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Important question: How do you tell if someone's your friend?

Is it something that people just... know or do they have a conversation about it?

[How does friendship work and more importantly, can you eat it?]

The whole concept of friendship always seemed strange, honestly. People just decide "Hey, this person isn't a complete piece of shit"? Weird. [Well, now she might just be projecting onto herself.

[So, wait. Does this mean that she has friends? Does anyone have friends? How annoying.]

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[circumitus]

Mind, could count the number who'd possibly apply as "friends" from before on one hand. People are very, um. Different here, though.

[suspecteverything]

Different how?

[Though he has already noticed that many don't pick up on the differences in races like they do at home.]

[circumitus]

The short of it? Never considered how much some everything changes when you're given a clean slate. After the only things people have ever seen when they look at you are all the things you've ever done.

[Even the people she could call close or even "friends" in her world had that look that people just don't have here. They don't share that same history or holes in their lives that were caused by the atrocities she had been made to do.

[She sighs.]

...And, yeah, that shit should be common sense for most people -- it always is. Just wasn't ready for how much everything changing would really feel.

[suspecteverything]

[Gods, does he understand that sentiment. The few times he ventured back into Andaria with his stralen eyes and managed to walk around with nobody treating him terribly because they had no idea who he was had been amazing.]

It kind of rocks the entire ground you've been standing on. There's something incomprehensible about it, and there's a part of you always waiting for the other shoe to drop.

[Or at least it's that way for him.]

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[For better or for worse, it's the same way for Rey as well.]

Exactly? Like when something seems too good to be true, but there's always something. Good things don't just happen for no reason, right?

[Well, it rarely ever had for her. She would hardly know a "good thing for Rey" if it was on a brick smacking her in the face.]

[suspecteverything]

Generally speaking, good things don't happen ever. And if they do, it's just going to be ripped away from you in the most painful way imaginable.

[This being the perfect example. He finally had a family that actually liked him. More than that, they loved him. Now he's here with no way to get back to them.]


((OOC: This two feel like they've been cut from the exact same cloth. It just screams a need to meet in person at some point!))

[circumitus]

[snort]

Was usually just killed and then molded into someone else before things got comfortable. Complacency was never an option before.

[Thus warming with the idea of settling down with a job, a home, and friends feels like a dangerous risk to her.]

[OOC: Definitely! I've actually now got an open log up here if you're interested. I can write up something new/closed if those prompts don't ping you.]

[suspecteverything]

[Wait, what?]

Getting hunted down constantly is enough for one lifetime. I'm pretty damn sure I don't want to wind up like the Korilon and wind up being revived constantly just to be killed again.

[OOC: I will look into it then!]

[circumitus]

[Yeahhh, she says a lot of "wait what" things sometimes.]

It's not nice. Can say from personal experience.

[suspecteverything]

Then you have my abject sympathies. One life is bad enough in my opinion.

[circumitus]

[She makes a dismissive grunt.]

Well, don't be sorry. Not like it wasn't deserved.

[Much as a few she knows would object to such an opinion. Rey has long since resigned herself to what happened to her as something that was inevitable, anyway.]

[suspecteverything]

That probably depends more on who you ask. I feel like I deserve most of the shit that's happened to me too, but if you ask some of my family they would strongly disagree.

[circumitus]

Before, people had lots of reasons to agree. Here...

[She huffs.]

Well, not actively trying to find similar reasons to be hated by these people. Seem pretty hopeless enough already.

[suspecteverything]

Be proud you actually have to find reasons.

[circumitus]

Oh yeah, so proud of that endless supply of wit and wiles to charm the masses with. It's a wonder, having not been torn apart by a mob already.

[suspecteverything]

Damn. You're like a female version of me. It's terrifying.

[circumitus]

That a compliment or an insult?

[suspecteverything]

Not really meant as either one.

I certainly would never want anyone to be like me as I'm a contentious ass that nobody likes and am profoundly difficult to deal with. Some people actually see some good in me though.