Video, UN: Bardicuncertainty [Backdated to the 8th]

[have_hat_will_travel]

[The woman in the video is recognizably Pidonus, in spite of one very obvious difference to those who know her. Yes, more obvious than the fox ears on her head.

It's the lack of her hat. And it feels weird to her.]

So, uh. Cordis moon. I guess this is a thing.

I've got fox tails and ears. And I can't shapeshift them off. That's. A thing I'm not used to. It's not like I used my shapeshifting much, I generally like my form, but having it suddenly restricted is kinda...

How do I word this? It's like there's a mental block on something that wasn't mentally blocking before. And it's like. It's harder to want to do stuff like this?

Also, uh, I think I'm hungry? That's really weird for me. And other desires I'm used to having under control?

This is very awkward to experience all at once.

... Anyone got any advice I haven't already likely heard?

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[have_hat_will_travel]

... I do already think that, yeah, but I also feel like I should be talked out of it.

Also, delivery as a concept is kinda. New to me? My world was less advanced.

[trivialization]

So you want me to make you like sex.

That's a pretty roundabout way of propositioning someone.

[have_hat_will_travel]

... I mean, I already do, I'm just afraid of going all Evil Hypnodomme you know?

[Pidonus blinks a bit.]

And, I mean, I wouldn't be opposed to the idea of a proposition? I'm just cautious about people who wouldn't normally be interested in me deciding that my unusual scent means both of their hands belong on my boobs.

Or their face belongs there. That one's oddly common.

[trivialization]

Are you now? I find it quite enjoyable to be able to control someone with nothing but words.

[have_hat_will_travel]

I... Did, once.

I still have those abilities, even.

I just... Am scared of what I'd do with them now.

[trivialization]

So it goes. With power the capacity for evil grows much faster than the capacity for good.

Do you struggle with it, then? The desire to become as you were?

[have_hat_will_travel]

It's not so much who I was before - who I was before was a slave, a minion who could mostly only think in terms of her assigned mission.

It's the desire to be more than that. To be a queen, worshipped by a gaggle of pretty little pets. To be in control, more than ever before.

... Yeah. It's a thing.

[trivialization]

Mm, see, I think it's annoying when they get too clingy.

Then tell me what you're aiming for, exactly. Someone who will sleep with you but not give in to your baser desires?

[have_hat_will_travel]

I guess I don't completely know... But someone who I can be at least kinda equal to would be good. I had that on the last world I was on for a while.

Maybe I do want to enjoy my powers? I really don't know anymore. But I don't want to hurt people if I do that... So that's also a thing.

[trivialization]

Equal. You know, I used to spend a lot of time thinking about what it meant to be great or meager but I never gave much thought to the nature of equality. Not much of it in the world.

But if all you need is someone you can be assured will neither become nor make you a slave I don't mind... associating.

[have_hat_will_travel]

I get the sense that, for you, this is a fair bit?

I do appreciate it, though. It's... Well. I've had a lot happen. Knowing I can be around people where there's less risk of more happening is great.