002. text. un: orchid

[inheritedpain]

[ Jin Ling is trying to get better at this anonymity thing, which is why he chose a username that he knows no one who knew him would think he chose. ]

okay so
beyond moonlacing or whatever because we all have to do that and it doesn’t always mean anything

how many of you have someone or someones that you love, here

like real love or the closest thing you’ve felt to it anyway


and if you do are they from your home or are they from other worlds



and if they’re from other worlds
how are you going to

what are you going to do when one of you leaves

Comments

[inheritedpain]

i’m not scared of it!!!

but there is definitely a difference between
a normal sort of love
and when you are someone’s everything

i’m not saying the first is bad but the second is... can you really feel that more than once

[inuko]

Yes. You can. Though... are you asking about being loved that way, or loving someone that way?

[inheritedpain]

both, i guess

i
want to believe that’s what i’m feeling but i don’t really know

and if it’s what they’re feeling, i don’t want them to...

to waste it on me i guess


ugh this sounds stupid

[inuko]

Of course it does, feelings always sound stupid. Doesn't make them stupid. Just not all... I dunno, logical.

Anyway, it's their love, and they get to feel it however they do. Have you asked them how they feel about you? Instead of worrying over a what if?

[inheritedpain]

if they don't make sense they seem pretty stupid to me


i

sort of

it's complicated

i wasn't even thinking about it this hard until they brought it up
but i guess you're right

how they love is their choice, i can't... i can't dictate that.

[inuko]

Like I said, emotions don't always make sense, so yeah. They are pretty stupid, and also pretty universal.

Yeah. You can't say how they love, only how you love. So worry if you're going to worry, but accept it's not something you can do. Or should do. It's how you feel that you can make choices about.

[inheritedpain]

i don't really feel like i get much choice in how i feel either

rather than it just

happening

but i'll try

[inuko]

Maybe not, but you choose how you react, don't you?