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How do you deal with guilt from something you haven't yet done...? Can you atone for it?

Oh, I apologize for the strange questions but I've been wondering somethings lately.

Like have you ever wondered what happens to us when we go home from this place?

Can we change our future with the knowledge we learn here or are we never able to stop our predestined fate?

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Multiple people have told me that those of us who disappear return to their home world, and to the same point in time as when they'd left — but with no memory of this world. Some people were sent home, had no memory of this place while there, and then returned here, keeping memories of what had happened in the meantime at home, even if it'd been months that'd gone by there, but here they'd only been gone three days... always three days, for some reason. A few people have told me this.

I'm sort of new here. But I've been wondering the same questions since I got here, so I've asked around a lot. This is the most common, and most comforting, theory that I've heard so far. I need to research on my own more. But as far as I've heard, our destinies aren't interrupted, just frozen.

that seems to line up with what I'm being told as well. That this simply just pauses our there while we are here. It really seems like I will have to make the most of my time here.

[Until she goes home and...well there is no real future for her there. No life after what she does.]

Frozen sounds like a good way of putting it.

it took me a long time to come to terms with this. not that I really have yet, I mean. But I got pulled at the worst possible time in my world, probably... so i've spent weeks thinking deeply about this.

do you ever watch strangers and wonder what their lives must be like? Or have you ever wanted a different life — not a better life, just a different one, totally unlike your own? like a second existence on the side?

i've started thinking about it like this is that impossible chance. Like we get to live in a daydream indefinitely.

I believe I can understand that to a degree now, being pulled from a bad time I mean.

There are times that I do now. Perhaps this world really is like a second chance and we should value it as that. At least while we are here, right?

that's how I'm seeing it. It's better to believe our destinies haven't been interrupted, or else our imaginations will keep torturing us — especially those of us pulled from a bad time. it's wartime where I'm from and has been for a long time, so I've never known a life like we can live here. it's completely alien to me in every way. but I'd been thinking a lot recently before I came here about what it's like to be a "normal" teenager, living a charmed life at ease, just hanging out with other kids my age... and it's weird to have a chance to play at it now. it's hard to process. I wouldn't say I'm excited or satisfied with this conclusion. but that's essentially what I've come to about it all in these past few weeks... it's an unreal opportunity to indulge the lives we've wondered about, for better or worse.

War? I understand that, it's been difficult for so many where I'm from as well. I came here at a moment I thought would help end some of that though...

Perhaps this is a good chance to be normal here? No titles and such, right? Normal people.

exactly. on all points, actually... I also was in a crucial position, with an important title, that could have helped end a lot of suffering, long overdue. at first it was terrifying to think of what might happen in my absence. but from everything I've heard, there's no evidence so far that we should worry about it. so i'm trying not to anymore.

so yeah. maybe there is a silver lining. we can pretend to be normal... no one here would know otherwise, anyway, right?

Sounds like we have some similar things in that regard. it appears the future cant be changed so we should make the most of this, right?

exactly, just normal people.

yeah. seems like.

actually... this is so crazy, I haven't told anyone else this yet... hard to process still even though it's good news. anyway
a couple days ago, I met someone from my world
But from the future.
She recognized me. She knew my position and my title. But when she had met me at home, I'd been an old man... she told me we won the war, that there is peace again, told me what happened to the ruler we were trying to depose...
anyway... meeting her gave me confirmation that everything is okay as is, both here and there. Now I know I don't need to worry about it anymore. like the closest thing to proof that my destiny is still guaranteed. maybe this place is even part of my destiny, itself, and it's not even off-track, who knows.

I don't know if it's the same for everyone, or how many shades of alternate realities there are, but maybe that continuity is true in your world too. I'm holding onto whatever sensible comfort I can.

the future, that far ahead then.
that is good new then...it sounds like things go down the path you wished for, right? I'm happy for you. Still it has to feel a little strange, I'm sure.

thank you.

I don't know if I'd say things are going down the path I wished for, or that I'm happy, but I'm relieved things are going down the path they should.

definitely feels surreal and probably will stay that way, but it's still better than I'd first imagined it'd be. I won't tell you we're all in this together, though. People kept telling me that when I arrived and it pissed me off. We're not all in the same boat. just the same place. my roommates could never imagine my life; their country hasn't known war for a hundred years, my country has been at war for a hundred years. we aren't "in the same boat." but we can still bond and help each other, even if we can never understand where the other's coming from. that will stay weird, but it's weirdly nice too, I guess? in a way.

Its hard to let things go in way, huh? Like if might not be what you wanted but it's the right way. You sound strong for being able to accept that.

others lives and situations are hard to imagine. I've lost...family to violence so I can understand that. Was is also something that is happening where I live. Though I think people mean we are in this together in reference to this world. They might not understand but perhaps they are trying? I don't see something wrong with that.

it sounds like we had some overlap in our lives back home. sorry to hear that. still it’s more comforting to hear the “we’re all in this together, buddy!” stuff from someone who’s known pain and loss and chaos. From anyone who can say being in this place is the worst shit they’ve seen, the sentiment feels... patronizing and empty. I know they mean well and you’re right there’s nothing wrong with trying. But i dunno. just annoying.

It is nice to meet someone that understands though it pains me that you do understand such things. It's not the worse place for certain...honestly I think this place isn't too bad? I can understand that.

no this place isn’t too bad, as far as quality of life goes. it’s way more advanced technologically than my home. There’s a lot more lavishness here compared to what most commoners can enjoy where I’m from. just so much of so much. it’d be easy life except for the chroma. I hate that. dumb economy.

It is quite easy for everyone to access things to help them live a comfortable life. That is a nice thing about this place. Oh? So you're home is not quite as far with technology? I don't think it's too bad with the Chroma. At least holding hands can prove helpful.

I don’t like touching. especially not strangers. so for me Chroma sucks. But technically it’s better than fighting so I guess I shouldn’t complain. It is a comfortable life here. Never had so much time to be bored. What a luxury! One I never had at home.

Technology is A LOT more advanced i still dont understand it honestly, just going through life here blindly. other people seem to know what they’re doing more. I still don’t even get how this communicator works! but I’ve figured out it doesn’t have ink and stamps and a roll of paper inside like I thought when I first got here. progress?

[ Zuko just made like three “jokes” in one text, unheard of! If she only knew this is him being extra friendly... although, not by most people’s standards, of course. ]

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