002. text. un: orchid

[inheritedpain]

[ Jin Ling is trying to get better at this anonymity thing, which is why he chose a username that he knows no one who knew him would think he chose. ]

okay so
beyond moonlacing or whatever because we all have to do that and it doesn’t always mean anything

how many of you have someone or someones that you love, here

like real love or the closest thing you’ve felt to it anyway


and if you do are they from your home or are they from other worlds



and if they’re from other worlds
how are you going to

what are you going to do when one of you leaves

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[mysophobe]

Savor what you have while you are here. When they or you leave, cherish what you had. Do not expect that you will fade from their heart the moment you are apart. Nor them from yours.

[inheritedpain]

as long as i'm here, i know they won't
but

how can you keep someone in your heart if you go home and forget any of this ever happened

[mysophobe]

What makes you think we'd forget?

[inheritedpain]

a

well he's not a friend exactly but
someone i know

he was here and then he left and came back

and didn't remember anything about this place


and my uncle here is way younger than he is back home
and i know he doesn't remember this place from my time, either

[mysophobe]

(( Well, that's disappointing. ))

All the more reason to enjoy what you have now. If it's to be forgotten in the future, we must live in the present.

[inheritedpain]

well sure it's easy to say but

ugh

i mean i guess
but if i could stop myself from thinking about it then i wouldn't be here asking in the first place!!

[mysophobe]

I understand.
I, too, have found love in this strange place with someone not of my world. I toiled over the future and ultimately chose to accept what the present affords: happiness.

[inheritedpain]

do you think it's just... normal love or

do you think fate brought you together

[mysophobe]

I like to believe fate brought us together.

[inheritedpain]

is there a way to know?

or is it just nicer to think that way

[mysophobe]

You simply know.

[inheritedpain]

[ Jin Ling sighs and frowns down at his phone. Sometimes he wonders if there's something that older people have figured out that he hasn't that would give him a key to it all, but. ]

i guess



i keep thinking i know things and then find out that it was all a lie, though
so

not sure i can trust my instinct on something like that

[mysophobe]

I wish I could explain it more clearly. Finding love, fated or not, you just know. In the way your body just knows how to breathe. You feel it in the marrow of your bones. It brings joy and peace and sometimes pain.

[inheritedpain]

i
i think i get that part, i just

i'm having a really hard time wrapping my head around the idea of
of knowing someone
of loving them
and then that entire part of my life just not existing when i go home
i don't know how to call that fate if i don't even get to keep the memory