I've done a lot of things in my life but never that; ANONYMOUS TEXT

[rippingu]

[He has some questions or some thoughts or some concerns. Either way, he is reaching out anonymously cause it's complicated is an understatement. But he does not need this getting back to his bandmates, so anon all the way through the whole thing. If you can hack it; feel free, just keep his secret?]

How do you date someone? What is there you can do to make it special in a place like this?

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that made me snort...though accurate? >> then again so was this guy till now lol

[rippingu]

I'm not worried about qualifications; probably better at it than I am.
He's the type of guy who'd say something I'd want to do because it would make me happy.

[shinseikai]

agree to disagree - im pretty sure im the biggest slut here and i wont be dethroned easily

[ this??? was not a contest, but ok ]

but yeah i know the type
why not just do that
something that would make you happy?

[rippingu]

Ha. You want the throne, it's yours. I'm takin' my front and back off the market if I'm lucky.

[Had this been last month he may well have challenged Yashiro to see who could bang more people in a month. Now, he'd rather focus on the point of this message. A certain bassist.]

I'm trying to not be selfish with him, I was with the last guy.

[And so was the last guy with him in return. It did not turn out well.]

[shinseikai]

Someone here, or back home?

[rippingu]

Home.

I was selfish with both of them. At least I can make it up to him here.

[shinseikai]

wait im confused now, were you with both of these guys back home?

[rippingu]

No, just my ex who isn't here.

But I knew for two years the one who is was in love with me.
I made sure of it even when I didn't think I felt that same.
Or that I was good enough for him. I'm still not.
I just wanted him to save me from myself.

[shinseikai]

Do you really think another person can do that for someone? Save them from themselves?

[rippingu]

Yeah, I do or I need to, can't spend my life in a different bed every night, it's lonely and exhausting sometimes.

The right person can. The wrong one will just dig knives under your skin.

[shinseikai]

It's ridiculous to think someone could do that for you. If you're going to make that decision you have to make it yourself.

Expecting someone to do that for you is like drowning and asking for help from someone who doesn't know how to swim. You're only going to drag them down with you.

[rippingu]

You're probably right; but if he's what motivates me, gives me a reason to give enough of a shit about myself to want to change it.

Why do you think I'm here making a fool of myself? I don't want to drag him down, I want to stop drowning.

[shinseikai]

You're not making a fool out of yourself. If he's just a motivation that's a probably a good thing.

[rippingu]

Here's to hoping you're right or I'm exploding my entire life.


[because this can even blow up the band, which means his future in a way.]

[shinseikai]

Good luck
Though my guess is it's not going to be as bad as you think it is

[rippingu]

I'll still take all the luck I can get.