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There are some questions that I have been mulling over for quite some time now. As someone who has returned home once before and returned back to Prismatica with their memories in tact on multiple occasions (apparently some people return, only to be a blank slate), I've had the utmost displeasure of experiencing a harrowing bit of dissonance: My obligation to the world I grew up in, and the freedom I craved in such a liberating sandbox environment as Prismatica. The longer I allow myself to settle down here, the more reluctant I am to leave, and each subsequent ping-ponging back and forth (especially against my own will) leaves me with a heavier heart.

Seeing such a varying degree of opinions both on the network and in person, I've always been curious as to how people feel about their status as a "moonblessed" citizen and in turn, their unpredictable predicament.

If and when the day of reckoning and/or returning is upon us (and should the higher powers be so kind to provide us a choice at all), would you ever wish to return back to your own pocket of the universe? Or multiverse, if Prismatica is indeed set within a different universe altogether?

What would hold you back?

Or if there is nothing holding you back:

what would you take back with you (memories, tangible items, people, etc)?

Or! Bonus question:

In an ideal situation, (let's just throw all propriety to the wind here for a moment) how would you like things to be? This one might be a tricky one. I think this could also easily tie in to the second question, for reasons I assume I don't have to spell out.

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{ This takes him longer to think about than usual. }

Not sure. I'd like to think I wouldn't.

But who knows what time could do?

My situation is a strange one, to be sure. I suspect nobody else is so well off, based on the small amount of statistics I've gathered.

Not only that. Over the years I've managed to collect a large amount of extremely obscure books. Even the most common would be important to archive, but rarities can provide some interesting insights. ...sometimes. Some are just less-developed versions of existing information.

Yeah, that's what I was thinking.

I can see that. I think I've just gotten far too used to living and accepting my own corner of Pennsylvania to be able to go with the idea of being locked away from it, without being horribly homesick. If being here has been any indication.

Being away from home on, say, the other side of the planet, is one thing. But "in another universe" is about as hopelessly far away as you can get.

You must have one hell of a harddrive
So lots of overlap huh
Not too surprising, given how unreliable humanity is

Heh yeah I suppose you're right about that.
I try not to think too hard about it though
Too big of a picture to really wrap my mind around despite literally living it right now

Yeah. I know the feeling.

I hope that answers your question, anyway. I poked around here and saw that most folks looked like they wanted to stay here, so I thought you might want to hear from someone who doesn't.

It did. I was mostly lookin for an interesting conversation and what people thought, so. But yes it looks pretty varied so far. I get the feeling most are stuck in that shaky middle ground which I suspected would be the most popular opinion.

I appreciate your input.

I'm not surprised. People stay here so long that they build new lives, and it's hard to leave it behind, even if you miss home too.

Yeah, of course. See you 'round.

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maybe
i wouldnt mind them being here either because home is pretty crazy right now but if they cant then letting them know wouldnt be a bad idea

oh uh actually no i met her in another world before here but then we wound up in prismatica together after

Bringing them all here? If your home world is as bad as you say it is, perhaps it would give them a bit of reprieve.
Not a bad idea in itself.

That's quite remarkable...
Either you're fated to be with her or you both have extremely good luck.

its sure as shit not sunshine and rainbows lately

i mean most worlds probably arent but im pretty sure no one wants to be involved in a demonic gate breaking open

im gonna go with luck

really really amazing luck

Yes that does sound like a bad time

One could also argue that such ~amazing~ luck can be interpreted as fate
As if one and the same
But realistically (if one could even call either of these things realistic), perhaps it's a healthy dose of each

{ someone's a huge fuckin' nerd for fate/destiny themes }

chance that we wound up in the same place at the same time

fate that we met again in a second different world?

[PROBLEM: Back home, she's not storing them on hard drives. It's literally a library in a lakeside mansion -- which is probably protected because space/time bullshit means the inside is larger than the outside, so that might have some effect. But even then...

Here, at least, she's had the decency to get multiple hard drives. And backups for quite a few of them.]

Multiple drives. It's useful to keep backups.

There's also a lot of instances of humanity having to relearn things it once new because they were intentionally destroyed.

Yes! All of that.
Can you imagine the sheer improbability of that happening at any given time? Unless you're physically attached to each other (and maybe not even that would prevent it), I can't see chance, the fickle mistress, being so kind.

I don't believe in any one deity, but I do believe there's always a higher power of some kind at play.
It's hard to imagine otherwise.
But that's just me.
Of course if you still truly believe it's all luck, then that's your prerogative.

{ Time for an update, Patch. }

Oh, that is a problem isn't it?
How do you go about recovering something like that?

