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There are some questions that I have been mulling over for quite some time now. As someone who has returned home once before and returned back to Prismatica with their memories in tact on multiple occasions (apparently some people return, only to be a blank slate), I've had the utmost displeasure of experiencing a harrowing bit of dissonance: My obligation to the world I grew up in, and the freedom I craved in such a liberating sandbox environment as Prismatica. The longer I allow myself to settle down here, the more reluctant I am to leave, and each subsequent ping-ponging back and forth (especially against my own will) leaves me with a heavier heart.

Seeing such a varying degree of opinions both on the network and in person, I've always been curious as to how people feel about their status as a "moonblessed" citizen and in turn, their unpredictable predicament.

If and when the day of reckoning and/or returning is upon us (and should the higher powers be so kind to provide us a choice at all), would you ever wish to return back to your own pocket of the universe? Or multiverse, if Prismatica is indeed set within a different universe altogether?

What would hold you back?

Or if there is nothing holding you back:

what would you take back with you (memories, tangible items, people, etc)?

Or! Bonus question:

In an ideal situation, (let's just throw all propriety to the wind here for a moment) how would you like things to be? This one might be a tricky one. I think this could also easily tie in to the second question, for reasons I assume I don't have to spell out.

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i would go home in a heartbeat.

i have too many responsibilities to ignore them and selfishly wish to stay. nothing is more important than my duty at home. i've met people from my world here but they're all from the future, so i know what happens in the war and even further than that, but i wouldn't want to know the future in the present. i just want destiny to unfold as it naturally should. keep my hand in it free to write my own fate, but now with confidence i lack at home, knowing it'll all work out. remember that certainty. but nothing else about this place. i've always wondered what it'd be like to live a boring, peaceful life as a regular guy, no one important, no battles, just settled down, mundane. i used to wish for a side life that's not my own. it's a miracle i got to indulge that escapism... it's been like living in a daydream, no past, no future, no obligations except to my own whims. blank slate. but i can only live without consequence like that knowing that someday this entire experience will be even less than a dream.

in an ideal situation, cherry-picking? i only want to keep the effects. not the memories. i'd come back as the person i am now, how i've grown, but i don't want to remember this place or anyone in it. i want to forget all my friends. i've never had such close friends in my entire life. impossible friendships with remarkable people i'd never meet otherwise. but i knew from the start i'll forget them entirely someday. maybe i'd select some useful ideas they've shared with me, foreign battle techniques and new philosophies i can bring home... but as standalone ideas. no emotional attachment. i've been more open with two people in particular than anyone else in my life, but we grew so close because of the moons, trapped in a bubble underwater, magnetized to hug, turned into an animal, things that'd never happen at home. but if i remember how open i felt with them, it'll feel like i lost that openness, and i want to keep building that organically. i just want to hold onto the impact their friendship has made on my personality, changed my mentality... how we've bettered each other... i don't want to mourn their memory. remembering the people i care about here once i return would feel like they died. i'd rather just forget them. forget this whole place.

i'd erase all my memories of growing closer with the people i now care so deeply about... except my sister. i want to keep all of our memories together here exactly the same. it's so different than at home. it'd be complicated, cuz here she's from my future... but i don't want to forget anything with her.

I feel like your ideal situation is certainly much closer to what I'd prefer as well. Perhaps not for the exact reasons but close enough. I'd like to remember the place but not anyone in it lest I be alone in my misery. But with memories of people, there's bound to be memories of faces, desperate to push back to the surface.

Can't have all my cakes and eat it, I suppose. I think if anyone had asked me this question before I made all these meaningful connects, I would've easily said I'd like to forget it all. Nowadays, I'm more inclined to cling to that and suffer through the painful emotions like some sort of masochist. Realistically, forgetting it would be much better. Being useless and jaded even further would only be counter-productive. Not to mention it would make no sense to those who have never experienced living on Prismatica back home.

Your resolve is impressive. I do hope something close to your ideal situation happens for you.

likewise.

it's a fair point that no one else at home would understand or believe us if we remembered. they might think we're crazy! it sounds crazy!!! and i've been living here like five months, still crazy to me. people at home definitely wouldn't get it, we'd have to keep it a secret, which would be adding insult to injury, kinda. better to just forget. sad. but probably true. if my sister and uncle and i all remembered being here when we all go home, though..... that might change my answer slightly, honestly. not sure.

how long have you been here?

I've been told my version of Earth is also crazy, but to us, Prismatica would certainly seem incredible and alien. It would all feel like a dream. Having some solidarity might bring you closer together as a family, perhaps. That doesn't sound too strange. You did mention you'd like to keep the memories you had with your sister here, after all.

Off and on around six months? Not very long at all.

Edited 2020-12-03 03:27 (UTC)

yes same friends here come from very plain worlds and think my world sounds like a fantasy place. just different from here i guess. more advanced technology here. less warfare.

my family could seriously use some solidarity. if we do end up keeping our memories... might not be the worst thing if all three of us remember.

i've been here five months.
how do you mean off and on?

I've been sent back to and forth from my own home to Prismatica. I'd stayed for a couple months the first time, went back for a few, then back again for a month, and back home again... and now third time's a charm. This has been the longest stay so far.

Hoping it stays that way, to be honest. That's my answer to my original post's question, I suppose.

you want to stay here indefinitely....?

Yes, I was being a bit dodgy of the question itself in regards to my own situation but ideally, I'd like to stay. If the reason for my staying here does so as well. Sorry I cannot be more descriptive than that.

But if I were to be forcibly rented though, permanently, I'd be much more inclined to be in what you perceive to be your ideal situation

Hope that makes sense. I'm still continuously sifting through my own thoughts regarding this as well.

it makes sense.
im guessing you fell in love or something?
i know someone who’s getting married and everything, owns a business, been here a year, was on another planet for a year...... i guess no matter what people make a life wherever they live.

I cannot rightly say...but I suppose it's something like that.

{ He'd be loathe to admit that he's embarrassed by this notion, to admit that he's in love. They've yet to even use the actual phrase itself, though all signs clearly pointed to this plain and obvious fact.

He just wants to say it to his partner first before admitting it off-hand and indirectly with someone he hasn't even met before.}

Home is where the heart is, as they say.
So cliché that it hurts but they're clichés for a reason I guess.

i dont want that cliche to apply to me
earlier i go home the better

{ He laughs from behind the screen. He COULD also use an emoji but... maybe that'd seem a bit facetious. }

Fair enough
I do hope you get your wish

likewise
Whatever it ends up being

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