002. text. un: orchid

[inheritedpain]

[ Jin Ling is trying to get better at this anonymity thing, which is why he chose a username that he knows no one who knew him would think he chose. ]

okay so
beyond moonlacing or whatever because we all have to do that and it doesn’t always mean anything

how many of you have someone or someones that you love, here

like real love or the closest thing you’ve felt to it anyway


and if you do are they from your home or are they from other worlds



and if they’re from other worlds
how are you going to

what are you going to do when one of you leaves

Comments

un: laurea

[wearingguess]

I do. They are from other worlds.
If they leave, I will be miserable and hope that they return. What other option is there?

[inheritedpain]

i guess that’s what i’m trying to figure out

i’m sure they don’t want you to be miserable

why would they want that?

[wearingguess]

They wouldn't, of course. But
Well
it is not really up to them, is it?

Ah, not that I mean to say "I will be as miserable as I like, and no one can stop me"
It is just very complicated. And there are things we simply cannot guarantee, no matter how far we are willing to go.

[inheritedpain]

but if they thought you were going to be that miserable


what if they just

didn't let you get close enough to feel that way

would that be kinder

[wearingguess]

Absolutely not

It is terribly, terribly painful to lose a loved one for any reason... and it will never be possible to guarantee that we will not lose them.

However, if we never form those connections to begin with, and we do not come to love others
Then there is really not much point to being alive at all

Which is to say
I believe that the tradeoffs are worth it.

[inheritedpain]

[ There's a slight pause before he replies. ]


yeah.

sorry, you're right

that was stupid

i still wish there was a way to protect them from being miserable if i leave

[wearingguess]

I don't think it is stupid.
At least, to consider it is not stupid.
And I do not know whether I am really qualified to give anyone advice... what I have said is just how I myself feel about it

In any case
I have come to believe that, most likely, trying to live our lives in such a way that we cause as little pain to others as possible is ultimately a losing proposition. I think that it is better instead to live so that we bring as much joy to others as possible.