[The problem will be getting electricity to the mansion if she goes home. And sourcing the parts.

...or she'd have to put together magic to let her assemble those herself -- which is doable, to be fair, but pretty complicated.]

I don't have a good answer besides 'dumb luck.' Have to happen to come across copies held in personal collections and you can gain access to them somehow.

Understandably, the further back you go, the less likely you are to even have a chance to find those.

Sounds tedious.

{ And a thankless task, he thinks with some disappointment. Which makes him wonder: }

Why do you do this job?

considering im not really all that lucky most of the time you may have a point

dunno about a full on higher power but theres probably something out there that's like
yes, these two

its kinda funny

in a good way

i would go home in a heartbeat.

i have too many responsibilities to ignore them and selfishly wish to stay. nothing is more important than my duty at home. i've met people from my world here but they're all from the future, so i know what happens in the war and even further than that, but i wouldn't want to know the future in the present. i just want destiny to unfold as it naturally should. keep my hand in it free to write my own fate, but now with confidence i lack at home, knowing it'll all work out. remember that certainty. but nothing else about this place. i've always wondered what it'd be like to live a boring, peaceful life as a regular guy, no one important, no battles, just settled down, mundane. i used to wish for a side life that's not my own. it's a miracle i got to indulge that escapism... it's been like living in a daydream, no past, no future, no obligations except to my own whims. blank slate. but i can only live without consequence like that knowing that someday this entire experience will be even less than a dream.

in an ideal situation, cherry-picking? i only want to keep the effects. not the memories. i'd come back as the person i am now, how i've grown, but i don't want to remember this place or anyone in it. i want to forget all my friends. i've never had such close friends in my entire life. impossible friendships with remarkable people i'd never meet otherwise. but i knew from the start i'll forget them entirely someday. maybe i'd select some useful ideas they've shared with me, foreign battle techniques and new philosophies i can bring home... but as standalone ideas. no emotional attachment. i've been more open with two people in particular than anyone else in my life, but we grew so close because of the moons, trapped in a bubble underwater, magnetized to hug, turned into an animal, things that'd never happen at home. but if i remember how open i felt with them, it'll feel like i lost that openness, and i want to keep building that organically. i just want to hold onto the impact their friendship has made on my personality, changed my mentality... how we've bettered each other... i don't want to mourn their memory. remembering the people i care about here once i return would feel like they died. i'd rather just forget them. forget this whole place.

i'd erase all my memories of growing closer with the people i now care so deeply about... except my sister. i want to keep all of our memories together here exactly the same. it's so different than at home. it'd be complicated, cuz here she's from my future... but i don't want to forget anything with her.

I think that's an apt description:
Kinda funny
In a good way

That's how I feel about a lot of things at the moment, too.

I feel like your ideal situation is certainly much closer to what I'd prefer as well. Perhaps not for the exact reasons but close enough. I'd like to remember the place but not anyone in it lest I be alone in my misery. But with memories of people, there's bound to be memories of faces, desperate to push back to the surface.

Can't have all my cakes and eat it, I suppose. I think if anyone had asked me this question before I made all these meaningful connects, I would've easily said I'd like to forget it all. Nowadays, I'm more inclined to cling to that and suffer through the painful emotions like some sort of masochist. Realistically, forgetting it would be much better. Being useless and jaded even further would only be counter-productive. Not to mention it would make no sense to those who have never experienced living on Prismatica back home.

Your resolve is impressive. I do hope something close to your ideal situation happens for you.

likewise.

it's a fair point that no one else at home would understand or believe us if we remembered. they might think we're crazy! it sounds crazy!!! and i've been living here like five months, still crazy to me. people at home definitely wouldn't get it, we'd have to keep it a secret, which would be adding insult to injury, kinda. better to just forget. sad. but probably true. if my sister and uncle and i all remembered being here when we all go home, though..... that might change my answer slightly, honestly. not sure.

how long have you been here?

I've been told my version of Earth is also crazy, but to us, Prismatica would certainly seem incredible and alien. It would all feel like a dream. Having some solidarity might bring you closer together as a family, perhaps. That doesn't sound too strange. You did mention you'd like to keep the memories you had with your sister here, after all.

Off and on around six months? Not very long at all.

Edited 2020-12-03 03:27 (UTC)

yes same friends here come from very plain worlds and think my world sounds like a fantasy place. just different from here i guess. more advanced technology here. less warfare.

my family could seriously use some solidarity. if we do end up keeping our memories... might not be the worst thing if all three of us remember.

i've been here five months.
how do you mean off and on?

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