That makes sense. It is nice to know you share a perspective with someone, especially if it's a thing that makes you feel isolated or abnormal.
I feel like you know me too well already and you don't even know who I am! Stop that! It... absolutely does feel like that. Getting there first is winning, being second means you're just a fill-in. I was so fixated on him for so long, I didn't want to give up the hope or I'd feel like I wasted so much. Not that I don't value his friendship, of course! Just, you know, how limited options seem, back home.
That whole "purity" thing. It's definitely like relating girls to hand-me-downs. Ugh, that's so gross! I hate it so much! But I play right into it! I have my whole life!
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I feel like you know me too well already and you don't even know who I am! Stop that! It... absolutely does feel like that. Getting there first is winning, being second means you're just a fill-in. I was so fixated on him for so long, I didn't want to give up the hope or I'd feel like I wasted so much. Not that I don't value his friendship, of course! Just, you know, how limited options seem, back home.
That whole "purity" thing. It's definitely like relating girls to hand-me-downs. Ugh, that's so gross! I hate it so much! But I play right into it! I have my whole life!