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There are some questions that I have been mulling over for quite some time now. As someone who has returned home once before and returned back to Prismatica with their memories in tact on multiple occasions (apparently some people return, only to be a blank slate), I've had the utmost displeasure of experiencing a harrowing bit of dissonance: My obligation to the world I grew up in, and the freedom I craved in such a liberating sandbox environment as Prismatica. The longer I allow myself to settle down here, the more reluctant I am to leave, and each subsequent ping-ponging back and forth (especially against my own will) leaves me with a heavier heart.

Seeing such a varying degree of opinions both on the network and in person, I've always been curious as to how people feel about their status as a "moonblessed" citizen and in turn, their unpredictable predicament.

If and when the day of reckoning and/or returning is upon us (and should the higher powers be so kind to provide us a choice at all), would you ever wish to return back to your own pocket of the universe? Or multiverse, if Prismatica is indeed set within a different universe altogether?

What would hold you back?

Or if there is nothing holding you back:

what would you take back with you (memories, tangible items, people, etc)?

Or! Bonus question:

In an ideal situation, (let's just throw all propriety to the wind here for a moment) how would you like things to be? This one might be a tricky one. I think this could also easily tie in to the second question, for reasons I assume I don't have to spell out.

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I do not want to return home
There are things here that I could not have in my world
Bonds that would need to be broken...
I don't want that

Forgetting my memories of this world would be too cruel
My relationships
My friends
They hold great value to me
Given the choice, I would choose to stay

The only thing I would ask for is a way to contact my family
I would want to let them know that I am well
And that I am happy

[ all of this... is extremely Relevant to him. and he doesn't like it. ]

haha, i actually ... came here from another place entirely

[ ... wait ]

err, what i mean is, the place i was in before prismatica was another place where i'd been taken there against my will, across like... universes? i guess? or whatever

some of the people who were there with me came along here, somehow

some of them didn't remember at first, others it was like we never parted

but all in all... i don't really know how to answer this stuff... though i do know what you mean. your home is your home, but the longer you spend away from it and the longer you're settled in a new place, the more that the new place becomes "home". leaving it gets harder and harder to think about

i miss my friends from home. but i've also been gone for about 3 years... it's really weird to think back on my hometown and the last thing i was doing there before i got ripped out of my life and thrown into space... it's like... that person isn't me anymore. not just due to aging and stuff, but going back now, after everything i've been through, seems more scary than staying here forever because i don't know if i could get used to it again

i guess what i will say, no matter what happens, i don't want to forget any of it. forgetting it means forgetting people i love... and if we were to part...

i'd rather live with the pain than not. because those memories are important.

I have obligations I must return to, and frankly, I prefer my world to this one.

On the matter of forgetting, I am far less certain.

i miss my friends back home a lot

but they're really all i would ever want to go back for

i don't have any family there anymore that isn't here with me (it was just me and my brother and he's here now) and shit kinda went really south right before i left anyway

ive been gone for so damn long at this point im not even sure what it would feel like to go back

hell i went back for like five days and it basically just got worse so returning here was a blessing

also im kinda getting married next month to someone who isn't from assiah so i'd also be leaving her behind

Getting heavy on the public network, huh?

I would have to go home. The people there, my wife, my coworkers, my job, my city, it's... basically half of who I am. As nice as this place is, I'm a stranger here, and being separated has been painful.

Uh, that being said, I'd probably like to have all my memories with me. Some photos, too. It's really important to me that I remember. If no one remembers or feels its effects, then it didn't matter at all. I want this to matter.

As for an ideal situation: it'd be great to be able to visit this place from my own universe.

By what I assume to be pure luck, most people I know (and don't hate) are here already, plus I can access a decent amount of information -- so I'm not certain how necessary it is to return.

It puts a damper on my goal of archiving Earth knowledge, but I suppose that can be on pause until I return, if I do.

i would go home in a heartbeat.

i have too many responsibilities to ignore them and selfishly wish to stay. nothing is more important than my duty at home. i've met people from my world here but they're all from the future, so i know what happens in the war and even further than that, but i wouldn't want to know the future in the present. i just want destiny to unfold as it naturally should. keep my hand in it free to write my own fate, but now with confidence i lack at home, knowing it'll all work out. remember that certainty. but nothing else about this place. i've always wondered what it'd be like to live a boring, peaceful life as a regular guy, no one important, no battles, just settled down, mundane. i used to wish for a side life that's not my own. it's a miracle i got to indulge that escapism... it's been like living in a daydream, no past, no future, no obligations except to my own whims. blank slate. but i can only live without consequence like that knowing that someday this entire experience will be even less than a dream.

in an ideal situation, cherry-picking? i only want to keep the effects. not the memories. i'd come back as the person i am now, how i've grown, but i don't want to remember this place or anyone in it. i want to forget all my friends. i've never had such close friends in my entire life. impossible friendships with remarkable people i'd never meet otherwise. but i knew from the start i'll forget them entirely someday. maybe i'd select some useful ideas they've shared with me, foreign battle techniques and new philosophies i can bring home... but as standalone ideas. no emotional attachment. i've been more open with two people in particular than anyone else in my life, but we grew so close because of the moons, trapped in a bubble underwater, magnetized to hug, turned into an animal, things that'd never happen at home. but if i remember how open i felt with them, it'll feel like i lost that openness, and i want to keep building that organically. i just want to hold onto the impact their friendship has made on my personality, changed my mentality... how we've bettered each other... i don't want to mourn their memory. remembering the people i care about here once i return would feel like they died. i'd rather just forget them. forget this whole place.

i'd erase all my memories of growing closer with the people i now care so deeply about... except my sister. i want to keep all of our memories together here exactly the same. it's so different than at home. it'd be complicated, cuz here she's from my future... but i don't want to forget anything with her.

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