol. ]

Hmm. It depends on the person and how you feel about them.

[ Well, that just brought up even more questions. As shown in Roxas' perplexed expression. But maybe it's not a bad thing. He wouldn't want it to feel the same as it did with Sora with everyone. It should be different. ]

... maybe the good weird then.

[Sora gives Roxas an encouraging smile.]

Maybe.

For me, sometimes when I kiss Riku or Kairi it is intense. It feels like everything else in the world disappears. Other times, it's more comfortable and warm, like a hug.

And with you... It's like feeling my heart ache but in a good way. In a way that reminds me that I'm not alone.

[ Roxas isn't sure how he feels about making someone else's heart ache... But he also understands that most of what he has to share with others isn't exactly... pleasant. It's just who he is. ]

I think it's your light. It's welcoming but also... overwhelming. I felt it the first time I saw you.

[ When he had accepted his fate to return to Sora. To give up. And then again, when Sora had bested him in their battle for Sora's heart. And when they'd found each other again and Sora had insisted that they weren't the same, that he shouldn't have to give up. All those times, he'd felt it... ]

This was just... more.

[ Maybe because now there were no barriers between them. No metaphysical walls. No emotional walls. He could finally just be with his Other. As his own self. And the destruction of those walls felt incredible, especially when he was the one shattering them. ]

When was the first time you saw me? [Sora asks, genuinely curious what Roxas's experience had been. He knows everyone had told him he was the one who needed to be complete, even Roxas had said that in the dream, but he still had so little understanding of what had actually happened there. Even the memories that Roxas had given him in the dream were more feelings than concrete details.]

[ Oh right, Sora wouldn't remember that. Which is weird to think about considering how pivotal the moment was in Roxas' life. ]

You were sleeping in some white pod. Ansem, er, the real one, arranged things so I would find you.

[ His feelings had been a real mess back then. Confusion, resistance, despair and so much anger. But all that had seemed to suddenly fade back the instant he saw Sora. The one who was really chosen. He felt then that he should have hated him, hated him for robbing him of everything just by existing. But how could he? Everyone was right. Being around Sora just made him feel... complete. Right.

And warm. How could he do anything but give Sora back what everyone said was his? Not Roxas'. ]

I called you. Before everything...

[ Went away.

He runs a hand through his hair. ]

Anyway, that was the first time. It felt similar but... not quite.

I'm sorry I couldn't answer.

[Sora replies. He can tell there's something about this memory is complicated for Roxas. He rubs his hand lightly against Roxas's arm, establishing another point of physical comfort.]

But now I can. I promise I'll answer you whenever I can from now on. [At least for as long as they were both here on this world together, and if Sora managed to stay physical after that.]

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