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[onerous]

What is it that keeps you living? Why? What makes it worth it to you?

[That’s, uh. That’s it. That’s the message. There’s no follow-up explanation or anything.

She’s just curious and doesn’t seem to see how alarming a question like that out of the blue might be]

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[onerous]

Back home, I had Hisoka. She the one who asked me to live a while longer, so I suppose I'm staying alive for her.

But making connections with others is a little frightening. Because if I end up falling the 'wrong' way, then it'll hurt a lot of people and I don't want to do that.

But for me and here I'm from, falling the 'wrong' way isn't really a choice for me anymore. There's something important I have to finish, and the outcome of that may lead to that 'wrong' end in order to help someone...

[She pauses, huffs out a breath]

I guess that doesn't make a lot of sense though, does it.

[fineprinted]

In all honesty, I'm not sure which exactly is the "right" and "wrong" way to fall into. I'm awfully obtuse that way.

But since you're in another place for the time being, I think it's about time to step out of your comfort zone a little. Making new connections can be frightening like you said, but they may save you from going down the wrong path. If anything, the fact that you're aware that you shouldn't go down that path is already a huge step for you.

You can continue to live for Hisoka-san, but... There's no harm in finding out new things to look forward to when you wake up and live for another day.