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[starmark]

so i have a couple of questions.

first question, people who've turned into more than one thing because of their moonblessing before. do you like one better than the other? i don't mean being a cordis and then being an iris or something like that, i mean...like sometimes you're a cat and then sometimes you're a fox. or something like that. are you more comfortable as one thing than as another thing.

second question, people who've turned into a dragon. how do you turn the voice thing off. can you turn it off or do you have to just not talk until sanguis is over or what.

third question, say you've been through something pretty fucked up and you want to put it behind you. how do you know when you're really over it and not just pretending that you're over it? i mean what if you think you're fine and then something happens to make you realize you're not really fine. how do you fix that.

last question, i read somewhere that flowers have meanings. how do i find out what flowers mean. is there a book or something or can you just ask a florist or what. do people even care what flowers mean anyway or are they just flowers.

ok i think that's it.

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text; un: miniskirts_forever

[queenofminiskirts]

people can turn into dragons here!? that sounds cool!

i can't say i know anything about the first two but...there's no such thing as a meaningless past. if the past was painful, then become someone stronger, someone strong enough to do for the people suffering something similar what you wish someone had done for you.

i think in a way, you won't ever be really over it. it's something that happened to you and, fucked up or not, it probably had some influence on the person you are now. but you get to decide what you do about that because it doesn't define who you are.

there's no easy way to do that, but i think knowing that you can decide that, that even if the past can't be changed it doesn't have to define your future is a good start. so is realizing you're not really fine, you know? just because you're not really fine doesn't mean you haven't moved forward at all! i'm sure, even if you're not as fine as you want to be, if you've been moving forward step by step all this time, you must have made some progress.

oh and some people probably care about what flowers mean. at least, it's good to ask if they care before you give them a flower that means 'i hate you' or 'i only want you for your body' by accident and get slapped.

[She's being helpful...some of her attempts are more helpful than others.]

permanon

[starmark]

it's really not as great as it sounds
the voice thing is a problem

i don't think that's a good idea
the part about becoming strong for other people
i mean i understand what you're saying
probably that would work for other people
but i think that would just make more problems for me

everybody keeps talking about moving forward too
that's easier said than done i think

are there really flowers that mean i hate you

[queenofminiskirts]

what voice thing?

hm. i don't think it's only for other people. it's like doing it for that version of me that never got that support or that protection. like knowing that all that...even if it's unforgivable, even if it left scars, at least it wasn't in vain. and it gives comfort to that part of me that will always be that scared kid who couldn't do anything.

but you know, if it doesn't work for you you don't have to think of it that way! the words came from someone very dear to me so maybe that's another reason why it gives me comfort. whatever you think is right for you is how you should think about it.

moving forward...it's definitely easier said than done. these things haunt you in ways you don't realize sometimes until you're face to face with them a second time. it's been more than six years and sometimes i still don't think i'm completely over it.

in fact i know someone who still hasn't moved forward much after 80 years. so it's not like anyone expects you to be okay right away just because we said you should move forward.

and if anyone tells you you have to be okay right now let me know and i'll kick their ass for you!

i'd be surprised if there wasn't a flower that means that. though i'm not sure when you'd use it...it seems like a waste of time and money to buy flowers just to let someone know you hate them.

[Pause.]

nvm. i just remembered i know someone who would do exactly that and he'd probably send a truck full of it too.

[starmark]

if you don't already know about the voice thing i probably shouldn't tell you

wait
who do you know who's 80 years old

[queenofminiskirts]

why not!? you can't just mention it and then not tell me! how will i sleep tonight!

he's probably pushing 90 now. but he's this lolicon stalker i know who has a terminal case of chunnibyou. he called himself silver haired prince once and up until recently he'd been playing at being student council president at my highschool.

[You know. Up until she had to leave school because a maniac was taking over the world and is turning all the world's governments against espers and she had to become the leader of an international criminal organization to counter that.]

[starmark]

how old are you
i'm not saying it to a kid

...
and don't compare me to a weird guy like that
what the fuck

[queenofminiskirts]

i'm not a kid! i'm already sixteen!

[Spoken like a true kid.]

...yeah, kyousuke is his own kind of weirdo.

but i just wanted to mention him because he's been stuck in the past, unable to move forward. he tells everyone he's only a ghost of the past even though there are a lot of people who care about him now. he was a really cute kid before, you know? but he gave up on the future, and now he's

well

like this

as long as you're doing better than he's been i think that's probably still fine!







....wait. is that setting the bar too low?

[starmark]

you're definitely too young for me to tell you
so i'm not saying anything

wait so this guy is a ghost now
???

[queenofminiskirts]

now isn't the time to be a responsible adult!

he's not. he's just dramatic. chunnibyou, remember?

i mean, he is currently on life support but that's not actually related to his age or whether he's a ghost.

[starmark]

what the fuck is it related to then

this is wild shit

[queenofminiskirts]

[Well, we were breaking into a government organization to destroy the crazy psychopath with an out of control bird's nest for hair and dresses in a white tuxedo like some sad groom that had been stood up who had taken control of it and in the process Kyousuke got shot in the heart...and once we got him hooked up Momiji-san talked about ordering him a new heart on the organ black market for about a panel before we moved on from that joke.

...yeah. She's not telling him that.]

i did say his chuunibyou was terminal, remember?

[Kaoru, people don't get put on life support for middle school syndrome!?]