002. text. un: orchid

[inheritedpain]

[ Jin Ling is trying to get better at this anonymity thing, which is why he chose a username that he knows no one who knew him would think he chose. ]

okay so
beyond moonlacing or whatever because we all have to do that and it doesn’t always mean anything

how many of you have someone or someones that you love, here

like real love or the closest thing you’ve felt to it anyway


and if you do are they from your home or are they from other worlds



and if they’re from other worlds
how are you going to

what are you going to do when one of you leaves

Comments

un: tangtang

[menaces]

hold on
hang on
sorry i'll
focus in a second
hold the fuck on
are you a hooker?

[inheritedpain]

wh

no????

what about anything i just said would imply i’m a hooker!!!!

un: zewujun

[ze_uwu_jun]

You keep going. While you can, remember what you have shared, because you are precious to that person or those people, and they are precious to you.

It might seem like a worse predicament than one would have to face without this place, but... life, and love, are precious but often taken away from us too soon. So not wasting the time we have with grief over what has not yet come to pass

If you can avoid it, do.

[inheritedpain]

[ oh. oh, he knows that username. he swallows roughly. ]

do you mean avoiding grief or avoiding love in the first place

because i don’t really know how to do either

text | un: springtime

[hopticulture]

Someone you're in love with leaving isn't something completely unique to this place.

Is that what's happened to you? Because moving on takes time no matter the circumstances.

[inheritedpain]

no but
back home if someone dies at least you can see them in the next life, right?

fate will reincarnate you together


and i

no

not yet

but i can’t stop thinking about it

text, un: birdinthehand

[chichichi]

[ She wasn't going to reply. With so many notebooks scattered around the table on varying subjects alongside a newspaper, a hot pot of herbal tea with a touch of honey to engage, and a variety of subjects on her mind (love most certainly among them -- how difficult is it to find the correct ring? Difficult), she has more than enough to occupy her over these familiar questions; and yet, her eyes and fingers linger. ]

Live and remember. [ Just that, that's all she offers to start. ]

[inheritedpain]

and if i go home?

and forget?

text — un; songzichen

[mysophobe]

Savor what you have while you are here. When they or you leave, cherish what you had. Do not expect that you will fade from their heart the moment you are apart. Nor them from yours.

[inheritedpain]

as long as i'm here, i know they won't
but

how can you keep someone in your heart if you go home and forget any of this ever happened

Text | un: super_deduction

[sweetsleuth]

Cry, obviously.

[Just straight to the point.]

[inheritedpain]

[ well see, now someone is speaking his language ]


i mean


yeah

but i cry enough already!!!! there's got to be a way to
make it better somehow
right?

Un: kozukata.yuri

[onerous]

I struggled with this for a while. The person I was probably supposed to be with back home was already dead, so when I came here it was strange. I thought it’d be pointless to get attached to people.

But you can’t really decide on something like that. If I ignored my feelings, it’d just be hurting the people I cared about even more.

I think...Someone leaving this world isn’t much different than the inevitability of death. But people don’t stop living or loving other people just because they know one day they or the other person will die, right?

I want to enjoy the time I have with people, even if it might hurt in the end. But I decided I’m not going to let that stop me from happiness. I’ll just cherish these memories as much as I can, especially if I won’t get them back home.

private -> voice

[inheritedpain]

[ be right back, having a heart attack over the username

he considers for a second if having this conversation while she doesn't know who he is can possibly be right or not

part of him wants to hide behind the anonymity and learn stuff she might otherwise not tell him, but

ah, fuck

he can't do that.

so, he switches to Private and he switches to Voice: ]

... I want to make sure you get to cherish these memories too.

I guess I'm not really saying-- I don't know.

I didn't really think you'd see this.

un: aymeric

[ishgards]

I am lucky in that those for whom I care are from my home, so many of them I know I would see again. But the separation, the time spent here if they were away, would be difficult. But we do what we must, it is not as if we have a say in the matter.

[inheritedpain]

i have a lot of people from home, too

though some of them died when i was a baby

so you don't think there's any chance of having control over what your feelings are doing? or how you react to things?

un; nocturne

[synchroswim]

i have two
or uh
had? one of them disappeared so its just been the two of us but it hasnt...

it hasnt really been easy and this is coming from a guy whos kinda emotionally constipated because of a bunch of stuff related to what i am but thats another story :\

but we still have moments where we just sort of
sit around feeling weird because its not the same without the other guy here and real talk im still pretty much new to this whole dating thing so i dont know what the right thing to do actually is you get me??

[inheritedpain]

that sounds awful

what you are? rather than who you are?

and yeah i get you
it's not like i've ever done this before either

back home i'll probably get my marriage arranged for me so i never really worried about it

is he new to it too

text; un: chrysalis

[spoiledbugboy]

This is why I feel it's super pointless to get attached to people here
What happens when you leave?
You are just going to be missing that person forever?
That sounds stupid

[inheritedpain]

so what do you do instead


nothing??

Text: UN: whatever

[noenvy]

The people I love the most in the entire world are here. And though they are from my world this world has given me opportunities I wouldn't have otherwise.

