VIDEO | UN: SINISTRA

[bisection]

[ It's late and Sinistra appears to be sitting outside, likely in front of his residence, barely lit by his comm device's screen. His shirt is off and there's a hint of pink on the peaks of his shoulders and the length of his nose. He hasn't mastered the art of sunscreen yet and he's no good with the heat. There has probably been a great effort by the people that know him to convince him his shirt has to stay on despite his sweating.

He is picking at the flaking skin on his nose, frowning as he speaks. He keeps his voice low. He doesn't really want the Archangel coming out and bugging him right now though he knows he's going to get some snidey response from him in the morning for this. That's how they work, isn't it? ]

If your body has been changed or if your body is 'newly given' to you in this world... how are you coping? When you have to generate chroma with others - however that may be - do you feel... disconnected from them, in some way? Do you feel you are being touched, or do you feel displaced from that touch? Does it feel foreign or is it a comfort?

[ His hand moves from his nose, thankfully, to rest against his own throat as he shuts his eyes. ]

How 'connected' do you feel to someone by holding their hand... or by being embraced... or even by fighting them? Does it feel 'real' or does it feel... strange? Dreamlike?

I am trying to gauge... what is normal... and if what I feel is strange. If this absent feeling is another form of sickness in me.

Comments

[embracethewind]

( he tries to make himself visible. )

I arrived recently so I've yet to experience how to get Chroma that way.

As for the connection, it is... something you cannot describe most of the time. You can only feel it.

[bisection]

Sometimes, that 'feeling' is at an arms length from me. Sometimes, it is too far too reach. And sometimes, it is unbearably close. There is no rhyme or reason to it. It is... frustrating.

[embracethewind]

You don't like close contact? Or being social?

It's what we call 'emotion'.

[bisection]

I am not used to it. I have not been able to speak to other people for... years now.

I see...

[embracethewind]

It's alright. Even humans spend their whole lives without contact with others, sometimes without the physical.

What you feel is what humans feel as well.

[bisection]

Ah... they do? I would think otherwise. That is... lonely.

It is?

[embracethewind]

It is, yes. Humans are social creatures but there are some exceptions.

Yes. Emotions can be quite difficult to handle sometimes.

[bisection]

I have not had the opportunity to be... social? Until now.

Yes... they are. Very.

[embracethewind]

Then this is a great chance! ( enthusiasm is everything, sinistra my dear! )

Glad I'm not the only one who thinks so!

[bisection]

Is it?

They are too big sometimes... suffocating. I do not like them sometimes.