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So, I turned 17 today. I completely forgot that was going to happen. In my defense though, my birthday is usually in March and it's only now because it was September instead of May when I arrived in the last world that pulled people in that didn't live there.

... Anyway, for something those of you who haven't known me since before I showed up here might be interested in, does anyone want martial arts lessons? I was training a couple of people back in the last world I was in and it went pretty well there, so I figured I should probably start that up again.

For now compensation is negotiable, since I don't know how many people would even be interested in this in the first place and money here is... weird. Days of the week, time, and how often the lessons happen are going to depend on just how many are interested, but I'll let people know sooner rather than later.

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[ Okay, dang. That made things a bit... more difficult to explain it. But there was a bunch of the context for how fucked up that place was that she kinda had to go into detail on.]

Okay. So... not only was it a place that they insisted on people having to have sex multiple times a month, but the society there was split into two social classes. One of which was... well, basically had everything, and the other that had nothing. And those of us who were sorted into the first class were required to take in someone of the other class. Basically as a slave, for all intents and purposes. Sexual or otherwise.

[ She pauses, clenching her fists for a moment before shaking her head.]

A lot of us just... made the contract that we had set up for it basically be as open as possible, but even just having to do that was... well, obviously fucked up.

How does that even-!

[Yosuke shook his head, looking a little distressed and confused. How does that even work on a societal level? One gets everything while the other gets nothing? So you have to go into slavery? Slavery itself wasn't some new concept, he remembered that much from school. But he was pretty sure it was never that black and white about it.

From her words, it sounded like she had been part of the group that had everything and it sounded like she and others tried to make it as best as possible for those who didn't. But that was definitely still fucked up.]

And there was no way to stop that kind of practice?

[They couldn't just go along with it just because, there had to be a reason, right?]

It's a little hard to overturn something like that when you just suddenly appear there out of nowhere. [ Or not so suddenly considering that the whole reason they were there was because of some device that they supposedly didn't know how to shut off. But that's not really the point.]

Those of us who were brought in really wanted to try to do something to overturn it, but for the most part most of the people who were born in Duplicity just... didn't see anything wrong with the system.

And if we tried to just say... overthrow the government or something outright, they could just stop us by turning our powers off. Trust me, if they hadn't been able to do that, when I and Gohan first arrived, they would've been overthrown as soon as we figured out who he would've needed to stop.

[Yosuke looked down at that, silently pushing his food away as he crossed his arms. He knew she was right. It would be like if they, the Moonblessed, suddenly tried to overthrow Lunatia. They had powers, but could they really do it? And what about the Prismals? He sighed.]

S-Sorry. But I-I believe you, that you'd have done something if you could. It's just... it's tough to wrap my mind around, y'know? Not that I don't believe you! Just... yeah.

[Ugh, such a lame way to say that. But it was true. It was hard to fully grasp and understand since he was never there. Even Lunatia had some bounds of normalcy for what it was worth. This Duplicity place just... didn't.]

H-...How long were you there for?

Trust me, I'd have a hard time believing it too if I hadn't been there. [ Even with this highly limited explanation, it was just way too over the top.

At his question for how long she was there for, she frowns for a moment, thinking about it.]

... Almost nine months or so. Give or take a couple of days, I guess. A lot of the people that I knew there weren't there for anywhere near as long though; sometimes they'd just vanish, somehow getting sent home.

Or I guess somewhere else, since, well, I'm obviously not home. Even if this is a much better place.

[That was such a long time. Then again, who knew how long they would be here in Lunatia. Even if this was place clearly the better alternative to Duplicity, it still made him feel homesick thinking he won't get to see his parents or Teddie for awhile, if ever.]

I guess it's better than nothing. Coming here, I mean.

[Still, all this didn't change what he thought of her. She had to deal with the hand she was dealt with. He couldn't blame her for that.]

[ She nods, sighing a bit before looking back over at him. Sure, she has to admit that Lunatia was great. But at the same time, it's been almost a year since she saw Gohan. Since she saw her Father, Erasa, or anyone else that she knew from before Duplicity.

She's honestly starting to wonder if she'll ever see them again.]

