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[dereban]

hey.

so - sorry to be a little bit negative on anon, but, i kinda wanna talk for a bit. so, i've been in this world a really long time now! and something that i've noticed is that "things" tend to happen near the end of the month. it's like a pattern.

but's that's not what i want to talk about.

sometimes, people enjoy the things that happen during the end of the month.

sometimes, those things are bad.

for me? it's almost ALWAYS the latter. even for things that maybe most people would just brush off... they're 'trauma', for me. shit i had to deal with back home, that was forced on me. and it's stupidly ironic that some of these events tend to mirror the events that i've dealt with. personally. honestly, i don't even know if many people, if ANYONE can relate to me.

so i guess, the question i pose today is something a little more personal. go anon if you want, too.

but... how do you guys deal with it all? and more importantly: have events here mirrored things from your home worlds, too?

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[downswing]

Recuperate as if from battle.

Cleansing, meditation, music.

text | un: fantasma

[teaserving]

i drink
and cook
and i used to fold origami for awhile
now im back to drinking

nothing here really mirrors home
nobody's crammed their fist through my chest so i think im good in that department

[dereban]

that's valid. surprised a bit by origami, though.

also yeah, i probably would be glad to NOT have a hand through my chest, too.
maybe i'm just unlucky.

[dereban]

by cleansing - do you mean like the kind of thing you'd do for purification rites?

[downswing]

Ablutions. Fasting.

[teaserving]

im full of wacky surprises

could be
could also be that i've dealt with so much shit in my life that this place is practically a fucking vacation for me by comparison
take that as you will

[justicedevil]

Nothing here really mirrors anything that happened back home for me. Even those times when there's attacks aren't even close to how things like that have gone for me back home.

As for dealing with it... well, I basically just throw myself into training. But that really only helps for the things people can fight, and won't really help if you're not someone who can just get lost in lifting weights or punching a bag for hours.

anon

[nojohnyouare]

[She almost doesn't respond. But she finds the anon button and hesitates for a long time before sending.]

Fighting enemies is fine. I just want to protect people. Though things like home

Once.

When that king said it was our fault. And some of the people believed him. Graffiti and throwing rocks, for being different. Supernatural. That's the only thing.

[dereban]

i'm not a fighter.

i was there for that. and i think that people were idiots, for being like that.

a lot of the supernatural things are things i've experienced back home. it's not fun, for me.

[nojohnyouare]

I've heard about them. Hauntings. Mind control. Like that.

Sorry. That your home had those too. I don't know how to deal with things that hurt me. But trying.

[An edit, after a minute:]

Don't repress it. It seems natural. But it never helps.

[dereban]

thankfully the mind control and hauntings weren't common back home.

but there's a lot of other things that did happen to me that mirrored the things back home. repressing things doesn't help anyone... sometimes.

[dereban]

huh.

how long do you tend to fast for? a whole day?

[nojohnyouare]

Makes things worse. In my experience.

Do you have people who know what happened to you. Who can help you. It feels like burdening others, but... the only thing I can think of.

[dereban]

i feel like that's probably the case for a lot of people, tbh

[teaserving]

guess try getting a therapist

[dereban]

ha.

imagine finding one of those here.

[teaserving]

couldn't be that hard

[dereban]

yeah i'm not a fighter myself, unfortunately :(

i do need to train more, but it's not my MAJOR thing

[dereban]

only a few people.

one person knows... sort of? but i've never told them the details.

[nojohnyouare]

Understandable. Hard to tell people things. Sorry.

I don't know how to deal either. I should know. Bad at it.

text; un: ruffestrabbit

[zunge]

Brainwashing and mind control triggered by audio was pretty fucking familiar. The rest of events encountered, not so much.

I blow off the steam however I feel like it at the time - street fight, video game, listen to music, whatever.

[justicedevil]

Yeah, even if you did train more if it's not your thing it's really not going to help you get your mind off of everything.

Though I guess your normal hobbies aren't helping with the coping thing if you're asking for help. Do you have anyone that you can talk about what happened back home with? Maybe that'd help?

[dereban]

there's no need to apologize. even though those people do know, it's hard to talk to them. about this. because i feel like i'm a burden, i guess, if i do.

even if i should know better.

permanon;

[dereban]

that's shitty.

what kind of music?

[dereban]

i mean, i don't think i've seen a decent moonblessed therapist and any of the ones FROM this world probably are more likely to experiment on us tbh