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[onerous]

What is it that keeps you living? Why? What makes it worth it to you?

[That’s, uh. That’s it. That’s the message. There’s no follow-up explanation or anything.

She’s just curious and doesn’t seem to see how alarming a question like that out of the blue might be]

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anon

[piercedyourheart]

My friends. They're basically my family.

And I made a promise that I'd live, no matter what.

[onerous]

[She thinks about that for a moment, nodding to herself]

I have something similar. I promised someone I would live, so I feel like I can't go back on that now.

Not that I'm particularly keen to, but it's something to remember when I start feeling down.

[piercedyourheart]

Yeah. You'd hate to let them down when you've come so far, especially if they were important to you.

[onerous]

Exactly. They saw something worth saving, something that they wanted to see keep on a while longer. I may not know what that thing is, but if they believed in it so much, then it feels wrong to not try as well.

You went anonymous to talk about this though. Is there a reason why it'd bother you to say as much with your name attached? I'm just curious.

[piercedyourheart]

Giving yourself a chance is the hardest part. Sometimes I feel like--I don't know. An impostor, maybe. They've stuck by me no matter what, though, so I want to keep trying.

Talking about this kind of thing is hard for me. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to talk about my friends unanon, but everything else.... It's a little too personal to share with everyone in Lunatia, you know?