It's not worth thinking about 'what if someone leaves'. That is a potential, but it's also an unknown. It's better to focus on the here and now. Take the happiness while you can, don't worry about when it leaves. Because if you do you'll never be happy.

[inheritedpain]

well i get that part
getting chances with the people you love that would never have happened before
that i get
completely

but it
it doesn't feel the same when they're from another world
no matter how close it is to yours

it's not that i don't want to focus on the now, but...
there's just some things that don't make sense to do in the now, with the future in mind
if that makes sense

text | un: demonchef

[satanslash]

i do

we're from different worlds

but we've also been through two worlds now
she went home once, from the other one, and we met again here

and i went home from here and came back

i'd like to believe that whatever happens we'll keep finding a way back to each other

[inheritedpain]

[ Well this one makes Jin Ling's eyebrows shoot up. ]

really??

you were somewhere else?? not home, you mean? a world like this one??

[huaisang]

I don't know, I don't know... I really don't know! What would you do?

[inheritedpain]

i

why would i even ask if i knew the answer to that question!!!

i don't know


i want to think about things lasting forever and whatever but how am i supposed to do that

un: mustlovedogs

[inuko]

Be selfish enough to hope I go first, and realistic enough to have not gotten involved without knowing all this is temporary. Sure, it's going to hurt eventually. That's a risk in loving anyone, even back home. Love is not only the happy moments, but the sad or scary or angry ones too. It's just the happy ones that have more meaning in the end.

[inheritedpain]

yeah i

i guess i don't know why this hurts worse than it usually would

maybe because back home even if someone died, at least i might see them in the next life


mostly i'm worried that
if you're fated to be with someone, and this is the only place you can be with them

does that mean they don't find love back home?

[champagnetower]

I have someone I love here.
We have known each other since we were kids, and have been best friends ever since.
I was here without him for several months.
They were the longest, loneliest, most painful months I've ever experienced.
He is my whole universe. I don't know a life without him in it.
Without him, I barely recognize myself.
He is here now, as of a couple months ago.
If he is taken from me, I can only do what I did when he wasn't here, and that is try my hardest to live a life I can be proud of, and busy myself with bringing joy to the lives of others.
That's all I can do.

[inheritedpain]

[ Jin Ling clutches his phone. Ugh, that's so romantic!! He hates it!! ]

it really does sound like he's your fated person

i'm glad that you can both be here together


and yeah i guess that's
it, really

i don't know
i don't know if i'm worried about the after or what the after means for the now

un: laurea

[wearingguess]

I do. They are from other worlds.
If they leave, I will be miserable and hope that they return. What other option is there?

[inheritedpain]

i guess that’s what i’m trying to figure out

i’m sure they don’t want you to be miserable

why would they want that?

text | UN: idorumagigirl

[lonenowa]

[Clicksu. Noire's eyes stroll, and as she reads the post, her cheeks gradually gloss in a pink sheen. She initially thought to close out the tab and lurk elsewhere. Fingers are drawing towards the keyboard, typing a manner of words before retyping all together. This indecisive oscillation repeats within five minutes.] 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵-- 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵.

𝘐𝘵'𝘴 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘹𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘪𝘯, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐 𝘥𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦. 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘧 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳, 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.

𝘗𝘳𝘦𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦, 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘐 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥. 𝘐 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘦.. 𝘈 𝘧𝘦𝘸 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘧𝘢𝘳, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘷𝘢𝘳𝘺, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘦𝘮 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨.

𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘴𝘬 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰 𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘢𝘳𝘳𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨, 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘸𝘢𝘺?

[inheritedpain]

because how am i supposed to learn anything if i don’t look for answers
its not like i could figure out how other people feel on my own

but wait

do you mean you don’t know if you love anyone?

text

[provenforce]

I've been trying not to think about going back to a world without him.

It ruins our time together if I'm always worrying about leaving him behind.

[inheritedpain]

does trying not to think about it work

text | username: absterge | here to shame this child

[downswing]

A brother from another time.

He will hold strong.

[inheritedpain]

[ hrk

cool great definitely wanted this conversation

but at least wangji didn’t know it was him

... he hoped. ]

another time or another place

or both?

text, un: tealeaf

[shadowonthe]

love, real love. found it on damn near the day i arrived.

both from home, and not.


as far as leaving goes? well.

crazier things have happened.

[inheritedpain]

is it
is it easy to fall in love then or were you just lucky


crazier things, sure
there are definitely crazier things

does that make it easier

text. — un: godric, pls forgive me for being so late..!!!

[imperio]

( he's fairly confident this is jin ling, you know — the username aside, the way this anonymous user is talking is pretty close to what he knows of jin ling. so. it's a bit of nastiness that enables him forward, this taste of manipulation like harry can conceal himself better than jin ling, and thus can pry a bit, into topics perhaps better left untouched. )

Honestly, it depends!
Is it better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all?

I think so.

you're not late you're right on time <3

[inheritedpain]

[ The word 'godric' pings somewhere in his mind, but he doesn't remember where it's from... ]

i mean i don't see how anyone could stop it happening anyway i just

really don't like the idea of hurting someone that bad just by not being here

and it's not like i like the idea of getting hurt either