text; un: xiaoxingchen

[mingyues]

[ xiao xingchen is not someone who feels the urge to ask questions often. not of others, and even less so of strangers. for this, however, he'll make an exception, even if the words are hard to parse. ]

I have been thinking
The people that we are in this place, the people we become —
Is there a chance in this world for those who are destined to commit evil?
Or is it futile to expect that anything will change when we return to our worlds?

And if it is futile then... does anything we do here matter?

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un: thejinli----- wait no. un: lovesafairy

[inheritedpain]

[ He was going to answer this with his normal username, but then decided not to at the last minute. Xiao Xingchen's name rang out like a bell to hi, but so did the question.

And he didn't really want to put his own name to the answer. ]


i think


this place gives second chances we would never otherwise have had

we can see people for what they actually are rather than what lies had us believe

i don't know if we'll remember
or if it changes anything

but that just makes the time here even more precious, right?

1/2

[mingyues]

I
I would like to think this is the case
That
You are right.


But I

2/2

[mingyues]

Does knowing the truth really matter?

Voice

[noenvy]

From my experience, nothing changes in our worlds while we are here.

But, we should make the most of what we have while here, and treat it just the same as home.

voice;

[mingyues]

[ there is the sound of shuffling, a hitched breath. ]

I - [ so much hesitation and doubt; ] Why? I do not think it is wrong to approach your life here on those term, but why would you? Knowing what waits —

Knowing the future does not ... stop you?

[inheritedpain]

of course it does!!

how are you supposed to know anything if you don't know the truth??

people lie
so much
all the time
about everything

and they make everything worse because they're stupid!! instead of just
being honest
they cover every lie with another lie and then another lie until you can't believe a word out of their mouths, even if you want to believe them!! how could you??

1/?

[mingyues]

[ WAIT HE KNOWS THIS ONE ]

[mingyues]

[mingyues]

I...

voice;

[noenvy]

I don't know my future beyond my last memory, I'm the one who remembers the most from my world.

[But he wasn't worried for his future, he was secure in it.]

But, there is much I have lost that is here, and I will gladly keep hold of it tightly and close. Because I know their future, I have to cherish every moment I have.

[mingyues]

I don't know what to believe beyond knowing the future that waits.

Video;

[mermaiding]

[god she hates texting she immediately switches to video and looks rather irritated, chin in her palm]

Chenchen.

You are so stupid.

done~

[mingyues]

Even if someone keeps the truth from you out of love, how
How
How do you tell someone certain things? Even if you love them, if you care for them - how can you tell them things that might destroy them?

I understand the why but the rest...

[mingyues]

If someone were to tell you that the future that awaits you is worse than you could imagine? If - [ he swallows, continues with difficulty ] How could you sleep at night? How could anyone?

But keeping the truth of the future from others to avoid hurting them... that is difficult too.

video;

[mingyues]

[ he has the grace to look slightly embarrassed at being called stupid. technically, he does not feel oona is wrong. ]

I apologise. There are too many thoughts in my head.

[noenvy]

I would still just live today. Tomorrow is tomorrow, let's think of today, the here and now. Why worry about something we might not see for years?

Unless there's a way to change that future, worrying about it is pointless.

video;

[mermaiding]

Why would it not matter? You will care either way. Do you mean to just turn off how you are feeling? Does not sound nice to me.

The thing we told each other, promises made. They do not matter to you? You are so heartless?

[inheritedpain]

i



i think there's a difference between
lying for yourself
and keeping things from someone else, to protect them


if telling someone about their future would destroy them
who the hell would do that????

we're not supposed to know our futures anyway!! that's not the same!!!

it's when people lie about
about everything
when they've been lying your whole life and it
it wasn't to protect you
it was to protect them
or to benefit them
that's

that's when it's the worst!! it's not

i would never have told you!!

[mingyues]

That's not-! [ he looks up, and now looks properly embarrassed. ] I ... I don't think I am the type of person you think, Oona.

[ including how eloquent he's being now, derp. ]

[mermaiding]

I do not think of you as any person. You are Xiao Xingchen.

What else needs to be known?

[mingyues]

Yes. There is.

I don't- I don't -

[ can text convey disappointment and heartbreak and sorrow and madness and everything? probably not but...

just admitting that he knows his fate is enough to cause him to falter, afraid. but jin ling talks of them and xiao xingchen sees three people in his head: a-qing, xue yang and song lan.

except... ]

It's too late now, and Song Daozhang is no longer here.

[ not their song lan. ]

[mingyues]

What I will do. I am not - [ he rubs his face, tired. ]

I am not a good person.

[mingyues]

Master Wei speaks with such certainty and confidence, I wish I had that too. But I... cannot forgive myself over what I will do.

I cannot stop worrying about it. Or trying to think of a way to stop it.

[noenvy]

In my opinion, you have never done anything wrong.

[inheritedpain]

[ This is getting Jin Ling hopping mad, and abruptly he decides: ]

where are you

i'm coming to where you are