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[relearning]

I guess this is more for those of us who come from worlds where there's some catastrophe or some world-ending thing happening and you're generally working to try and save your world from aforementioned catastrophe ...

I've been here for a few months now, and I kind of feel like I don't know what to do with myself. I went from having too much to do, too much to worry about, and now I'm in a position where I don't have that anymore (with the exception of the occasional weirdness that happens here, of course). I think I've read enough books that I've probably caused myself some major eye strain in the months I've been here, but otherwise I'm not exactly sure what to do with myself.

Does anyone else feel kind of like this? I think it might help me feel better to know I'm not alone in this.

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[have_hat_will_travel]

I'm going to preface this by noting that I know of, and know-know, quite a few people who are in a similar boat.

I'd compare it to a stress response - you've been in a high-stress, high-stakes situation long enough that being separated from it isn't bringing catharsis, but a sort of dread.

[Considering what Pidonus has mentioned of the world she was on before this one, the subtext is that she was in a similar place.]

Finding a good source of catharsis... That's the tricky spot.

[relearning]

... That. That sounds exactly like how I've been feeling. It's this feeling of dread over having been in this heightened state of awareness, I guess? And now that I'm not in that situation, I still feel like I need to do something about it.

The worst of it is that when I go back home, that problem will still be there. We're going to have to go back to panicking over having so much to do and so much on the line once this place decides to let us go.

[have_hat_will_travel]

Yup. Personally... I'd love to go back to the Rift, help save that world, but nothing terrifies me more than the prospect of being sent all the way back to my original home.

Saving the world's one thing. Being hunted down for finding something out, quite another.

[relearning]

Yikes. Yeah, I'd probably not want to go back to my home world if that were the case.

So you were in a different world before this one? You might have told me about this before.

[have_hat_will_travel]

Maybe, but if you forgot, no worries.

In short, yeah. Was helping to stabilize that world... And people there were critical to freeing my mind from the influence of my 'queen'. Who, by the way, sucks and I'm happy that I'm able to insult her now.

[relearning]

Insult away. I tend to insult those I care about.

I don't think it's working quite as well but he's still willing to hang around me so I guess he's a glutton for punishment.

[have_hat_will_travel]

Trust me, I do not care about her. Let's just. Not even get me started on her exact breed of shitty person.

As for the boyo, my recommendations might not match what you're up for, just saying.

[relearning]

Well now I'm curious about your suggestions. You can't just say something like that and leave me curious!

[have_hat_will_travel]

Well, I mean, I'm a Succubus, so a significant part of my thing is seduction and the like.

Getting him to notice you if jealousy isn't working will likely involve a level of straightforwardness you're not used to. There's a bunch of ways you can pull that one off, though it depends in no small part on what you want to get.

[relearning]

Tch. Even if I knew how to be seductive it's doubtful he'd even notice.

I feel a lot like the situation is kinda hopeless. I have kind of been messing around with someone, though ... And even that much makes me feel guilty, but then I realize I'm not really in a committed relationship, so why should I feel guilty?

[have_hat_will_travel]

I mean, if you wanted help there I could set something up, but I'm not entirely sure that's the issue.

As for the messings-around... Hm. I'm kinda naturally polyamorous by nature, so I'm not the best to ask, but may it have something to do with you feeling like you didn't talk about it?

[relearning]

No, I'll handle it myself ... Someday. Maybe.

I ... Don't really know. It kinda started as 'if we don't at least kiss I am going to die,' and then it happened as a result of this place's weirdness, and now I think I just like the attention, if I'm being honest.

[have_hat_will_travel]

The attention can be nice, yes~

But if there's guilt about it, that's a feeling that needs to be honestly confronted.

[relearning]

I guess.

Maybe I'm just hopelessly putting all of my eggs in one basket, though.

[have_hat_will_travel]

For most people, romance tends to be like that. It's usually better to roll with it than to fight it, honestly, because your romantic feelings and attitudes are a significant part of your full self.

Mind, being controlled about it is also good. Just, not bottling it up forever, you know?

[relearning]

I am the master of bottling up my feelings.

And then letting them explode.

Often times with fire.

[have_hat_will_travel]

Yeah, see, that's exactly the sort of thing I'm worried about to be honest...

[relearning]

The bottling, or the fire? Both are pretty valid reasons to worry.

[have_hat_will_travel]

... Both, yes.

I'm in the statistical minority with having resistance to fire, but people bottling up leads to all sorts of issues all its own...

[relearning]

I handle it well!

... I think. Look, at least my fire is directed at the ones who deserve it.

[ Like Els. Sometimes. ]

[have_hat_will_travel]

Right, you're from a combat-rich environment.

[Pidonus managed to miss that implication.]

Here, where real combat is rarer, the issue becomes that you don't have a lot of enemies to burn most of the time. So, you need another idea, yeah?

[relearning]

I'm sure some people would be up to sparring, and risking their hides for some dodging practice.

Or 'sparking,' if we go by Els and his misadventures with typing. I'm never letting him live that one down.

[have_hat_will_travel]

.. Okay, I mean, fair. But from a health standpoint, it's probably better to work on the honesty front?

[relearning]

Fire is easier.

[have_hat_will_travel]

And for me, so's charm magic. Doesn't make it the best solution.