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Hey everyone. This is Kairi.

I just want everyone to know, I checked this morning and I've been looking around to make sure, and it's confirmed at this point... Sora is no longer with us.

I... Light, I really don't have much else to say beyond that. He wasn't at home when we were brought here, and I don't know what's going to happen to him when he's sent back, but... hopefully, some way, somehow, he manages to make it back to the islands.

That's all I've got. If you'll all excuse me, I'm gonna eat all the ice cream we've got in the house.

[And then cry herself to sleep.]

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"I help that much?" Even Xion has never said something like that.

"You have the same feelings I do to them leaving... Well, maybe not the exact same, but very close. It's... nice, to be able to spend time with a friend who knows how I feel."

She squeezes him a bit. "Who I can cling to and let my feelings out."

"Yeah, it different than just talking with someone else. Even if they're a good friend." Erik had done his best to give him advice to deal with things, after all. And Bishop... well, Bishop had his own approach.

"Right. I feel like... we're the only ones here who can really know exactly what we're feeling right now." And right now, that's what they really need, more than anything.

"Even if we're feeling it in different ways."

Kairi's connection to Sora was quite different from his own, though perhaps they held an equal degree of power. Kairi, like him, had shared Sora's heart as well. It's something nobody else in this world could possibly understand.

"It... feels close enough, to me."

Maybe the only other person who would miss Sora in a way closer to how she did would be Riku... and she'd had to say goodbye to him already.

"You don't just know how it feels... you miss him too."

"Yeah, I do. It feels wrong not being able to sense that connection. I guess you sort of get used to it just being there after a while. It's comfortable." He instinctively tightens his hold just a bit.

"Yeah, comfortable." She squeezes him back. "And right now... I really don't think I felt at all comfortable until you came."

Still not as comfortable as before, of course. But that would probably be a bit ridiculous to even hope for. This is as best they can do right now.

She turns her head. Huh. Not much light streaming through the window. "How long have we been at this...?"

He might actually be blushing, which is quite a sight for him. "I don't know... I kind of lost track of time..."

"Yeah, me too... Ugh, I need to wash my face." Getting the tears out had felt good and definitely been necessary, but it wasn't without its downsides.

"You could probably use a splash of water too."

"That's probably a good idea." He doesn't even know what he looks like right now, though he imagines it's not much different from Kairi.

"C'mon then, let's clean up." Releasing him, she stood up with a sigh and slumped towards the bathroom, determined to wash at least some of the gross feeling on her face away.

When she entered and glanced in the mirror, her suspicions were very thoroughly confirmed. She was a mess. With a sigh, she turned on some warm water and gathered it in between her cupped hands, splashing it over her face. A lot of the leftover salt and such that her tears had left came off fairly easily with water, so when she grabbed a nearby handtowel and started to scrub at her face, it felt like she was at least getting most of it.

Completely fixing herself up could wait for tomorrow.

Roxas just remains where he is, slow tracing the tears on one side of his face. It's not the first time he's cried in this body. He cried with relief when Axel recovered from his ghost form. But he had been too concerned with Axel and Axel's own tears to pay much attention to his own then. He wonders what Sora would think, if he knew Roxas was crying over his loss. Would it surprise him as much as it surprises Roxas?

It's only after she's cleaned off her face and she feels... less awful, at least physically, that Kairi realized Roxas didn't follow her.

Well, maybe he wanted to give her some privacy. She hangs up the towel and heads back out to find him touching his own face, looking deep in thought. "Hey." She speaks up, walking over to him, tilting her head.

"Gil for your thoughts?"

Roxas pulls his hand away and looks up. "Oh, it's nothing. I guess it's just been a while." He hadn't really let himself cry over the other departures. Or maybe it was harder to understand how to do by himself.

"Been a while? You didn't cry over Axel or Xion?" That... actually really surprised her. They were his closest friends, as far as she knew, even if their relationship wasn't quite like hers with Riku and Sora.

But then, Roxas was still getting used to having a proper heart, so maybe it wasn't that surprising.

Roxas shakes his head. "I just... couldn't. I think I was more angry than anything. Probably Sanguis messing with me." He runs a hand through the back of his hair. "But I think it might also have been that... I still didn't know how to deal with losing them. And I didn't really... talk about it. Like we did just now. So I just kept pushing myself forward." It's not like he's ever had anyone demonstrate healthy methods of coping with loss before. Everyone always seemed to just... move on. "I thought if I could keep creating memories to share with them, that when I saw them again, everything would be fine."

"Oh, Roxas..." She moves to hug him again, because really, what else can she do in response to that? Sometimes she forgets how little experience he really has, dealing with these sort of things.

"I'm sorry. I should've been there for you then."

He accepts the hug but shakes his head again, more emphatically. "No, you're great, Kairi. I just need to get better at reaching out and stuff like that. Sora told me that, actually." He sighs softly. "It's kind of bad since I helped Axel deal with with something similar and didn't even realize I was doing it too."

"Still. I knew you were getting used to dealing with these sort of things, and I knew you didn't have that many people to go to. I should've made it clear I was one of them." She'd loved them both too, after all, even if her affection had been for Lea, rather than Axel. They could have done something similar to this.

Only she would have still had her own support, which would have made her better able to help Roxas through it.

But it was too late to worry about that. And he'd raised her curiosity. "What did Axel need help with?"

Roxas pulls back a bit so he can meet her eyes. "Don't worry about that. We're here for each other now."

"And I think he was worried that he wasn't anything special or not what he was supposed to be anyway. Xemnas messed with his Keyblade again. But it sounded like, more than anything, he just needed to talk with someone about how he was feeling." His mood spikes slightly into the more negative territory when he brings up Xemnas, but it's still overall somber. "I don't think he was used to it either."

Her expression goes grim at the mention of Xemnas too, but only for a moment. "Well, he was about twelve years or so out of practice, so I guess that's not really all that surprising."

Ignoring his other friends, but he only occasionally came to her for those sort of things, and somehow Isa didn't seem like the most... open person to talk about feelings with.

"Good job helping him through it, though."

Twelve years or so? Is that how long it had been since Axel became a Nobody? He always did make it seem like it happened a long time ago. Twelve years does sound long. Especially since they've been in Prismatica for almost two years, and it already seems like a long time.

He rubs at the back of his neck. "I hope I was able to do something. It was weird seeing him like that."

"Sometimes, all we really need is a friend to talk to. A little support." After all, isn't that what they're doing right now?

"Even if we're not quite sure what to say."

That brings a more knowing, albeit slightly sad, smile. "Yeah, you're right about that. A little support can mean everything sometimes."

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