( video, un: lavieenrose )

[affectueux]

[ maybe it’s insanity. more likely, it’s the combination of the sanguis cycle and his upcoming birthday making him restless and impulsive. he can usually tamp down those urges when things are normal, but he also can’t recall a moment when things have ever been normal in lunatia.

maybe that’s a contributing factor, too. either way, here’s a video of serge—like the cycles before, he’s got little bear features. paws included, even if his hands are off-screen. ]

Er, bonjour. My name is Serge… I’ve cleaned many of your tables at Salon de Marie. [ it gets harder when he’s a bear, but that’s neither here nor there. ] My birthday will be coming up soon, and I—it—

[ he frowns, searching for the words. he should have planned this better, but again. the haste. ]

In my world, I’m set to inherit my family’s estate on my 18th birthday. I’ll be expected to get married and carry on the family name, as I’m the only child of my late father. [ he realizes something, and holds up a hand in brief fluster. ] I’m not saying this to brag! It’s relevant, I promise. I bring it up because there’s—a person. Someone I love. Someone I can neither marry nor produce a child with.

…this is quite heavy, isn’t it? I’ll try to get to the point. When your heart is in conflict with both duty and the expectations of society, what are you supposed to do? What can you do?

Merci, everyone. For your attention.

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[affectueux]

[ it won’t be long before serge reaches seven months without gilbert. that’s the longest he’s gone since they’ve met—but then, a day is the longest he’s gone since they’ve met, considering they’ve lived together since day one. ]

He must have been dying without you.

[noenvy]

From what I understand there was a version of myself here before, but, I was from a time when I was unaware of my feelings. Though, not the same, he wasnt quite alone.

Thiugh... he had to suffer alone for a long time before.

[affectueux]

[ …now, that gets serge’s attention. a version of himself. ]

I don’t mean to interrupt. But about what you said—there was another version of you here before?

[noenvy]

Yes. It seems that people can come and here, and are not always matched in current events to others from their same world. My other self who was here only remembered up to a point which was a while ago compared to myself and my husband.

[affectueux]

[ husband, he says… of course, he’d informed serge that he and his beau had eloped, but it’s different hearing him refer to him out loud as his spouse. good for him. good for his bravery!

that’s not the point of the conversation, though. not anymore. ]

How strange…

[ if an earlier version of gilbert came here, what would happen? if a later one did? ]

I think it would be heartbreaking to be separated from your lover by time. Our experiences shape us, non?

[noenvy]

I think it was. I know I don't want to imagine what it would be like if he only remembered before. I think I would be less forgiving than he was.

[But it's hard to say when not actually in the position.]

I know when I first arrived he... hmm... seemed full of longing.