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Video 001 | Lancer of Black

[Now that the nasty business of Moonblessings and transformations are done, Lancer's ready to talk more publicly. So he appears on video to ask this question rather than texting this evening. The pale, dark eyed man greets the camera with a glass of dark red wine and a desire for distractions.]

This place, or the moons above, seem hell bent on drawing out compulsions we never even had.

[Not going to think on that too hard. Lancer just finishes the glass of red wine he's holding.]

Please humor me if you are not from this world and tell me what you used to indulge in back home. Are you still drawn to it here? Can it even be found here?

Do the moons increase that for you or has it all changed now?

[A lot of questions but he really doesn't plan to investigate this too much. He just wants to hear what other people do for fun.]

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Hobbies unrelated to goals you want or need to accomplish count. Do you feel you have more time to indulge them here? Do you feel compelled to indulge them here?

[He wasn't going to pry but now he is sort of curious. Others don't have the limitations and vulnerabilities he does. So he takes Chroma more serious than others have to.]

As for Chroma, I see it as a necessity. Do you seek it in excess?

I guess I would, with crystal beach and the Lunatia Science Division being so close, except that now a lot of my time is taken up in training, which is very relevant to a personal goal of mine.

[Namely, never get murdered by a horrible old man again.]

And I don't think "seek" is the right word. I'm pretty touchy-feely by nature, so I just wind up generating way more than I need easily. Not because I'm trying to but just because I really like to touch and be touched.

[Murdered by a horrible old man you say? Maybe talking to Lancer is not the best way to avoid that fate.]

I suppose then you are a perfect fit for this place. With so many strange entities drawn here you must have an abundance of methods in which to train.

As far as the moons are concerned, do they also align with what you desire?

[The Nasuverse has something of a plethora of murderous old men. It's kind of an epidemic.]

That's true! I've gotten more practical experience in the few months I've been here than most of the rest of my life, if nothing else. The plants and those Cerberus transformers were both really helpful for honing my skills.

Eh, some yes, some no. I'm an Iris, so the regeneration, pain resistance and all is really nice! Not a hundred percent sure about the bunny features, but I don't hate them.

[Don't murder shame!]

I suppose those are less insufferable things to have to deal with. I wish you luck in your endeavors and your adjustment then.

[Maybe not everyone is so pointedly terrible in their moonblessings. Maybe some compliment instead.]

Sounds to me like you've had to deal with "blessings" that are a lot less pleasant. Or am I reading too much into that comment?

[She doesn't think so. "Less insufferable" has pretty clear implications.]

I've yet to decide if it is a cruel joke or just horrific luck on my part, but you may assume so.

[Nothing about this, except maybe the color scheme, suits him.]

Should I even bother asking for specifics?

[Because she's definitely curious now, but she doesn't want to upset him.]

Let's just say I have plenty of vices in which I would entertain being compelled to indulge in. Apparently this place has deemed it necessary to add vices I rather not.

[Which, oddly, has less to do with sex than with some other things in particular.]

[Given the sort of vice Lunatia likes to push, Kairi kind of figures she has this figured out.]

I think that's all I need to hear, yeah. I... can sympathize a bit, actually.

[Oddly enough his vice conflict isn't necessarily sexual in nature.]

I am powerful enough I feel I can overcome it for now, but it does create a problem for my future endeavors.

[Well, she's been wrong before.]

I didn't realize being strong enough could let you overcome it. I've been trying to just power through it with sheer will, but that's... well, kind of hit-or-miss.

[Just let Lancer lie to himself.]

If one's will is strong enough and conviction is unwavering I do not see any challenge that is insurmountable.

[Of course he cheated it thus far by avoiding civilization during it and letting less distractions thwart his attempts to reign in what he has become. Trees don't bleed.]

Well, I'd like to believe the same thing, but in my experience there are some things that you just can't deal by being determined enough.

[She'd have taken down the entire thirteen by herself if that was all it took.]

It's true we all have our limits. I'd rather fall pushing them than settle within them, myself.

I suppose I see it more as a matter of staying true to who I am. Accepting defeat before I am dead is not something I can tolerate.

[Because the alternative leads to something worse.]

You're that against what the moons are pushing on you?

[Suddenly, she finds herself thinking that maybe she was wrong about what made him so upset.]

What comes with these Moonblessings is a mockery of a mockery.

[The agitation does rise to his pale features but he lets it fade just as quickly.]

I have fought against such things longer than I have had to suffer these moons. I will be it's better here as well.

[Okay, now she's almost entirely sure.]

This... isn't the usual thing the moons are encouraging, is it?

From what little I know it is apparently one of the things Sanguis encourages.

[He's not really the type of Servant to seek a comprehensive understanding of such. Though he's going to try a little harder in the future.]

I will assert my dominance over it and not bow to the whims of heavenly bodies.

Sanguis? Oh. That explains a lot.

[Yep, okay, her initial assumption was very much wrong. That'll teach her to jump to conclusions!]

Yeah, I... very much support resisting that. Do you have ways you can let some of the pressure off, maybe? Sparring partners or something?

I think it'll become easier once I settle in. Otherwise sparring partners and the like seem the opposite of what is needed.

[Anyone who bleeds is probably a mistake to let out steam with. At least while he's fighting this.]

Oh, that’s a good point. That would just make it worse, wouldn’t it?

[She envisions someone in the throes of Sanguis’s bloodlust in a full-on fight, and shudders.]

Well, I hope your plan keeps working, for everyone’s sake.

As at the moment I wish not to cause more strife to those stranded, I agree.

[That could change! He barely knows them all.]

Until then I will save my vices for when the moons are more agreeable.

[Please stick to the “no strife” approach for as long as possible, Uncle Vlad.]

I hope things don’t push on that urge too much. Moon aside.

We can hope. Until then, thank you for answering my questions.

[He's pretty sure everyone is either okay with, or at least not as angry about, the whole Moonblessing thing as he is. So it is probably just him. That doesn't make it any better.]

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