Yeah. It is. Though honestly, it doesn't really help my bigger problem. Or issues with the whole relationship thing, I guess. While it wasn't true for everyone I got close to, Duplicity was really, really good at waiting until I got close to someone before yanking them away from me. [ Ryuji and Kairi (and to a much lesser extent Sora) were probably the two major huge exceptions to that.]

And I'm sure you miss your friends and family back home too.

[He nodded and couldn't help himself when he reached over to take her hand, to give her a reassuring squeeze.]

I take it you have someone back home, then?

[It's the only thing he could think of that would give her issues with having a relationship, what happened in Duplicity notwithstanding.]

Yeah. Exactly.

[ Her eyes widen slightly at the contact on her hand, but she's quick to squeeze him back.]

And as for someone back home... sorta. I mean, I definitely love him, and I know he loves me since he was in Duplicity with me for... like, the first month or so, but back home we never officially got together. [ She pauses for a moment.]

And well... that's part of the reason why I'm hesitant to consider dating anyone, but it's mostly Duplicity that's the bigger problem. I mean, I haven't slept with anyone since I got here, but it's not like I'm... deliberately stopping myself. It just hasn't happened.

[ She sighs.]

I'm... not really completely out of the mindspace I got into while I was there. Or out of the mindspace at all, I guess. I don't even know if I'd be able to actually be faithful to anyone in a relationship yet. Especially with all the stuff that happens with the moons.

[Yosuke nodded and paused for a second, he really needed to think about what to say next or he was liable to say something stupid and he didn't need his foot in his mouth now of all times.]

Well... there's nothing wrong with not having sex. Whether it's by choice or the moment hasn't happened. [That's something he was learning himself. A month and a half here and his friends got way more action than he ever did. Hell, he was still a virgin! And it was tough to not let that wound his pride because when he really thought about it, it really didn't matter, did it? Especially as she said, with the moons of this place.] But I guess it might depend if you wanna get out of that headspace or not?

[He realized he probably sounded like he was judging her for that and he was quick to pull back with a stammer, damn it, foot get out of his mouth!]

N-Not that there's anything wrong with it! I-I just mean... ugh, hold on. [He was still weirded out by how open was everyone himself, and he knew it was all consensual so he shouldn't judge.] Sorry. It's just I mean... some people here are being open about having lots of people? And it seems like it's all agreed upon so I don't think it has anything to do with being unfaithful?

But if you are wanting to keep to one person, my friend Kanji is proving that you don't have to share if you don't want to. He and his girlfriend are making it work as far as I know. And I think I know there are others who aren't even doing it at all, you know?

[He leaned back in his chair to take a breath. He wasn't even sure he conveyed his thoughts properly, given this was all still new to him too.]

I guess what I'm saying it is that I don't think anyone would get mad at you if you wanted to keep it casual or something. I've never been in a relationship myself, but I have been in love. She's... not here anymore but I think even back then I knew that if I was in a relationship, I'd have only wanted to be with her and no one else. So, if that happened here, I'd just have to take a page from Kanji and Naoto's book and make it work.

I think you can too, whichever way you go.

[ Videl listens to him, making sure to try to keep all of her own doubts out of her head as she processes what he says. He does make a lot of sense, and she this place wasn't Duplicity. The fact that she hadn't had sex since she arrived here was proof enough of that.

And she also knows that what he was saying was the truth, hell, she had already run into Ryuji and even back in Duplicity he, Ann, and some other people were definitely together. But at the same time, the thought of trying to do that herself was just... not wrong for her, per say. But she's pretty sure she's not going to be able to actually do what Ryuji and Ann have.]

I guess. I mean, as far as my brain goes I do know all that. But it still doesn't stop me from feeling this way. But I'm not sure I'd be able to do something like what you were first saying. At least not without a lot of work on my part; I'd probably be a bit too jealous. [ She sighs, leaning back against the chair.]

... I mean, for the relationship with multiple people thing. I'm able to handle it if it's just a casual thing between friends. Or at least I have been so far.

[ Maybe she should just... think about it some more and figure out exactly what she wanted. If only it were that easy.]

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